[st01en_lox]

I was diagnosed bipolar years and years ago. In fact, I am on disability because I cannot function properly because of the mood swings.
My ex husband is very ill and I took him in a year and a half ago. His illnesses are extreem and critical, but he does have good days when he can go fishing, to the park, etc.
Recently, I watched a program on psychic children and it said they are often misdiagnosed as ADD and bipolar. I have begun to notice things about my own mood swings.
Yesterday, for example, everything was fine and I suddenly felt an overwhelming desire to cry. When I told my ex, he said he has been very depressed (because of his limitations). Soon after, he went to the store with our daughter and, you guessed it, I was fine.
I also noticed when he is home, I tend to have much less energy and feel drained. I thought it was because of the stress of caring for such an ill person, but now I don't know.
Now I am wondering if "my moods" are not mine at all. If this is the case, how do I get control over them so they don't control me? Medication has never really helped with the mood swings and I have always fought taking it anyhow.
Any advice or suggestions? Please don't suggest I send him away or have him placed in a facility. We have a child together and he needs to be with her in his final days weeks or months. Thank you, in advance.

[Sliliashdes]

hi tishsuz, when you have these moodswings, try to go off somewhere on your own, like the bedroom, and sit quietly and ask, is this me? or is this something else? , if you practice you might be good at deciphering it, for me the feeling of say insecurity will come on stronger if i say someone else. But other times i cant decipher.


Now what i do is say, well this isnt mine, i wonder what has just happened to some-one. It helps me instantly. if its mine i should know why shouldnt i???

I only realised last year it wasnt me, and ive had the feelings since i was a kid.

Mine come in strong if there has been an aeroplane crash and alot of lives are taken.

I have a fear of heights, this may come from a previuos life, so the energy of a falling plane may resonate stronger with my energys, therefore i can pick it up easier. JMO

And you should be commended for your caring soul, to take care of your ex, is a fantastic thing to do, it shows your warm heart.

[Nothatspecial]

I used to have the ability to feel anything that happened to my soon to be ex-husband. I usually had no clue on most of the details but things got clearer as I became aware of this ability. I used to believe that it was just me until he had an accident and hurt his foot. He was 14,000 miles away and I spent the night in excruciating pain that started at the time of the accident. It takes time though for you to be able to get used to it. Good luck.

[st01en_lox]

Thank you for your posts. I have noticed a difference in my stability since I've backed away from people who were bringing me down. I wish more doctors were open to this type thing. This would have been very useful years ago