[ChrisGoldstein]

hello all. i have been keeping up with a lot of david wilcock's work and am very appreciate of it, have learned a lot. i am close to 24 now and since about four years ago i have been aware that we are in a spiritual transition phase collectively. however there is a bit of an issue right now, and i'm writing this not just for myself but i'm speaking for many people who are going through a similar thing right now.

i am in transition, along with the rest of the world, it seems, and i was intuitive enough that within the last three years i kind of decided to take it easy and say, "well the next phase of my life is going to manifest when it's ready." this was shortly after i finished getting my two-year associate's degree. the problem is that months and years went by and nothing really manifested, and there was no hint that anything was being manifested, and i started to really worry. i started talking to healers and did a variety of healing modalities (learned a few too), as well as making changes in my diet and doing my best to stay optimistic.

so taking a different approach i decided to take some action, explore a little, however enrolling in college was a disaster, i could not function for the life of me and everything i was studying seemed irrelevant. which is another problem i notice today, everything seems outdated anymore, counseling methods, therapies, information. it all seems very old and irrelevant to present times. i refuse to do medications, and so far i have not been pushed too hard in that direction by the universe, or other people.

anyway i am still kind of where i am, in transition and staying with my folks and have considered a number of options (many of which fell through), and am currently working a part time job at a local mall, just to get some money coming in. i have been blessed to have a good family and a roof over my head, although they don't always understand me or my choices. but i am staring at my old life and all my old friends and semi-friends i used to contact online, many of whom i don't share any connection with anymore. this is very difficult for me because i feel very out of place doing all this and want to get on with the program, so to speak... everything seems like a dead end or culdesac. but it's very hard to tell what to do, or when to do it. and if simple waiting is in order, that's fine (this has been suggested to me synchronistically a number of times), but i don't want to wait too long and miss whatever opportunities will really open doors that will be more up my alley into why i'm alive today.

and... yeah. that's about the brunt of it. anyone have any thoughts or suggestions?

[ENGINESSQ]

hi mikazo
i'm not sure i have any advice exactly but i wanted to share with you that i went through a very very similar period when i was 24 too - 8 years ago (scary!), a feeling of total stagnation and isolation.

what happened to change that for me was discovering david's old site, and the ll research site with the ra material, which i absolutely consumed. something then clicked and i no longer needed the wait, i had found the reason for my static life - it was to give me the time and space to discover and absorb this information.

shortly after that i got the exact job i wanted in the town where i most wanted to be, and my life just kind of restarted. i had a similar period of waiting 2-3 years ago - what changed there was unexpectedly (in this density at least) falling pregnant - again resulting in major life changes.

so what i guess i'm saying is that from my experience these periods of waiting have had a very definite purpose.

however, while you wait for that purpose to become clear are there small steps or activities you could do to help you move towards your ideal path? lorna

[ZZtop]

so how do you envision yourself in the best and worst case scenarios?

[ChrisGoldstein]

those are some hard questions. i talk to people, try to form connections, and just see what shows up. i have inclinations to study nutrition, and have taken some steps to get that underway, but while the subject matter is useful (and i have good reason to learn it), i'm just not entirely sure because so much of anything having to do with modern health is fast becoming outdated and the universe may be cooking something else anyway.

how do i envision myself?... well i suppose i just try to see that i can handle it. that's about the best i can say.

[AnriXuinriZ]

i have fairly similar problem, only im 18. i discovered.... pretty much everything about david, ra, 2012 and more during last year. after reading the ra material, i felt the same way, as if, well, nothing was really needed. studying was boring because it pointless. the information in the world is wrong obviously and everything that is going on. i lost motivation in basically almost everything. i have no problem with waiting untill 2012 and just work on spiritual work at home and just get a job. but, after about a couple of months, not only i lost motivation for the outside world, i was loosing motivation for the spiritual work. so i decided to get out there again after the couple year period of isolation, and just live normally and more importantly, live with more awareness. you have to stay active to keep up on both sides spiritual and normal. the normal world is the way to spiritual understanding. so now im much more involved in real world and still keeping up with my spiritual work as well. and plus, opportunities don't literally come knocking at your house, you will have to be out there to catch them. this will further develop your conciseness.
pretend you will live an old age and get into a profession only apply everything you have learned about who you are and the purpose of being here: to be of service to others and being kind, compassionate, and loving to all and be happy. i personally enjoy watching as many comedy movies as i can. a good laughter really lightens the mood no matter how bad the mood is. good luck.:d

[abossakon]

i'm there with you right now. i've got the same situation going on where i'm at only i'm 25. luckily listening to david last night on myth or logic radio made a huge difference in what i can do. with the meditation, working on the spheres, and eventually connecting with the higher self. that's one thing i can do and will do. sharring the joy of living a life.

"patient endurance" is written above my desk as i believe this is what i'm learning by all this waiting.

meanwhile i love to take a walk and experience the beauty in nature that passes me by when i am much too busy. if i'm in the city i love to people wach. and loving all those around me.

i heard tarot is also pretty good for connecting to the higher self; and once learned could help you make decisions and know when the right oppurtunity is coming. i reccomend reading tarot at:

http://www.lawofone.info/results.php...t&start_row=30

and also

taroscopes.com and timescopes.com

tons of love,

brent

[JulieSmithdccd]

i've found that it's usually a good idea not to just wait around for anything. even if you are waiting for one thing, find something else to do and make positive, active use of the time you have until that thing comes through for you.

thinking of a career but don't know what to do? pick up a newspaper and go through the want ads. pick any number of jobs that look good to you, or that pay what you want, and get an interview. even if you are completely unqualified. heck, if you want to get all guerrilla, make up a fake resume that has everything they're looking for on it just to get the interview. it doesn't matter since you don't want the job anyway. once you're there, and you have the people in front of you, start asking questions about the job, get to know it, and if you think you would like it, find out what kind of background the ideal candidate for this job would have. take down names and send thank-you emails after the interview.

don't think of it as real interviewing. think of it as research. then when you have an idea of what's out there, and maybe some interest in one or more fields has begun to sprout, start looking around for degree programs or whatnot that were recommended to you or that you feel will be best suited to getting you into these jobs.

ideally, this would be done around 17 or 18, but i think you can still pull it off in the early 20s if you have access to resources to get you back into school. i couldn't do it because by the time i figured out how the whole system worked, i was already out of school and working diligently on the sizeable debt that was bestowed to me upon graduation. "congratulations! here's your bill." ;-)

the old paradox: you get thrust into college before you know what you want to study, and after you graduate and work for a year or two, you finally discover what you really want to do, but you're locked out of the field because you didn't study it in college.

and then, to add insult to injury, you're in debt for ten or twenty years paying for this degree that you never really wanted in the first place, so you have to work in the field you find yourself in at the present just to pay that back.

and so you build up a line of experience for yourself, and every year that you are in this field that you don't like is another nail locking you down into it.

the way out?

this is when you start wishing you had a rich uncle of frail health, or you start planning escape routes out of the parking lot when you visit the bank. because the only way out is to have the money to support yourself and go back to school for however many years it takes to get the degree that you actually want.

so get out. do your research now, by hook or by crook, and figure out a direction you can live with as soon as possible. it's just going to get harder going forward, what with the success of the government's war on the middle class. anything technical (networks, programming, help desk even) is a good bet.

sorry for the rant. just don't want to see another make the same mistakes as me. good luck, to all of you! as for the shift, don't let it determine your actions in the now. there is a possibility that nothing will happen and you will be left with years and years to live that you won't be ready for, so the worst thing to do is sit around.

:d

[Anykeylo]

hey!

i´m also 24 years old, and i have had real struggle with finding my purpose in life for the last two years. i am a medical student soon to finish my 3rd year. but, as i have begun to look inside of me i´ve found that the title dr. so and so, is not me, will not ever be me, this is just a manifestation from my ego. my true identity is my soul persona, higher self, higher consciousness etc. the ego based thought goes something like: "if i study really hard, i will earn lots of money, i will have respect automatically, and i will be liked" but, as i have gone through the pain of my ego i have realised that i would/could be happy in any honest work, where i were to be helping other people.

so, where am i going with this? live your passion to be compassioned, find true love for yourself the spread it to others, find inner peace and share it with the world, be patient and be grateful for this time of stillness in your life...here lies the opportunity for you to look inside yourself and really find your purpose in life...

peace be with you

[ZZtop]

i can totally relate to your situation. i am 30 years old and i spent the better part of my youth with a bad attitude. i just didn't like it here and i was in and out of jail and being a general sore on society's arse.

i have to say that you, at 24, are lucky to be arriving at these questions now, so young. i just begun this searching for myself a couple years ago at 28. i finally calmed down and stopped acting out. i think the most important thing is to really think about and form a vision for yourself. how/where you want to be in the future and what you want to be doing. this can be easier said than done because, take me for example, i just did not feel like i fit in anywhere and there was nothing for me to do. it took me a little while but there are things i want to do. i don't mean just a career but what do you really want to do? even if it is just travel or something like that. once you have that vision then the pieces start falling into place. but, like me, if you just stay in a negative, bad attitude, kind of mentality then that is all that will manifest.

i made the mistake of caring about what other people were thinking/judging about me and it really held me back. it kind of ruined my youth. it took me a long time to come to the point that i don't care anymore what other people think about me or what i am doing. and i now feel free to listen to my heart and follow it where ever that happens to be.

i can tell that you are a good person and a smart guy. you will make it.

cheers,
foo

[Nikkytas]

it seems that i have about the same life. i live in nebraska and i am 24 i got really sick and had to lay off of college for a while and am taking one statistics class wich really sucks. other than that i just work on balancing myself and working with dreams this can be a full time job in itself. i am lucky in that i have a great family and we are fairly well off. i plan on finishing college with a degree in art next fall. but, i cant shake the feeling that art is somewhat outdated and or irrelavant. it just doesnt hold the same charge as it used to for me. this causes problems in that it makes my parents worry because they think i am falling into a depression because i am losing interest in things i used to enjoy. they are becoming more open to these ideas though and it is getting easier for them to understand and they are into qigong and meditation. they still arent getting the larger picture though. at least i dont believe they are. i have really had to battle with drinking as it is all any one thinks about while in thier 20's around my area. the worst is bachelour parties i have been to two of them in the last 2 months. very hard to stay centered at one of those and for some reason large quantities of alchohal no longer make me drunk i stay lucid.

[Beragagnu]

i am not really older then you guys and here is the solution i found. i think its time to stop waiting for something and just do something. i did put my work...my life, everything aside since it all didnt have any meaning for me anymore. but recently i decided to go back to my work, that gives me a more then decent income and stop waiting. then use this income to have a place to sleep and food to eat or course but all the rest i will dedicate it to people who need it.

i think the real transition will begin when we start living not for ouselves but for others. i am now on this path and i cant seem to see any other way to live my life now.

think about it!

[Tuqofiw]

i'm also nearing 24 years old,and have felt exactly as you do!

i have found that learning everything you can is a good way to pass the time,so to say,until the next course is shown to you.

don't let the "waiting" get you down,it is that very waiting that is preparing you for what will come next.


hang in there,you're in the right place!

[Nikkytas]

i agree that it is nice to have money and a job is a good way to express what one has learned and try to be of service. it is interesting to find out that 20-25 seems to be a crucial time. in about a year or two i am sure i will be working agian. i just hope i can keep focused on what is really important as it is easy to get pulled back into consensus reality when one is around others with a different outlook on life.

[ChrisGoldstein]

thank you for your responses, they were very helpful.

hopefully those of us who are in this position will know what we need to do within a reasonable period of time.

[Qncvqpgfg]

i'm 25 and in the same boat. i attend 2 colleges and work in a preschool. the kids are my passion and all that seem to matter to me anymore. its gotten to the point where i'm seriously contemplating dropping out from my university where i'm stuck pursuing a philosophy degree. i couldn't care less about philosophy anymore and i'm not allowed to switch to child development because i'm so close to finishing my phil degree. so now i'm on academic probation and being told that i'm at risk of being kicked out of school. if they only knew how happy that would make me haha.

sometimes i feel like i would learn way more in my classroom with my students than in a college class. the problem is, i don't think most people would appreciate my situation, nor would they understand why i want to drop out. college just seems irrelevant and outdated. especially when it comes to children because these kids aren't the same as previous generations.

here's hoping each of us get the sign we need in the very near future!

dave

[Gromiaaborn]

not just to mikazo, but all who replied:

as with alot of the forum members, i can relate to your situations. i am currently 29 and have been through the "ringer" this entire decade of my life.

patience is definitely good advice...

in my experience though, the answers didn't "come" to me, i had to go out and find them. and i made alot of mistakes along the way, which, reflecting back now, were blessings - they helped me learn who i am and grow into the person i am today. so, don't be afraid to take risks or make mistakes...

there is alot in my current life that seems outdated and irrelevant, however, the structure of society is still what it is, and we all need a way to survive - in other words, make money to support ourselves and our families. so, while i look forward to creating positive change, its not going to happen overnight.

back when i was still a corporate engineer, i went through one of their "brainwashing programs" called imagine 21. pretty good material actually, and one of the things i can offer to you is that to focus on a goal, project outward to where you want to be. establish the goal, and then look backward to the steps... in other words, don't look for the first step to meet your goal because you might not get there!

growth for me has never come easy, but again, i'd say the hardships you face mold you into the person you can be...

like all have said already, hang in there! this forum is a great place for all your needs.

sending all of you positive thoughts.

art

p.s. - this post didn't really come out right and i'm short on time to edit properly...

[joe-salton]

funny, i just turned 24 two weeks ago. and i can sympathize with your situation, though mine is apparently different.

currently i'm in ghana as a peace corps volunteer, teaching mathematics to ghanaian highschool students. but the particular school i'm assigned to doesn't really need me. and my best (but sometimes not very good) to find ways i can be of greater service have all basically fizzled. meanwhile a whole host of situations are basically pulling me home in four months, which is basically one year sooner than i would otherwise be leaving.

why am i going home? because i see the opportunity to be of greater service with an opportunity that has opened up there... and more than ever i'm feeling like the lessons that i came to ;earn/teach here have been accomplished in as near completion as another year would provide. the lesson moves into a new classroom -- an old classroom -- but the lessons are always new. in all likelyhood returning to the states will be a harder choice than staying here for another year. but at this point i am certian that it is the right one.

i went through a situation which is very much like what you have described when i was 20-22. i switched majors to mathematics from electrical engineering. i did this because i began to resent the path with ee would lead me to. meanwhile i enjoyed the math classes form the ee track. and i had no idea whatsoever i would do with a "useless" bs in mathematics. in a way, i still don't, though there's always teaching, which is fun, but a totally off-kilter system throughout the world.

and in a very real way i've been listening for that "sign" since i was 20. and "the sign" has never come, but when i listened to my heart and allowed myself to flow with the various catalyst which came my way, i've ended up continually on a path which seems at least consonant with my psyche. it hasn't been a pleasant path, but when looking back i ahve a certain sense of certainty that most if not all of the choices have been the right ones.

i didn't know what i wanted to do after college, and two years befor ei graduated one of my friends told me he was considering peace corps. i had never given the peace corps any consideration before that time, and actually felt it was a silly organization, but i did some research and decided that it piqued my attention for a reason. it gave me a reason to finish school and actually get a degree.

then i get here, to ghana, which is one of the last places i would have actually "wanted" to go, and i've managed to learn a whole host of lessons i probably would have been incapable of learning back home. and then things started leading me toward thinking of home again. and then things started happening which made heading home a likely reality. and then i had another moment of "aha" where i put 2 and 2 together and relaized that there was a project back in salt lake which would have a small window to begin with, but which could be a big opportunity for service. and things fell into place. even though it will probably be a rather odd job (working for my step dad's nonprofit org since he's moving out of town with my mom), making very little primary income, like the peace corps it sort of fell into place. and i'm sure there's a reaosn for it.

my point in giving you this long story is that you need to keep your ears/heart open to these things which will come to you as "signs" but which will not easily be understood as such. these signs will not be major obvious events, but little whispers in your proverbial ear which will be perfectly tailored for your psyche to understand them if you are open to the possibility of their existence.

i'm more than certain that your path will open up before you, but you had probably best stop waiting for that one big thing, and start paying attention to the small things which will mysteriously guide you along the path which is right and... you never know. if everything david talks about is true, leading up to 2012, then you may just get a big sign too. but don't count on it. what you can count on is the little things steering you in the right direction if you make yourself sufficiently steerable.

i havn't had a chance to proofread this letter and i need to leave the apirede community library now since it's after 9:00pm and it closed at 6:30 today. i hope i have sufficiently summarized both my resonnance with your situation, based on my own account, and also clearly presented my "advice" to you. enjoy your path!

-charles

[Nikkytas]

i agree that college seems like a huge wast of time,energy, and money and in my opinion is totally outdated and creates a sort of super nihilistic culture of sex, drugs, sports, porno, and beer that creates a sorta black hole. i had to take about 2 years off and nurse my self back to health and know really dread giong back to finish. it is very hard to keep oneself isolated from the madness of dorm life.

[bortycuz]

[b][b]there is a free on line book discussion course being given by [tv celeb and new age writer-email for names please] purpose.
in all the years and all the searching i have done this stuff is high quality and easy for mainstream to learn as well as dynamic for one who has been on the front lines, so to speak, for quite a while.

there are tons' of valid channeling as well as the ra material offered thru this site.

find out what your passion is just by asking yourself what excites you....list as much as you can imagine. i'm sure something will come up. pay attention to the things that you are drawn to no matter how silly or ludicrous it/they may appear. ask your (my term for it) 'full potential self' for some assistance. you are not alone in your journey. you have lot's of "dudes" on the other side just clamoring for your attention.

i remember at 21 feeling that if i didn't find 'it' soon i was doomed to life on earth. (what ever "it" was i had no idea, but i knew for sure what i didn't want)
i remember thinking "are these really my parents?"....kept a lot of my thoughts to myself as they were not the norm.

life is good and this is the most exciting time to be alive and on this planet.
everything is a mirror reflection of you. you need to polish the mirror and look for the fun stuff.

lightwalker

[rJohutozsfds]

[b][b]there is a free on line book discussion course being given by [tv celeb and new age writer-email for names please] purpose.
in all the years and all the searching i have done this stuff is high quality and easy for mainstream to learn as well as dynamic for one who has been on the front lines, so to speak, for quite a while.
lightwalker

yes i posted about this awhile ago, only to have my entire post deleted! at least yours only got edited. it's great stuff! in my opinion it's more informative and enlightening than probably about 90% of the links posted in this forum, but hey, i still didn't complain, even though other people were allowed to post about this same person. i don't usually complain unless my posts that conform to forum guidelines gets deleted.