[DoctoBuntonTen]

Every now and again, when I let myself think about it, I wonder what the hell I'm doing living in a human body on earth. For all the beauty I can find in my own life, when I look at the world as a whole, I go numb with an utter feeling of helplessness. This whole place is out of control, and I can't for the life of me imagine what I can do about it. For every person like me, there are thousands very unlike me.

I've been watching various do***entaries on www.freedo***entaries.org, and while I know it would be in my best interest to just shut it off, I can't do it. I feel like I need to do something, but have no idea what I could possibly do. I'm not content to pretend I don't know what's going on in the world around me, or to just ignore it because it's not touching MY life. And yet I feel that doing just that would be the only way I could find a happy day-to-day existence.

I find myself more and more disenchanted with my country every day. Half of me just wants to leave, and say " **** em I'm done" but the other half still loves my country, and desperately desires to find a way to change things.

Does anyone else feel this way? What do you do about it? Is the only hope for day-to-day happiness to ignore it?

Do I tell myself that I was born of this life for my own individual purposes and that what's going on in the outside world isn't my concern, or do I acknowledge that as a part of this world, it is my concern?

[DoctoBuntonTen]

What the heck? Do***entaries needs to be edited?

[LarryRda]

I feel exactly the same way, divka ... I find that every time I try to say something about it though, people ask me: what's wrong exactly? so I don't know if they are trying to test me to see if I can be a good leader, or if they mean that question in such a way that they feel there is nothing wrong... but then, I live around some pretty sick people and they pretend that everything is either great or just alright.. and they explode on the small things and make little situations into big problems. I just don't understand... I'm so glad you posted this because I feel like someone gets it now.. not that I didn't know, but it just becomes easier for me to realize who feels the same way..

I find for myself that I'm confused because I hate being ignorant and inconsiderate of myself and very importantly, my surroundings.. I'm not sure what I should do, as well. I would accept the world the way it is if the drama weren't such a huge theme everywhere.

[Rexaviennatutr]

Divka, I know how you feel. I used to walk around and pretend i was invisible when i was younger because i wanted to see things from a different angle.
I know that peace within the world can come from inner peace, which is so hard to keep stable, esp when we are so affected by the things around us.

Have you ever heard of those mass meditation sessions where thousands of people gather and pray with love and meditate on good vibes? They believe these vibes can be carried out into the energy of the air and reach thousands others. Even when a family or group of people come together to pray for the health of someone, it has shown to help, to cure.
So, in my mind, each of our tiny beings have a purpose in this chaos and if we can really truly believe in the healing, luminous power of love, we can change the world, starting with those directly in our path.
When i was learning a certain meditation, I used to practice on the bus with crying babies or people that i felt were sad. I would meditate and project love onto them. Sure enough, the babies stopped crying, the smiles crept onto faces. I was filled with love just knowing that not-so-knowing people need it. I've lived in poverty and other terrible situations and i know how the world tries to win with the materialistic grabby hands and unthinking thiefs of the heart. What gets me to smile in the end is knowing that i do have a place. you have a place. And you want to do good.
It might sound silly but loving the world, even sending love to trees and cats and flowers reflects love back onto me. When you are feeling like it is too much, rest assured that you are one of the lucky ones to question it, because thanks to people like you, love can be created out of thin air.



P.s. check out this poem by william wordsworth on google called "The world is too much with us;late and soon" I have always loved it and is right up this alley. I didn't know if i could paste it here....enjoy

[wonceinee]

i don't want to come off as harsh, but the fact that you find so much wrong with the world is a good reason to live in the midst of it... i believe that ultimately there is more method than madness to be found, and that the material world in which we are residing contains every bit as much good as it does bad. while the bad is displaced and spread thinly over large portions of creation, the good is consolidated, placed proportionately with the overall need for it, and also that a little bit of good overcomes a great deal of bad. that's not even touching on the reality that what is good to one can be bad to another... i'm of a mind to believe that the diametric opposition we each seem to have inherently is indicative of the fact that both polarities are necessary... and the end result could be argued as good or bad respectively

above all else i think we are intended to observe the design, and to recognize that while few things are ever ideal, the design itself is. a person can easily look at the world and think they're seeing the big picture, but in a multidimensional universal sense of the term... it's truly a very small fragment. fundamentally, as an individual your contributions should accurately reflect you, and the fact that you are disturbed by the suffering and various atrocities our kind tends to inflict upon eachother and themselves serves at the very least to prove that your contributions, if any, would have effect in a predominantly positive capacity. change what you are empowered to change, but outside of that, just try to keep in mind that even though the reasons are arguably obscure and largely remain a mystery to most of us, they are by no means nonexistent.

born into a world that would leave us fragmented, by way of the process of ascension we start putting pieces together, once we've figured out our portion of the puzzle we get another portion and hopefully, eventually we learn to move beyond humanity's limitations just enough to help it move beyond it's own...

[Blaxastij]

Hi Divka,

I'm with you. It's hard to be an optimist in today's world. I try to keep up with current events but I notice the more news I read, watch, and hear, the more hopeless I feel. It can even lead to depression. My husband can see the effects and will ask me to avoid the news sometimes, for a little while anyway.

My hope is that things will change in 2012. I won't go into detail, but I've read that while some believe 2012 will usher in the apocalypse, many others believe that there will be a shift in consciousness resulting in a global spiritual awakening. If you're not familiar with the various 2012 theories it is definitely worth researching.

I understand this could be another fluke prophecy and that 2012 may come and go without incident, but what's the harm in hoping?

In the mean time I'm going to avoid the negativity of the outside world by using my time to be a good parent, take care of my body, learn more about my spirituality and work on its development, help others when I can, and continue to reduce the impact my family and I have on the environment. The more time I spend working on myself and taking care of my loved ones, the less time I have to let the rest of the world get me down.

[JasminBerkova]

I may be in university around that time

[8Uxtkz7F]

As i said in an earlier post.
DONT TAKE ON THE WORRIES OF THE WORLD, THEY ARE NOT YOURS TO OWN !

Kinda like mind your own business first. The world you see is the world mirroring you.

I see in this world alot of people attempting to bring about change for the better. A more peaceful existance and a more enlightned one. I see answers to the questions of the horrors on this planet.

You see hate,depression,blah,blah,blah, You see no solutions!

What is it inside of you that you are angry and depressed ?

If your not apart of a solution your apart of the problem.