[Sarah Armstrong]

11.01

is the time i start answering your post vithar. i sense you are sending out cries for help in almost every post i read. i'm not going to get into any heavy discussion with you, just share some of my 58-yaear lifestory.

i'm a heavy scorp myself, sun conj mercury square pluto (ruler of scorpio), libra moon sextile pluto, capricorn venus 144 pluto, pluto sextile mc. i also have scorpios traditional ruler mars conj saturn in the 12:th house of hidden enemies/spiritualty square kiron, the wounded healer, the "job-aspect" and i have a t-square venus/neptune/nn and satrun conj as square mc. that's the "horrorside" of my chart.

there are other more gentle sides also, but i just want to say that i have experienced hell on earth and there are days when i still think and fear that nothing i come across ever is going to change my fate, and that i'm going to loose in the end no matter what i do, never mind the synchronicities, astrology, forums, happy moments etc. ; my fate is to be outcast, misunderstood and not because i don't have any talents, no just because of that i'm constantly meeting envious pple who try to use me and then throw me away.

this is a reflection of something i have internalized from a harsh upbringing with a schizofrenic mother, jealous step-mother and a weak father, and when seeking help at 27 the "the-rape-ist" tried to seduce me during the councelling and breaking out of that i met a meditationguru who brainwashed me and i ended up in a mental hospital for 4 years after having a psychosis developing into an agony depression.

at the hospital i was bullied by a mail nurse who said for instance "you're not more depressed than i am, and isn' t it cosy to be in a place where you're served food everydaý without having to work for it? i had such agony that i thought i would be in this hell until my dying day and feeli ng these knives cutting my soul to pieces every minute.

i don't say i'm innocent; i probably set this scenario up before incarnating, i probably did misuse my spiritual powers as a mayan, and i've done some nasty things myself in this life not of the dignity i met in these reflections though.....

i somehow thank the universe for my psychic breakdown even if i felt (and sometimes still do) like a victim. iv'e been engaged in the peacemovement as a singer/songwriter, in the left-movment because of the injustices in the world /(but not anymore due to the denial of spirituality f.i.) i've been in the greenmovement, "the earth is our mother" philosophy, i've lost my caréer, i can't teach music and french anymore due to outburn after i tried to come back after the hospital. i've been into several sickness-dependencyrelationships after coming out from the "prisonhospital" i live alone with my dog, my step-mother still tries to stop me from seeing my father..

this is the dark side of my life. i always recall this when i'm going down, and then i rejoice over the fact that i'm rather healthy, i've got some friends even if they don't share my spiritual interests, i have a wonderful dog, a still rather undestroyed nature close to my home, i can still sing, play the guitar and the fiddle, i have an apartment, this website (and all the doubts of course that this is just another "sect" "end of the world" "we will disappear together if we reach 51% sto...of course, i've been brainwashed, has anyone else here this experience???)

i dont't want to pretend to believe something just because i read it on a website, i can only rely on personal experience, so in a way i really can identify myself with you vithar, with the difference that it seems like i rise more easilly from the ashes like the phoenix. it must be allowed to be sad, bitter and disillusioned....i was for a looooooooooooong time.

i just hope for us all that things will change, and they will, that's the only thing we know for sure.

what i appreciate the most about david is his honesty about his own shortcomings and understanding of co-, counterdependency..he actually has inspired me to dare to be open with my own "horrorstory"
thanks david

liliane

suppose the moderators will move this thread somewhere else, it's ok with me.

[addyta.org]

thanks transiten, you've given me the push i needed to answer this horrible question. here in korea everybody you meet immediately asks, how old are you? they don't even care where you come from, age for some strange reason is their obsession. and nobody can give me a reason for this. when the kids i teach ask me (as they do, constantly, ) i tell them 45. they are impressed, because they say i look younger (!!!!).

my biggest fear all my life has been to get old. and here i am. i thought i could cheat, and officially changed my name to young, so that i would affirm it with every signature. crazy.

ok, so i'm 61. i don't care what anybody says, and i've heard it all, i don't like being this old. but i don't regret the experience. love, young larissa

[*Playergirl*]

i am 16 years old (17 in a month) and geman. i am very happy that a friend told me about david wilcock. since i was 14-15, there was a major change in my life without any special events, but since then i became really interested in oobe, death, how life works, i keep an eye on how i am doing things, and am looking at how people think, why they aren't so interested in those exciting subjects etc.

i have had several experiences already, but even more important to me is that i am thinking about how life works, how i could expand my conciousness, what my dreams/experiences are about etc. like the whole day which gave me some amazing insights/realisations. sometimes i lay on my bed or sit in my computer chair and just do -nothing-, try to think about nothing, am not moving, and then i can clearly see how wonderful this state is (some kind of meditating, i guess).

[JJoon077]

they say that you're as 'old as the woman you feel', which is a bummer for me coz my wife is only 6 month's younger than me ! mind you, it doesn't hurt looking at younger models as long as you don't touch, bit like in a posh car showroom.

my missus has had to put up with a lot with me, and i wouldn't swap her for the world.........now how do i get to sell a photo of her for $91k, oh i know, become president of france, get divorced, marry a super-model .........

[GenryDont]

i already answered that i'm 35, but i just wanted to throw in that it is fun to say 29+tax instead of 35....lol

[avaiptutt]

i already answered that i'm 35, but i just wanted to throw in that it is fun to say 29+tax instead of 35....lol

i used to say 39us, (instead of 47) but that doesn't work now that the canadian dollar is almost at par. i'll have to use yours mellisamouse. :d

[Afigenatjola]

but i'm 48 and i've been here absorbing information like a sponge for over a year now.

be happy, be in peace,
valarie

[Tribas4u]

i'm 55
in 1972 thought i was going to change the world.
now just keeping my house in order & mind from deviating into folly is enough.
to be any sort of spiritual example starts with sweeping one's floor.

[TimoPizaz]

hi everyone... i'm 29 turning 30 in a month. i'm taurus.

[ROYMANgo]

i'm 42, and will be 43 next month. i am a gemini.

[Misebeita]

hello dear friends,

my wife of 20 years and myself will turn 46 this year. i am a taurus, annette is a virgo. we are both life path 9s.

i was carded for purchasing alcohol twice this past weekend. once with my wife. :-))

living the principals of the law of one is the fountain of youth.

blessings,
(:-deeze

[Kneedycrype]

hello my friends,

oooh... why is it so hard to grow older...? i don't like saying my age but i'm 43 turning 44 next month. where in the heck does the time go? the good thing for me is that since i've knuckled down and started loving myself more by eating well and exercising regularly, i think i'm looking younger these days. at least i feel younger

my new motto is: truly love you for who you are, inside and out, and you will reap the rewards in every single aspect of your life."

blessings to all of you "youngin's" here at dc,

kelly

[Sarah Armstrong]

hi everybody!

i have the feeling pple are rather young on this forum, btw 18-30???

me myself am 58, but find myself in the same situation as many of you young pple describe. i also identify with immigrants and fugitives though i was born in sweden only my mother being half-french.

seems to me that young pple are much more conscious about "the world at large" and "other worlds" too than when i was young. i'm an astrologer so i can see the reflections in my horoscope, or "horrorscope" as i say when doing stand-up. i often feel more connected to pple born after 1977 when kiron "the planet of the wounded healer" was detected. they resonate more easily to synchronicity and after-lifeissues.

i was into the first "hippie- and greenmovement" singing american folk/rock like joan baez, peter paul and mary, judy collins, joni mitchell, bob dylan, crosby stills nash and young and became a singer/songwriter myself after my education in music/french to be a teacher.

would be interesting to see the average age here on the forum

liliane

[avaiptutt]

interesting question.

i always check people's "public profile" to see how old they are etc. before i respond to their questions. i figure the advice is often different to someone who is in their early twenties than to someone in their fifties.

unfortunately, most people put n/a in their profiles. if they post often enough you usually get a feel for how old they are.

i would have never guessed you as 58 transiten, not sure why. i'm 47, (and a scorpio as well) so not everyone's young.

[Sarah Armstrong]

hi kris!

i actually look 10 years younger, have experiences like a 90year old, and for the moment i feel like 25, yesterday i felt like dying...typical scorpio swinging btw heaven and hell. my libra moon has a hard time balancing things up and my strong mercury sometimes sound like a psychologybook, next moment like a trixter. see you around! liliane

[Sarah Armstrong]

hi again!

i should have written 26 instead of 25 for the next stage 36 etc...but perhaps it works out anyway..everybody won't answer either so it will still be incorrect but give a hint.

[annouhMus]

i'm probably one of the youngest at 19.

[Blolover11]

hi liliane and all,
i'm probably one of the oldest posters at this site. i'm 74. have had an interest in all the things discussed here since i was in my early 20's. have investigated many religions and never found satisfying answers...always searching, believing that someday i could find those answers. i grew up in a series of foster homes and had a chance to view first hand many of the religions that the different families practiced but found none that "worked" for me. i have settled on a "philosophy"instead. the law of one! i have a lot of difficulty in grasping much of the scientific knowledge on this site but realize that is is all an integral part of this great universe that is being discovered.
have an interest in astrology as i have seen it "work". i too am a songwriter, a member of bmi and have had a couple of "cuts" but no spectacular successes. music has always been an important part of my life. i play the piano/keyboard and used to sing and play in a country band and later entertained in retirement communities and nursing homes. very satisfying work.
i look forward to coming here each day and reading the new material and feel a real connection to many of you. it's the highlight of my life at this point... my window to the cosmos.
my love goes out to all of you!
val

[GenryDont]

i am in the middle..i just turned 35 last week. i have had some of my best friends all the way into their 90's, but also as young as a new born. i allways seem to click with people way younger and way older as well.

part of me, the logical part, feels like an old soul, while my physical, and some spiritual aspects i feel like i am meer child of 12...... i still get id'd when i go out though...lol, yay!

[Sarah Armstrong]

hi!

so far it's a good blending of ages!. sweden is a very segregated country when it comes to age. i like old pple, children, young pple and pple my age so this forum seems to be the answer.

liliane