[himecthekWiff]

class="postbody"Hey guys, I just wanted to share an expereince I had. I'm still at aweabout it, don't know what happend but whatever happend it changed me..Sorry for all the reading material lol this happend about 4 yearsago....Alot of the time of growing up in my teen years, I felt like Iwas empty inside even though i know I had all these emotions I'm a veryemotional person most of the time. Not emotional like crying 247lol I just mean like you know those sad shows you see on tv, orsomething sad happens you'd cry..etc mainly my dad would yell at mealot for stuff i couldn't understand so i would cry at him all the time.Anyways getting of the topic. I just basically felt like someoneelse was in me and I was jsut watching and viewing. But most ofthe times it made me depressed and confused as why I was feeling this way.
My friend started to talk to me about astral projection we werepracticing wiccan at the time. And she told me she saw this bookand decied to read it. The next night she had astral projectedinto her neighbors house, and what not. I was like girl you gottabe kiddin me lol. I thoght she was crazy cause I never herd ofanything like that. Well I decided to do some research and found out that she was right.(me and her aren't really that great of friends nor friends anymore...))Anyways, so i did some practicing methods. About a couple months of practicin I had my first and then my second. It was an amazing event. I didn't want to stop doing this causewere I went I felt engulfed by love and like I was home like I hadfound myself...It was just literally beautiful..Everytime I kept coming back into reality I got he same old feelingsback..Like I wasn't alive or just a viewer in someone elses shoes...Iwas starting to get tehse bad thoughts and vibes. I was gettingemotions about I should just end my life. I hated those feelingsthey made me hate myself alot. I went to sleep that night thinking about those thoughts about killingmy self or something. Like why shoudl I do this why am I thinkingabout these feelings..I drifted off into this like trance state and waslike what the heck is this? I can't move and was like ohhh I must beastral projecting now. And continued to eath normally and relaxmore.After about I guess what seemed like 20seconds..I just suddenly startedto feel like my body was being ripped to shreds the pain was just sounbelievable. I got a glimpse of my body being curled up andblackend out. Then these viations came and those didn't seem tohelp it just made the pain worse and way out of wack (sync whatever youwant to call it)idk what the heck was goin on. I couldn't do nothing but just laythere. I started to hear this booming white high pitchnoise. I could hear a boy and a girl childs voice at the sametime it was kind of odd. But they kept repeating to me to "tryharder" the pain stopped for second after they repeated that word about3 times. I exited my body and was above it onto the cieling. Icould see my body usually I have an aura. this time I din't itwas greyed out like I would be ill or something. it also lookedcoldish like. I didn't get to do much i just got a chance to get out for just asecond the pain started to come back and I was rushed back down into mybody. I woke up with a jolt and couldn't move for about a couplesecs. Then I was scared sh**tless ofr the rest of the night lolEver since i've had that expereince. I feel really differnt..Likei'm my own self now and I don't get those depressed feelings ornegative thoughts anymore. It's wonderful. If anyone hasany advice what this could of been? i'm still trying ot figure this outlol...I'm a curious person sometimes lol..