[Cwvnyfsj]

thanks for the hugs Marianne it sure did help

my toe is feeling much better although its turn black!

[echocassidyde]

Hope both of you are feeling better ((((((((((((((((Love you)))))))))))))))

[Cwvnyfsj]

thanks Mystic! (((((I love you more!!! I am your No.1 fan))))))

yes I much better but my poor toe took a beating still black and bluish now.

(((hugs)))

[AriaDesser]

Hate life right now..burning out...ackkkk.....stupid work

[Speareerfug]

sending Chris (((((hugs))))) from his "favorifte" manager

[echocassidyde]

Acckk...someone shoot me!!! lol...

Hope you feel better ((((Chris))))) x x x

[Speareerfug]

ROFL,......thought it would make him smile,......

[echocassidyde]

I wanna rant about a spammer!!! arrrrggghghhh...nothing to do with the site...well part of but....blaaaaaah who cares...some people should be ashamed of their own existence!

[echocassidyde]

I'm ***ed off right now. How hard is it for someone to hit a re-send button than to spend 10 minutes arguing with me that the email was sent. Ok, fine, the email was sent..I didn't say it wasn't...But, I didn't get it. Would be productive to resend it so I finally get it right? If I could strangle someone....

[AriaDesser]

Why are some people so 'full of themselves'?

[echocassidyde]

Why are some people so 'full of themselves'?

I think I know who you're talking about...

Well,

Let's say this: Does it really matter if she has something against you?

No, not right now.

You just can't make some people happy...you really can't...when people refuse to be happy or to be amused or to be loved or to be pleased..there's nothing you can do to make them happy, amuse them, please them or to make them feel loved.

Move on And if she bothers you, let her be...

I've got to tell you this too, She really isn't going to offer you any help..EVER. She doesn't have a record of doing that to anyone so you aren't missing much..

I know it's a mean thing to say but I'm sorry if she refuses to love, be loved, respect and be respected..All we can do is send her love...that's it!

End of rant..

[Lkemybab]

Cause they have no one else to fill them up??????....just a thought


why do people lie when they know they are going to get caught and have to face what they said????OOOH I don't like confrontations... seems I have no choice but to confront....

[WeightWatchyshow]

Rant Rant Rant Rant Rant Rant!!!!

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I'm getting sick and tired of a lot of things. Well, everything, but I won't go there.

Just recently, and just a lot of times when I hear anything about "normal people", I get pissed off. The question "what is a normal person anyway?" That question, to me, is almost as ridiculous as "what is the meaning of life?"

There is a difference between normal people and whatever you want to call the rest. I feel like when someone asks this question, they are implying that people who are severely physically impaired have the same levels of abilities and skills "normal people" do. Fact is, they don't. However, and OF COURSE I do understand that everyone has the ability to feel emotions of every kind to any extent, think about thoughts and their own opinions, and try to express themselves. Not everyone has the ability to express themselves so people know what exactly they are trying to get across. What I mainly mean are people who are born without a voice for language, hands that cannot write, legs and feet that cannot support them enough to walk and thus a wheelchair is around, and brains that don't develop in such a way like ours(like logical, but instead mostly creative) that these people are not usually considered "normal". They can't do what we do- they weren't born with our privileges/curses. And it bothers me to think that when these people who aren't "normal" are being taken care of by ignorant people... who dare to consider them "normal", act like these kids and adults are trying to frustrate them- talking in harsh voices towards them because of things they can't help. Like if they fall out of their chair accidentily, or cry out loudly when they need something or want attention. And...I don't actually know this of course, but I think that's one of the last things they actually care about, to annoy the people who are taking care of them. I really think there are so many parts of life they want to understand, but for the most part, just be able to deal with their more limited share of life in pleasant, care-free ways.

I knew a girl named Emily at my home school, bless her heart and smile(she smiled a lot and all the kids who knew her loved her), who pretty much had the description that I typed above: without a voice to speak, or hands to write, in need of a chair... and all that. Despite her limitations, it was clear she had a mind of her own when she wanted to talk to someone, when she was angry or sad and wanted to be involved with those around her, in the class room. I remember once when she was in one of my classes, I was talking about something and it just so happened to come up that I said "normal people". I immediately stopped and turned towards Emily, because I felt I had to apologize. She was looking at me, and wasn't smiling then, for sure. I felt so bad. She's passed away now, this year. I found out by my counselor at the school because she called me. And it's only around the beginning of February. You know what that means.

I didn't mean it the way she may have thought I did, and I don't agree at all with some "normal" people teaching others living the way she did that they are different. They are, but I'm not saying that they aren't human like everyone else. They are physically limited, sure... but they still have hearts and minds. And yet, they can't live like us. In answer to that question,"What is a normal person anyway?" = People who live the average human life and have the ability to act and express for and by themselves, which not everyone can do. There you go, to every smartbutt that asks it again.

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One more, and I'm done.

I hate who I am. I hate who I used to be, and everything I've ever done or said.
I hate that there has to be conflict. I hate that I have to notice all the conflict, and yet not know enough about it to try and come up with solutions or at least be productive.
I hate that I'm becoming so aggressive. I hate that my "family" household has truly detached from me no matter what anyone says. They want me to move out, clearly saying it, talking about me as if I'm not there with them.
I hate that I'm 16 and thinking about all this negative stuff when I should be focusing on a positive future for myself. I can't think about school, I have to think about another place to live. Those people won't kick me out or anything, but they will do everything they can to make me miserable and throw things in my face.. as long as they don't get caught. They do me favors, and only because they have to. I can't keep living this way right now, I need to get things done for me, and myself alone.
I hate that I have to feel alone, even if I know otherwise. Or maybe I don't know otherwise.
I hate that I have to be so unsure, even when I seem to be so set in my thoughts and opinions.
I wish I could just stop talking.

[aLZ9zKsO]

Silent Wonders I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I personally didn't find the question what is normal to be offensive. In all aspects of the question it was in my opinion asking what others see as normal. No two people have the same outlook on something or share the same exact meaning of something. Personally I wouldn't have called anyone a smartbutt because I would have simply asked them to clarify what they meant....if they were really wondering what it means to be normal or if they were being sarcastic.

Reading people's words is alot different then hearing them and watching them. We can intrepret something totally wrong because they may have worded it strangely.

Also, to add a few more cents of my own if I had a handicap no matter what it was I would like others to treat me just like they would treat someone else. If you'd like to call that normal then so be it, but there isn't any reason why handicapped people should be treated any differently because of that.

Yes, it's wrong to yell at anyone or mistreat them handicapped or not.

My prayers and thoughts are with you during these hard times you are facing hun. I pray you will begin to have some peace and clarity in your life.

Love and blessings

[brilkyPlayday]

SilentWonders
Try loving instead of hating...as hard as it is sometime, it will be better for you in the end. Anger and hatred takes up so much energy...energy that you could be using for much happier things.
I try and feel sorry for people that do thing to either hurt or anger me....like little children that don't know any better. Feel sorry for them, for they have such a long was to go to get to were you are mental and spiritually.
16 is a hard age...actually all the teenage years are very difficult...it is such a time of growth and change...I don't envy you...my teenage years where very difficult for me and I felt very alone.
I'm sorry you are filled with such anger...it's good that you can come here and let it out. Just know that you are going through this for a reason and you will be a better person for it...it's just a stepping stone to prepare you for the greatness that is to come.
Love yourself ALWAYS, love every choice and every mistake, they are what makes you who you are and you are Magnificent!!!!!!!

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Silent Wonders I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I personally didn't find the question what is normal to be offensive. In all aspects of the question it was in my opinion asking what others see as normal. No two people have the same outlook on something or share the same exact meaning of something. Personally I wouldn't have called anyone a smartbutt because I would have simply asked them to clarify what they meant....if they were really wondering what it means to be normal or if they were being sarcastic.

I really feel, that psychologically, or somewhere deep in my subconscious, I have programmed myself to perceive things in ways that most other people would not, but I'm not sure why or how to clearly explain this.. There are times I can understand what people mean by certain phrases or questions- and I accept that for the majority of it all. There are also times, when I guess I want to be a smart-aleck, and I come up with wacky, and sometimes overly-complicated(possibly pointless as well lol) concepts that I know people will have a hard time relating with, even if it makes sense on some level, whether by a lot or hardly. It's not something I can always control about my thought process, but I am aware of when people might have a hard time getting my ideas, but I do mean well. I have dealt with pretty crazy people, and I used to call them friends.. best ones. They abused me and took advantage of all the love and gifts I wanted to and tried to offer them. Maybe in some way, I'm just trying to put myself in their shoes so I can further understand why they behave the ways they do- instead of just saying that they are sick in the mind, or have problems. I make myself think in what I consider ridiculous ways, if it can be helped or not helped. I never mean to seem aggressive and offend anyone- ever. It's an accident. I'm just trying to challenge myself, and other people's minds as well if I can.. to test people on their security on what they say. Not to mock them, or degrade their thoughts. Maybe it doesn't work, maybe I need to learn and program a different type of approach with this. And maybe I don't deserve or I'm too inexperienced to try that kind of role. I'm just weird this way. And I'm sincerely sorry if anyone who read this was offended. In truth, I was angry and hurt at the time of posting my rants. But I couldn't exactly write about the real reason why at first. Again, I'm sorry.

And please, anyone, say what you feel about my post if you want to get something out, maybe I need to hear it. I know I'm wacky. I understand my behavior may not always be acceptable, and I'm sorry. I will accept what is said, if anything.

Reading people's words is alot different then hearing them and watching them. We can intrepret something totally wrong because they may have worded it strangely.

You're right.

Also, to add a few more cents of my own if I had a handicap no matter what it was I would like others to treat me just like they would treat someone else. If you'd like to call that normal then so be it, but there isn't any reason why handicapped people should be treated any differently because of that.

I mainly meant physically and mentally impaired people who have handicaps on really extreme levels. I think I know what I was trying to get at now with what I was saying. There will be times when these people notice their limitations. Like if they can't play a sport or something because they're in a wheelchair, paralyzed or maybe they were just born that way. Maybe they love music and want to be trained in it and be involved, or sing.. but they can't talk in language, and their hands didn't develop so they would even be able to write music. Like without fingers. And they really wanted to have it in their life. I guess I meant they should be supported in that so that they can feel better, but at the same time not be expected to go above and beyond in what they can't do.

Yes, it's wrong to yell at anyone or mistreat them handicapped or not.

That's always been true.. but there's conflict with that anyway all over the place. I guess that's part of my frustration.

My prayers and thoughts are with you during these hard times you are facing hun. I pray you will begin to have some peace and clarity in your life.

Thank you for all your support. Really.

Love and blessings

You too

I guess I should be more careful... I really wanted to get all that stuff out though.. I was upset. I didn't think anyone would really be reading it anyway. Sorry

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SilentWonders
Try loving instead of hating...as hard as it is sometime, it will be better for you in the end. Anger and hatred takes up so much energy...energy that you could be using for much happier things.
I try and feel sorry for people that do thing to either hurt or anger me....like little children that don't know any better. Feel sorry for them, for they have such a long was to go to get to were you are mental and spiritually.
16 is a hard age...actually all the teenage years are very difficult...it is such a time of growth and change...I don't envy you...my teenage years where very difficult for me and I felt very alone.
I'm sorry you are filled with such anger...it's good that you can come here and let it out. Just know that you are going through this for a reason and you will be a better person for it...it's just a stepping stone to prepare you for the greatness that is to come.
Love yourself ALWAYS, love every choice and every mistake, they are what makes you who you are and you are Magnificent!!!!!!!

Thank you for all of your encouragement! It was really kind, uplifting, and nice to see this here. I really appreciate it.

Sorry if I was such a downer.

Thanks, again.

Love and Light

[brilkyPlayday]

You are Welcome...always! It is not a downer and I'm use to listening to people when they are unhappy...I seem to know what to say to make them feel better...at least I think I do....it's easy to give advise, but harder to take it...especially if it's your own. I always say f I could only follow my own advise, I'd be perfect!!! LOL!!!
I hope you are feeling better and never stop "letting it out". If people don't want to hear it, they don't have to read it.