[abubycera]

Glad was of some little help. And yes, I know what you mean about being directed not to send energy. I get the same thing with my mum, it somehow doesn't feel right to help her in that sense, and it's something she needs to go through on her own. I just send her love and I feel good about that. Hope things will get better for you!

[xrumerang]

EternalNight, I think that your mom has some unresolved karmic issues that have roots in the 70-s and it's up to her to work them out, that's why your guides don't want you to interfere. Maybe she made some mistakes in her past, like we all do, that she needs to own up to. Anyways, I am glad that friends here were able to help you so fast and know it will work out OK. Try not to feel bad about her, we all need to take responsibility sooner or later.

[jenilopaz]

I believe I may have an unhealthy psychic connection of some kind to my mother. She is a very troubled woman, and I can feel her emotions so well it brings me down. I have anxiety attacks at the same times she does, I get depressed the same times she does...

Last night I became acutely aware of this because I started to feel dizzy, and somehow I knew it was her. I called her, and sure enough, she was crying. "I thought something was wrong," I said, and I knew not to press her, so I let her go. I was speaking to a friend, one of the few who know about my psychic abilities, and told him the emotions I was getting off my mother. I felt that she was closing everyone and everything off, so lost in her own inner turmoil, and that I couldn't even really send good energy her way because in a way, it would just bounce off the barrier she put up, knowingly or not.

Sure enough, she called me a couple of hours later. She was crying again. She told me she would be leaving for a week to go into the mountains (she lives in Colorado), with no cell phone and no contact with her family whatsoever. Her behavior was very mysterious...she was running from something, and my intuition told me it has to do with her past in some way.

I have been depressed and crying off and on ever since. I can't seem to break free from her emotions. I feel them acutely, and it's hard for me to know what to do about it. She is, after all, my mother... I know I don't want to have an unhealthy attachment like this, but I also don't want to break off all emotion whatsoever. I really don't know what to do.

I keep seeing something from the 70's, and I can't really see it clearly, but it carries a lot of pain and is close to home for her. I can see the styles of clothing and the colors of the 70's, and I can hear "70's" too...I just don't know what it is. I feel this has something to do with the present. Something is driving her into those mountains, and it's not what she told me over the phone...

I also have a strange feeling, almost as if she's dying or something. Like I'm mourning for her death without her actually being dead. It's the strangest feeling...and it frightens me. I hope she doesn't do something terrible while she's up in the mountains.

Please help, spiritualblessing! I've got so much pain of my own, I really CANNOT handle this extra baggage from my troubled mother!! But I don't know what to do about it!

[Abnorbprootly]

I'm so sorry. I too have an attachment with my mother.

This has helped me in the past.

Wishing you love and light.

Laura

Call back your energy

Try this visualization technique from Katz's book: Visualize a big golden ball which is so bright, you must squint to look at it. See it levitating above your head in your mind's eye. Now with a magic marker write your name in the middle of the sun. See a strong shiny magnet underneath your name - the only thing it attracts is your own energy.

Now wherever your energy is, no matter how far away, know that within a few moments it will return to you in your golden sun. Say to yourself, "I call back my energy from my relationships, from my job, from my family, from my possessions, my past and my future. All this energy is going to collect up inside my golden sun where it can be cleansed and revitalized."

Know that any foreign energy that is attached to yours will not be able to withstand the heat and it will vamoose. See the sun getting bigger and bigger until it is about to burst. Now using your physical fingers touch the top of your head. Pretend that you are poking a hole in your crown chakra. Then take your finger and poke a hole in the bottom of your golden sun. (Katz says that by physically going through these actions you are helping your imagination to more fully accept and integrate these actions).

Imagine the energy coming down as though it is an egg yolk. See it filling you up from your head to your toes and overflowing into your aura. Use your imagination to personalize your meditation too. See your energy flow through every part of your body including your chakras. See a little of it run down your grounding cord. (a cord from your feet and your tailbone that anchors into the deepest part of the earth)

Once you've filled up your entire body and being, imagine that you are sealing the hole at the top of your head. Thank your golden sun and visualize it floating off into the universe until its time to call upon it again.
You can use this exercise as often as needed.


I hope this helps. From my psychic abilities - you're mom just wants attention. My mother is exactly the same. Saying she is dying any day now. That I don't care and I moved 650 miles away and I did this to hurt her. (not true at all). We need to lead our own lives and stop trying to "enable" our mothers. Good luck, I too am working through this lesson in my life.

Laura

[abubycera]

I'm so sorry to hear both you and your mum are in pain and suffering. I don't know if any of this will help, but some of the few things you might be able to do are:

1. Shield yourself. Whenever you're feeling overwhelmed, visualise and surround yourself with a spherical energy barrier or bubble. Energize the shield so that it will be strong and protect you from any negative emotions or energy coming from outside or your mum. Fill the bubble with positive energy, love, healing energy, prayers. This is to help you, protect you, calm you and isolate you from any negativity.

2. Your mum may not want your help in what she's facing or having to go through, but you might be able to help by sending her love. Love will penetrate any barrier that she has put up, will be able to soothe her and heal her to some extent. You can also bubble her up and fill her bubble with all the good stuff. It will help.

3. Does your mum know that you can feel what she's going through and that you have this strong psychic link to her? Maybe you should tell her. If she knows that you can feel these things strongly and that your life is being disrupted by it, it might persuade her to share her problem with you.

I know how it feels to have a mum suffering and not be able to do anything bout it, or even get pushed away. I find that sending love and healing energy helps alot when I'm feeling helpless and powerless. Please accept my blessings, love and thoughts. I hope this will help.

Love,
E1lycat

[jenilopaz]

Thanks so much, you guys. I really appreciate it.

I tried that visualization technique, Pagan Medium, and felt better almost immediately! I had weird sensations all over my body, too, kind of like all that energy was bouncing around in me or something. Not only had I put a lot of energy into my mother, but into some other people I knew and loved, and I could feel it returning and re-filling me. Man, that was much-needed! I haven't felt quite as bad since. I still feel the sadness, obviously, but I don't feel as devastated or as attached, like I'm carrying around a burden that isn't my own.

I told my mom the things I was getting about her - the 70's thing, mostly, and that I knew it was that that was driving her into those mountains, not what she told us (the family). She said that was exactly right, and kind of laughed a little when I said I had seen the colors and styles of the 70's and stuff. I have not, however, told her that I felt her pain so acutely...especially now that I have tried to seal off that unhealthy connection by taking back my energy and putting up a sort of barrier.

I had a specific feeling that I should not send energy her way, or even pray or anything, that night when she did this. I don't know why, but that was the direction I got from my guide(s). That I should not send any energy, because it would just bounce off and would cost me too much effort needlessly. That seems to still be the direction my guides are giving me. This seems to be something between my mother and God, and I cannot interfere, for some reason - I've never heard such strange direction, but maybe it's for my emotional health...

Okay, so, just now I heard something to the extent of that my prayers have been heard already, and I don't need to make a specific effort to pray. That makes sense to me.

Man, these gifts carry so much with them! So much pain and yet at times, so much peace.

Thanks again, Pagan Medium and E1lycat.

[Abnorbprootly]

I'm very happy to help Sounds like you are listening to your guides very well. Don't question if the message feels right. Our egos try to over think the situation.

My feelings is that you are correct. Your mom's issues are hers. Send her your love and nothing more

Hugs

Laura