[apannamma]

First, sorry I've been a bit MIA especially in the Practice Den. I am going through a bit of a test of faith right now and could use some words of hope or "been there and it turned out ok". But back in the spring my guides sent me on this awesome journey of transformation. They put blocks in my way and nicely discouraged me from getting a conventional job. I had too much inner work to do. Well my husband was/is left supporting us when his paycheck does not really support us fully. Through some divine intervention of some unknown source our finances have been ok....until now. My guides tell me to have faith and trust but that is impossible when you notice the status of your bank account. And it is hard knowing that these things are not so important when you are so conditioned to know that they are...anyway. So I am facing down a fork in the road. To continue trying to develop a professional intuitive counseling business (which is NOT manifesting for me despite so many attempts) or to go back to doing what I used to do which ate me alive then and will definitely reverse all the hard work I did considering where I am now (I was a therapist working with at-risk kids in a VERY broken system). My heart has finally opened and healed and doing that again will just close me up again and destroy me. But I have no other choices if things do not turn around very soon.

I could really use positive vibes, sending of angels, and intuition if anyone has any to spare. I am having a hard time having faith anymore and feel like all this hard work was for nothing if I have to go back to doing what I did before.

[sat23neus2]

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Big hug!!!!


Right now - I'll sit and pray for you - and send what ever I can your way -

Meditation (I just did it) - find yourself in a garden - choose a red flower - smell it - inhale the fragrance - notice how red it is - then gently start to pluck the petals off - and release it out into the world. Let every one of them be a release of your fears - let it go - no fear. Where there is no fear - let in the light.

We need you - clear your energy - be white light and strong inside. Trust that even if you can't see it now, there is a purpose for what is going on. This is no rational exercise - its the leap of faith.

Go in light! Sending you much love -

[ElenaEvgeevna]

Huge hugs. I have tons to say but simply this. When times are tuff as we all are facing right now don't give up on your instincts. If they tell you to remain as you are then do it. My new guide came a few days ago which came to me right before the check I received out of the blue. It covered something I had no clue how to pay for. She told me to wait it out and what I was doing is exactly what I was meant to do right NOW. In time my path will be revealed but for now I'm not suppose to worry as things will work out just fine.

Best advice Budget, budget, and even more budget. It can be hard to say no to everyone including yourself but in time this too shall pass.

Tonight this is my fav. thing to say: This too shall pass

Love and blesssings and follow those instincts

[Sandvikla]

just pushing this to the top of the pile for a few more positve vibes coming your way...

[iouiyyut]

I understand working with at -risk youths. I was one and worked with them later on. I remember when I was 15, high school drop out who's second home was the mall. I partied alot, luckily never got into the heavy drug scene. Anyway's, the head of security pulled me aside one day,when I was with a huge group of friends, and he told me to go back to school. He said that he saw a potential in me that he didn't see in the others and to do something with my life. Those words always stuck with, and even though I made misstakes, it was that little conversation that really pushed me to do something better. I later worked with psych and then correctional kids. It dous take a toll on you, but you just never know the effect you have on these kids. And if one session will plant a seed, like it did me, and it changes their livves, it is well worth it. He will probebly never see the end result of the seed he planted, but I can tell you this, it saved me. And the kids I worked with, I don't know if reached any of them, but if I did, it worth all the stress. These kids are going through hell. They need careing people to love and care for them, most of them never had that. Please don't feel like I'm putting you down. The toll it took on you is a harsh one, and feel that you feel that no matter what you do it dousn't make a difference, but sweetie, I promise you it dous, I'm living proof of that.
Before you throw this away, or go back and seek some guidnce. You went into this field with something. You've lost the passion, try and find it again before walking away.It dous make a world of difference. hope this helps you. I will pray for guidence and peace for you.
Blessed Be
Angel

[sat23neus2]

Lonely Angel!
This was a really interesting reply - its provoked a strong chord of sympathy with me.
I used to work in Norway - and I swore to myself that I wouldn't work there again - but I've had another offer of work there, and I have so many requests from my ex students -
So perhaps the answer for me would be to do part time work, or courses, rather than live there. (Next year we'll live in Spain) - so although I might still have some connection to Norway, I can still give it my best without being fully committed.
Thanks and I hope lovelight benefits from your reply as much as I did.

[apannamma]

Before you throw this away, or go back and seek some guidnce. You went into this field with something. You've lost the passion, try and find it again before walking away.It dous make a world of difference. hope this helps you. I will pray for guidence and peace for you.
Blessed Be
Angel

Thank you so much for sharing your story...it really has helped me more than you know. It helps me tremendously in reconciling my past. I know the reasons why they are so resistant and that I am effecting them in ways I do not realize but going into work every day and getting dirty looks, told to go home, and spending two years with someone you care deeply about, is in great pain, but will not speak to you and curses you out gets to you. I know just being there despite all of that helped in so many ways but I just can't do it anymore. Plus seeing these kids go back into really abusive and dark places or felt like they were in hell in a place they are supposed to get better was hard for me. I really admire those who can do it despite the darkness out there.

Thinking of you and sending you positive vibes. Maybe just try and get a casual job for alittle while. something different & simple that won't take away your soul. I work in retail a couple of days (6hr shifts) & then decided to take on a cleaning position (4 hour shifts) a day or two a week. (Due to having bub.)Plus it gives me some "me" time working short shifts. It may not be where I want to be in the future but hey casual wages aren't that bad. Plus my son gets to play with other chn which he loves so much...

I am in a similar situation with my son and working and I think I am going to try something like this. I would love to have it my way but you also have to be flexible.

Huge hugs. I have tons to say but simply this. When times are tuff as we all are facing right now don't give up on your instincts. If they tell you to remain as you are then do it. My new guide came a few days ago which came to me right before the check I received out of the blue. It covered something I had no clue how to pay for. She told me to wait it out and what I was doing is exactly what I was meant to do right NOW. In time my path will be revealed but for now I'm not suppose to worry as things will work out just fine.

Your guides sound just like my guides. Mine don't tell me anything though besides to just be patient and everything will work out. It does feel right focusing my energy in different places though such as finding a more conventional job. I just wish they could tell us what our path was or at least what to do in the meantime.

!!!!

Big hug!!!!


Right now - I'll sit and pray for you - and send what ever I can your way -

Meditation (I just did it) - find yourself in a garden - choose a red flower - smell it - inhale the fragrance - notice how red it is - then gently start to pluck the petals off - and release it out into the world. Let every one of them be a release of your fears - let it go - no fear. Where there is no fear - let in the light.

We need you - clear your energy - be white light and strong inside. Trust that even if you can't see it now, there is a purpose for what is going on. This is no rational exercise - its the leap of faith.

Go in light! Sending you much love -

Thank you so much for those awesome words. They helped remind me what I needed to remember

I feel much better today. My guides came to me after I wrote this and really helped me. I am focusing my energy on both finding a conventional job and my intuitive business. So regardless, one will begin to manifest. Where ever I need to go I surrender and will go there. I was so mad yesterday because all of my life I have not been able to direct my own life...it has always been extremely guided. I am grateful but when you keep hitting brick walls it is very frustrating. But I accept it now. I also learned a lot about what this experience is bringing me. It is causing a lot of issues that have been hiding to come to the surface so we can heal them. That is much more valuable than the cash we could be receiving.

Last night as I was falling asleep I was helping to heal myself and all of those who are experiencing the same thing. I know I was doing something as I was half asleep but I don't remember what it was. But I am grateful for this opportunity as so much healing is going on because if it.

[sat23neus2]

Wonderful - what a different energy in your post.
I can see how hard you are working and I wish you so many blessings with hope and faith. You're trully an inspiration. Love

[iouiyyut]

Anger is a strong emotion as is hard to handle when it's directed towards you. Just remember that not all of the anger they display towards you is you. I hope that makes sense. And I hope that you can find some peace with this situation, and continue to move forward. I don't know the age group you worked with, it's sounds like adolescence, very difficult, but I worked with them and younger children. I actually went home crying one daybecause the child spent most of his day in locked seclusion and peed all over the carpet. I happened to be his staff memeber for that day. We also got a 2 year old, who happend to be a joy to work with. Anyway's you need to follow your heart and the guidence you hear inside. I don't believe Spirit wants you to go backwards. I wish peace and happiness for you, and hope that if you do choose to go back to work, that he will bring you a job that will bring you joy, (specifically your buissness. ) Have a great night!
Angel