[Ankeseiband]

i know the truth when i hear it. this is truth. let those who have a ear..... know that he is real. and when i lisen to david i do.
when i was younger i think i was a little "aware" i had lucid dreams where i would fly through the sky and command anywhere i was going. i was aware i was dreaming and knew i could think anything up and be there or become it. (hello brad pitt haha) i also had many spiritual dreams and out of body experiences. in my life i at one time could see aura's on people. it would scare me. they look like florensent cartoon colors coming out of people. one time i saw green on a girl and told her. we looked it up and it said it stood for fertilization. she didn't know at the time but found out she was pregnant.
i had a fasination for this area of life, deepak chopra, neil walsh, tolle, paracelsus [you have to read his stuff] the bible, even norman vincent peale and all the spiritual positive books available. i was especially attracted to edgar cayce. i would always pray that i could meet him or that his soul could be by me and protect me.
so i come upon this.
ok, its not all about me. but, i have a problem with connecting to my pineal gland. and my past pychic. i also have a very huge drinking problem. i know it is exausting my soul. david said we are all precious. and though i would never put myself first on the worlds problems. could i have a prayer. cause i have a lot of love inside me to give to the world. (i have children and know love) i want to be part of the saving of souls and my drinking is stopping me!
sheila
your friend with the (spirit problem) as david calls it.

sorry if there is typos i had some wine

[xanaxnewtrader]

of course, you must have a bit of an idea of what is "standing in your way." drinking in it of itself is not a bad thing, but if it's consistent, even in small amounts, i'm sure it's one of the main, if not only, reasons that you feel disconnected. ultimately you'll have to find out for yourself if the comfort and pleasure involved with it is worth giving up in order to get more in touch with your mind/body/spirit. since you asked for a prayer though, i can provide at least that for you. godspeed, and much love!

[PilotJargon]

welcome, sheila.

i am praying for you in my heart right now. take it easy. life is very difficult, being a human being is very difficult (i cried when david said that in his "science of peace" reading).

try something to distract you, something you enjoy very much which will give you some release. i enjoy singing...not that i'm any good.

flying dreams....wow, yes. i had recurring dreams like that too when i was little. i may have even had an out of the body experience once or twice, but i'm not sure if it was real or just a dream.

the pineal gland....yes, i think i may have something blocking mine too, although part of it, i feel, is perhaps i'm not ready yet to open myself up to a large extent psychically. i used to feel negativity surround me in the night as a child, which terrified me so i prayed for protection and it worked. i was more psychic as a child than i am now...i used to dream all the time and was even a bit clairaudient.

one thing i've been doing lately, if i remember, is just before i go to sleep, to focus on the area of my third eye. the first time i did this, i woke up in the morning with my head full of stuff in answer to a question i'd had for a long time, clarifying the meaning of the souls' evolution and "oneness".

i wonder if crystals might help too? a few months ago i tried placing a piece of labrodorite, which i like, under my pillow, and my dreams seem to increase (i don't dream very often any more).


anyway, wishing you all the best and sending my love your way.

~emily

[sportsbettinge]

hello janetwentwest,

sending loving thoughts and blessing to you. you, as well as everyone else, are very special and powerful entities living here, in this present moment we call now. each moment, we have an opportunity, an opportunity of free will.

ok, its not all about me. but, i have a problem with connecting to my pineal gland. and my past pychic. i also have a very huge drinking problem. i know it is exausting my soul. david said we are all precious. and though i would never put myself first on the worlds problems. could i have a prayer. cause i have a lot of love inside me to give to the world. (i have children and know love) i want to be part of the saving of souls and my drinking is stopping me! sheila

you are very gifted, initiative and have much to give to this world as well as the world back to you. the gifts are love, expressed out in many forms of thoughts, words and actions blended with a visual form of living matter that enables us to see, feel, hear, touch, smell love.

opportunity of free will is your birth right. if drinking no longer serves you, you can by the power of yourself, stop. it is and can be that simple. power of will, your own will to stop.

it sounds like you are approaching this change about yourself. drinking has serve your emotions or boredom over a time, but now, in this moment, you are recognizing that there is more, more to you and more to life. you want to re-member yourself again, those special abilities and connections and yes, heavy drinking can effect your intent and desires and pineal gland.

i too enjoyed my wine at night, but a few years ago, i also was working through my ownself, what was being shown to me and what i didn't like about my habits that i wanted to change. i made the call and changed, just like that. today, i have no need for my old habit of wine or beer as i am content as is. and life is very rich when you can see it clearly.

its funny to me, but i also recalled a powerful childhood thought that went like this: when i was young and around adults that drank alot, i told myself then, that i did not need any of that stuff and would not engage in my adult life. funny, i did, tho. now, i see anything that is not pure, crystal water, as something nice as an option, but does it feed my body and what my body needs.

" it like, i would not pour wine or a coke over a vegetable plant and expect it to grow fruit. "

anyway, you are not alone, you are already making the changes, just by expressing your feelings and desires here. keep going.... soar and fly again !

[Thigmaswams]

hi.

it is neat rhonda that you mention being a child and thinking you did not need or want that stuff. i too felt this way, but also started drinking myself at around 28 years old. i couldn't stop either. i couldn't understand and felt like such a hipocrate,and then realized that yes! i was being a hipocrate.....why? (and why is that a good thing? lol)

it made me realise i had unresolved anger and unforgiveness in my heart for drinkers (and smokers) because i grew up in a smoking and drinking home, and i was being very harsh and unloving towards smokers and drinkers in my heart because i had never done it myself.

then one day when i was feeling the lowest of my low (throwing a poor me pitty party daily, because of the unforgiveness) i started drinking myself, and within a few weeks smoking as well......

well, then finally i could see things from their point of view, and how hard it actually was to quit etc.....i could understand how it must have ruled their lives etc etc.

it wasn't until this point that i was able to forgive and stop judging them, that i got my control back.

i still drink around drinkers and smoke around smokers though, which i think is partly so they don't feel judged by me, and i don't start judging them? still trying to figure out that one. i am 35 now, but moving to a place where no one drinks or smokes so i can have a break from it. i can understand it now, and controll it, but i still don't want to be around it now that i "get it" a bit more.

mellisamouse.

[Fainnamoony]

hello jane!!

welcome to the dc forums we are so happy to have you here

i have also struggled with alcohol as well as pot for the past 10 plus years. i finally have the pot under control and i thought i had the alcohol as well but i have learned that part of spiritual growth means that issues are brought up that you think you may have resolved but need more work. i've had life changes and new social situations going on lately and have been drinking more than usual (i normallly have a a few drinks socially but not more than one an hour and not that often) like turtle said drinking isnt a "bad" thing its when it becomes an addiction or is masking another problem that it becomes an issue. i have been realizing that the drinking is used to mask a fear of being rejected by my peers. i use it as a crutch so i can be more outgoing. i have come to realize that i am already a beautiful, funny, amazing being as we all are and i dont need alcohol i just have to learn to bring myself out of my shell on my own. i t isnt easy but i have no choice because the path of chronic drinking is one that i dont want to tred again

im telling you all this so that you may feel less alone in your struggle. my prayers are with you and i have complete faith that you will learn what you need to and overcome alcohol if thats what you so choose

sending you love and light

[Ankeseiband]

i feel your great energy. great people here. a lot of great feed back and important things to think about. thaaaaaaaaaaaaank youuuuuuuuu!;

[NikolaAAA]

jane, you are a very open and seeking soul, whatever choice you make you are always loved, and if you need a little extra love to help you through obstacles such as this someone or something always seems to be there to help.

one thing that i have learned is that the greatest influence on your life is yourself. the way i like to see it is, there is nothing wrong with you unless you think there is. me, i used to do a lot of drugs and drinking and was so elitist, conceited, and cocky towards everyone else.

others behaviors towards me made me realize that maybe what i was doing was wrong, their love (whether it was knowingly or not knowingly) towards me made me realize that what i was doing according to myself, not just them, was wrong. the funny thing is, is that it was negativity towards me, not love, but i turned it in to constructive criticism and made a change.

i still have flashes of drug usage and a negative attitude but at least they are in balance and no one is harmed mentally/physically/emotionally. now i know how to forgive myself and ask for forgiveness and truly be sorry, not just lieing to myself and others. the one infinite/original creator was right all along, balance is key.