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Hi

Over the past nine months I have noticed my psychic abilities increasing significantly however this has at times left me anxious and paranoid as most of the time it happens at random and most of the time whether a thought is psychic or not until it has actually happened It just feels at times as though I'm not in control and has me questioning whether there is free will. I've studied a number of books on the subject and also on the law of attraction however all of this has left me feeling more confused than ever. I was almost an atheist a year ago so whenever i read something new my inner skeptic comes to life intensely questioning whether what i'm reading is right. It's a case of knowing there is something beyond the physical world but not knowing what it is.

These are the wierd experiences I've been having:

- I'm able to sense minor things before they happen e.g. who's about to phone me, the songs I'll hear on the radio. However most of the time i feel there's no control over when this happens and as i said i have no idea which of my thoughts are psychic until it actually happens some days this is quite frequent other days it happens hardly at all.

- i sometimes spend much of the day feeling intense anxiety and i've noticed that this is sometimes as a direct result of negative people around me i.e. that i actually feel the negative energy they leave behind even though there is really no reason to feel bad

- random synchronicities often happen in my day to day life that I most of the time feel no control over. some are quite disturbing eg since hearing about the 2012 prophecy whenever I check the time it is often 12 past the hour, this happens about 70% of the time. There have also been a lot of other synchronicities in my life leaving me more confused about what I can believe

- Late last year I had to visit someone in a psychiatric hospital and while i was there, there was a split second that i felt as though i was having an out of body experience. this just happened at random and hasn't happened since but I'm still unsure of how this affected me and whether it is still affecting me.
I was aware of my psychic powers before this experience but it seems to have coincided with a rise in my level of anxiety

sorry about the length of this but I felt I needed to share these problems with people who have some understanding of this kind of stuff

[Munccoughe]

Hi mattm,

It sounds to me like your gift is growing, and that's wonderful! It can be scary in the beginning, and it often feels like you have no control over what is happening to you, but your guides are only opening you up to the experiences that they know you are ready to have. They wouldn't let your gift expand in any way unless they knew that you were spiritually prepared for it. Although, this doesn't make it any less frightening!

With spiritual gifts, you do have some control. You can make what is happening to you stop. Just tell your guides that you are scared, or you don't feel ready for this right now. More often though, the extent of control that you are looking for comes when your gift had developed more. Your guides will teach you how to control your gift (block out certain energies, tune into others, ect.) in time. Right now they are just letting you experience what your gift can do.

Part of having this gift and sensitivity to the energies around you is also the spontaneity of it. Usually, I don't choose to get the information I get, or talk to the spirits I do (at least not initially). I tune into the energy around me when there is something I am meant to do with it---or when there is some way I can help someone. So, you can't always control the information you get, or when you get it--but there is a purpose. Make sure you tell your guides that you only want to get information or feel things (through use of your gift) for people you can actually help. Its no use getting information about people who live across the world, who you can't help in any way. That way, when you do get information, you know you can help the situation in some way. But again, it is your choice to help or not.
This also means that in the beginning, you guides will give you experiences that help you to learn and understand your gift better so you can one day help people. (again, if this is what you so choose to do with your gift).

I think right now you are just experiencing your gift. Let yourself experience it. It is okay, and it will be okay. enjoy and don't worry. One thing that will help with the anxiety (as it sounds like you are a very sensitive empath) is grounding yourself and shielding. Do this whenever you feel the anxiety creep up on you. It truly helps, and you feel amazing. Ask your guides to help you do this.

I hope this helps!

My Best,
Kassie

[happyman]

Hey there, same sort of thing happened to me when my "abilities" started developing. I felt really anxious, all the time, especiialy when I *knew* something was going to happen. It takes a while to get used to it, to really accept that no matter what you see, you cannot change the future. As for free will??? who knows.

I don't really proscribe to the "talking to your guides" thing, though a lot of people do and seems to work for them. I found meditation worked well for me, as did keeping a journal and doing yoga. As for blocking the negative energies from other people, I do a specific "grounding" meditation, usually involving surrounding myself with a white light (there's several threads on the like). I agree with Janie, you sound like an empath and you might find grounding makes you feel like 80% better.

You say you're a bit of a skeptic, as am I, so maybe instead of looking for answers in books, look into yourself. You probably know what the answer is, but as with your psychic abilities, you're not sure what to believe until it is proven to you. Not everything you read is right, or right for YOU.

Good luck on your journey, and you've stumbled upon a good forum to search through and hear of others going through similar situations (so much better to know you're not alone and going crazy lol!)

[Tazqoaap]

It can be very scary when you come in to your gifts.

Sounds to me that you are empathic. I had a lot of trouble in hospitals and concerts because of the mass of people and the energies they were emitting.

You should, when you feel anxious, ground and center yourself. There is a meditation in my Lesson I - in the lessons section that would help you.


Hugs and Light