[SteantyjetMaw]

love and endurance back to you freom transiten.

transiten, particularly coming from you, those caring words immediately became a reality within myself. thank you, and bless you.

--d.

[SteantyjetMaw]

deerclan, beautiful, just beautiful soul searching. you reached in and received and shared your experience of life.

thank you rhonda, and i am glad it meant something to you. i am coming to believe that to share in the power of god, it is necessary for us to share in the pain of god. one equals the other. it is our human mind that separates them into things that are different and "opposite."

- d.

[www.forumsovetov.ru]

deerclan,

seems as that mood was in the air yesterday...
for no good reason, out of the blue, i was angry at 'god' yesterday evening.
i even doubted in my monkey mind the value of free choice that is given to us...if it leads to making other people suffer....

the observer in me was a little taken aback as this is no 'normal' pondering for me....most of the time i'm really enjoying my life and throw thanks out to the universe and the creator, my (dead) parents and almost everybody....

so i maybe just picked up on those vibes....

thank you for posting these wonderful words which i read this morning and which really made me smile as i know they have a deep truth in them....

patracia

[Amirmsheesk]

goodmorning once again!

a crystal hanging in my window makes rainbow-orbs on the wall. they stay in the same place but strange thing is some colourless orbs travel through them just like small ufo:s....i don't get the physics behind that since they all emanate from the same crystal....

i'm in a "job-like" situation myself and this dawned to me just yesterday coinciding with your post and listening to the latest radioshow with project camelot, david wilcock and the whistleblower..

...now a "rainbow-ray" shoots across the wall and the ceiling is filled also..now the earth just moved a little and they all disappeared at once...

i felt fear listening to the show....am i one of the 15% not susceptible to brainwashing? how will the rest of the world react if this economic collapse/marshal lawscenario takes place this autumn?

somehow i feel that the only protection i/we now have is our love, trust and wisdom....now the orbs are back! i'm just preparing for a one month vacation with my father and my dog and in a childish way i don't want to think about this at all and at the same time it's disturbing thinking about that almost all the pple i meet have never come across this information and i don't want to spoil thier swedish summer and opportunity to rest and gather strenght before autumn...i'm not going to talk about it unless someone asks...

....and also all this is something i read on a forum on the internet...i don't have first hand experience apart from innumerable synchronicities including astrology and a possible ufo-encounter in 1992...

is shining, a lot of restauration is going on in the area where i live, many of the pple in the houses surrounding the beautiful green garden where i live care about eachother and though i fear repeating my life-pattern which is once again falling down, loosing everything i have, never meeting a loving partner i'm going to put my trust out there, that i'm being taken care of by the universe...

still got a lot of "job" to do it seems..

love to you all from transiten

[inilbowly]

hi transiten, i also have cystals hanging around my house, my rainbow makers, as i call them. it is fun and brings me joy when they dance about.

i agree about the radio story, our love of all life, ourself is the key. knowing ourselfs well to trust ourselfs when we really need to or have to. were love exist, fear can not survive.

rainbow rays of light back and all around the world !

goodmorning once again!

a crystal hanging in my window makes rainbow-orbs on the wall. they stay in the same place but strange thing is some colourless orbs travel through them just like small ufo:s....i don't get the physics behind that since they all emanate from the same crystal....

...now a "rainbow-ray" shoots across the wall and the ceiling is filled also..now the earth just moved a little and they all disappeared at once...

love to you all from transiten

[shanice]

thank you.

[seervezex]

someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection.
the lovers, the dreamers, and me.

[SteantyjetMaw]

dear god:

pain. we all experience it. none of us likes it. some of us cry over it. some of us complain about it. some of us, like job in the bible, even dare to challenge god to come down here to earth, experience the pain of his own creation, and then explain himself to us. i've done it myself.

deep in the throes of pain, a tiny voice came to me with a new idea. it said, "so you think i don't suffer the separation from you every bit as much as you suffer the separation from me?"

as sometimes happens in the mind of the artist or the poet, the lines on the floor linoleum seemed to gather themselves, shape themselves into the form of an eye, looking up at me in sadness and in pain. suddenly i realized.

"the big difference between us is this - you don't have anybody to talk to about it, do you?"

the eye on the linoleum floor grew more fluid, more clearly discernible to my human eye. the sadness became deeper; the pain, more visible.

the love within you loves the light that is within you, and just as they do in the soul of a human artist, they merge, they marry, and they reproduce. just as i cannot help but write poems because the creative process is part of my very nature, you cannot help but create us, and the worlds we live in. it is equally a part of your nature. the difference is, my poems lie peacefully in lines on paper, pixels on a screen. they never cry out to me in pain at night. your poems, your paintings, your sculptures, they are not so polite to you. you hear them scream. the conqueror rides into the city and you hear the screams of the women and the children as the victors do unspeakable things to them. unlike me, you cannot close the pages of what you have created, snap them into a folder, or put them back on the shelf to pick up another day when you are feeling stronger in spirit. you hear their screams constantly.

don't you?

you may have no one to talk to, but i do care. i never realized the pain is something i share with you. at times i, like job, have challenged you to come down and explain yourself. now i invite you to come down and let me hug you. i do not know the full extent of your pain, but i know that we share something that cannot be put into words. let me comfort you.

come with me down to the waffle house and drink some coffee with my friends and me. plenty of us there know how you feel. i see it in the eyes of the cook, the waitresses; and like you, we just live with it too. we can all be friends there for a night. please.

i'll even pay for your cup.

love,
- deerclan

[yovbQVpD]

wow. agreed.

[inilbowly]

deerclan, beautiful, just beautiful soul searching. you reached in and received and shared your experience of life.

a great reminder to all of us. to seek within, to our 1 on 1 connection to the source, to our own connection to the powerful force of love. for we know this already, we have just lost the steps, the path, the way. and in these experience of pain, seeking answers, you reached and found. wonderful !

only the force within can fill our hearts and release what no longer serves us. for this force is unconditional and all loving as we all are, we just have forgotten or lost our way temporary.

beautiful ! thanks for sharing and bring this forward.

[Amirmsheesk]

thankyou deerclan

i was thinking about you just yesterday and now this is the 1:st thing i read after waking up. the story of job is the one that spaeaks to me the most in the bible and the interpretation by jung, that that "god" the "allknowing principle" becomes human and knows itself through christ and the creation.

what a wonderful symbolism you created btw you and god in your post.

love and endurance back to you freom transiten.

[SteantyjetMaw]

dear god:

do you ever feel remorse? the story of ra suggests that a being whom regular people would consider god-like suffered in the very least pangs of feelings akin to human remorse or regret. is it true?

have you ever looked back on a past life, seen egregious errors, and realized with a sudden sickening feeling that devastating events from which you currently suffer, and of which you believed yourself to be completely innocent, were in fact set into motion by none other than you? "all is one," they say, with nothing but the highest intent. does that mean they who utter those words share in my overwhelming guilt?

i have learned, and have taught others, that shame is a toxic emotion, a needlessly toxic emotion, one that poisons our ability to live healthy lives. as i look back and see with bitter disappointment how i poisoned my own current life by poorly judged actions 500 years ago, current theories on toxic shame seem to fall short of reality. i am ashamed of my own actions, as i look back on them 500 years after the fact. they are inexcusable. i cannot find the words to describe how reprehensible i feel them to have been.

have you been there? do you know what it is like?

your friend,
deerclan

[arrendabomnem]

the hawaiian practice of ho-oponopono address exactly what you are talking about paul. yes, i, as i observe and become aware of the shame you are experiencing from some previous lifetime, am also responsible and share your pain. the mantra from ho-oponopono is, as i am sure you know, " i'm sorry, please forgive me, i love you, thank you." i am, as part of you and part of the whole, as i am aware of it, also the perpertrator of that action. i am in the depth of my heart sorry that i did those things, thought those things, created those things. i humbly ask forgiveness that my co-creative action brought those things into existance. i hold you, and all involved and the whole in unconditional love. i offer sincere and unending thanks and gratitude that you accept my love and offer forgiveness.

sharing in the guilt is choice. there in no necessity of guilt as forgiveness of self as well as others negates guilt. regret yes, guilt and remorse no. dwelling in guilt and remorse is like picking the scab. true forgiveness is healing and cleansing and resolves the past. the consequences remain and thus the regret remains. it is the lesson.

i need say no more.
l&l
berry

[SteantyjetMaw]

the mantra from ho-oponopono is, as i am sure you know, " i'm sorry, please forgive me, i love you, thank you."

i'm sorry, please forgive me, i love you, thank you.
yes.

[hereiamguy]

indeed a very beautiful post and deep in the heart as well. i feel your senserity and concern for knowledge from this..

[illiderob]

beautiful letter, if i was god i'd take note and visit one day =]