[strmini]

greetings brothers and sisters,

i recently found a video of mr. david wilcock doing an interview,and felt absolutely compelled to follow the link to this beautiful site.

am i glad i did,anyhow i will get to the issue of my query.

since i was very young i have felt like a wanderer (new term to me,but describes perfectly) on this world. since i was about 10 years old,i have been sick,or injured in some form or another constantly. i was seeing a healer (reiki) at the time,and he informed me,after he waited for me to ask,that i was under a psychic attack,and had been for a very long time.

i was wondering if anyone here has has any experience with dealing with this,or knows of a resource i could look for help in.

i have been reading the guide to the loo the past 2-3 days(ordering as soon as i can!),as well as nearly everything offered on this website,and feel as if a door has been opened,and i am finally ready to walk through it.

i hope this post is within guidelines,as i was unsure of asking this question anywhere else.

-lance

[obegeLype]

as a child i use to get a lot of recurring nightmares.

i was very young, and i don't remember a lot that clearly, but i can remember feeling incredibly scared, i can remember getting a horrible feeling of a "presence" in my room.

when this happened, i used to pray.

it was during one of these prayers when i had this powerful experience which words cannot truly describe.
i feel that this experience had a huge impact on me as a person.

i felt what i can only describe as pure love/ light surrounding me, enveloping me and pouring into my entire being.
in this moment, i felt nothing but love.
i wanted to stay in that moment forever.
i felt sad when it went away, but it gave me something that will always stay a part of me.

after having this experience, the nightmares went, and i have never really been bothered by any of that kind of thing since.
i do feel as if i'm being protected.

it is not a feeling i was able to bring on myself, or replicate since it happened, except for on a couple of occasions, but the first time was the most powerful. i felt as if it came from outside of me.

i did for a short time have a kind of telepathic communication with "god", when i was very young- a kind of language of the heart.....beyond words.

however, i am sad to say that the more i learned to think and question things and learn about religion and such......the more this gift i had faded away until i lost it completely.

i would love to regain this ability some day.

but it's so hard because it means i need to work on deprogramming so much about the way my mind words which has been conditioned upon it by society, etc.

quite often, i'll feel so lost in this world, and periodically suffer from depression.

but, deep down, what i truly hunger after is that sense of complete love and oneness i felt when i had that experience.

and i feel lost in this world when words cannot explain certain things i'd love to help others to see.

but.....
words cannot explain.


i'm sorry that this is a long rambling post; i just wanted to share the experience i had with you.

maybe all we need to do is "ask" for protection- and we will receive it.

i hope this helps in some way.

peace.

[Pharmaciest]

welcome fellow wanderer!

i must confess, that all i have to offer you is my own confusion, but here is what has worked best for me.

1) make yourself completely transparent to the energy, allowing it to pass right thru you with absolutely no effect. this has been key for me. trying to block the negative energy just drains my own energy, and trying to reflect it back to them can actually empower it. kind of like the old saying 'you fight it; you feed it!"

2) the second most helpful thing for me is to surround myself with white light, almost like being inside an 'egg' or a tube of light. i find this both protective and energizing. the more you do it the better it works.

3) if this attack has been going on for a long time like you say, it's imperative that you sever the power connection this being has with you. clear intent is your most powerful tool here, altho adding a physical act can be extremely helpful. (that's why spells and rituals are effective.) something like holding a scissors in front of your power chakra, using a cutting motion, and symbolically severing the connection.

4) faith is very helpful too. simply trusting that no catalyst would be experienced unless it had a potentially positive and lasting beneficial effect, will make any situation infinitely more bearable.

[RilmAlime67]

the part about letting that energy pass through you is key...as in not divulging any emotional energy to these entities whatsoever, as this is their intended product of their actions.
i had a dream that's forever changed my understanding of what to do when you're "under fire" so to speak.
basically, i was sitting on a bench on the edge of a cliff, watching as my family swam in the waters beneath me. i was looking around, until i noticed a man standing to my left in the forest. as soon as i looked at him, i was overwhelmed with such love and acceptance it made me cry. i hugged him with such force and openness it was one of those "life changing" moments...but it didn't occur in 3d! within this moment, he told me "go back to the bench and just sit there. don't move and you'll see what happens."
so i sat there, and within a couple of moments, i heard loud barking off in the forest behind me. i looked to my right and a pack of dogs was rushing towards me as they growled beneath their snarling teeth. they were getting ready to pounce and surely kill me. but i didn't do anything: i sat there and just accepted them for what they were. i didn't laugh, i didn't cry, or even try to beam them with love; i just sat and gazed at them...knowing i had an inner strength that had seemingly been activated by the man i had just seen in the forest. as soon as i wasn't afraid, their energy completely shifted. they instead became extremely friendly and started wagging their tails. i reached over to pet one of their shaggy coats when a sharp whistle pierced through the forest.
i looked behind me and i could sense two men were approaching. they stopped just before the end of the tree line, staring at me solidly behind leaves and branches as their dogs walked slowly towards them. but again, i did nothing.
they turned away and i haven't seen them since.

[corsar-caribean]

hey lance.

actually, what is being described sounds similar to what i went through before. i don't know if what i have to add will help, but here goes.

if you have been going through this from childhood, it's likely that you are a rather powerful soul. otherwise no entity would have bothered to devote itself to you from such a young age. its/their job is to limit the amount and intensity of light that you are able to share with the world by keeping you focused on the negative as much as possible.

the trick that has worked for me is to remain as positive as possible, regardless of what is happening to me at that given moment; and to work hard to discipline myself to do those things that i need to do in order to make sure that i have the greatest opportunity to experience positives in my life (it's tough - due to lack of concern for the self, those of mostly positive orientation, perhaps like yourself, tend to lack the high levels of discipline that those of mostly negative orientation value so greatly, and they use this against us).

the trick is to combine the desire for discipline that the sts entity uses to serve itself with the intent and/or desire to use that discipline to help others. for example, maintaining regular meditation/visualization to bring your level of vibration up, or making sure to take proper care of the body (stos have the tendency to devalue care of the self, so we fall prey to health concerns comparably easily) and keeping a strong social support group around ourselves. and then making sure to return as much love (and you will have more to share with others) to those around you that you can.

so the goal to shoot for is to bring the best of both worlds together. in the meantime, i have found that including morning and evening prayers (you don't have to speak out loud, just say them in your head if you like) upon awakening and going to sleep to be helpful.

at night, i visualize a sphere of white light expanding out from my chest to protect me, then fill my room, then surround the house, then up, up, up until it surrounds the earth, pushing out any negative influences and holding them away from me and my loved ones (which, incidentally, includes everybody on earth at the present time). then i ask for any angelic entities that are available and willing to help to surround my bed while i sleep. i envision them, flaming swords in hand, standing guard, arm to arm in a ring around my bed. then i thank them for coming and fall asleep.

since my most severe attacks occurred during periods of overindulgence in alcohol, sexual activity, or depressive feelings, i have resolved to keep "moderation" and "self-control" as goals to strive for (which, oddly, is easier done for the alcohol and sex than the depression!) in these areas.

what else.. um. that's all i have for now. maybe if you have some more questions i can go into greater detail. cheers!

[obegeLype]

its/their job is to limit the amount and intensity of light that you are able to share with the world by keeping you focused on the negative as much as possible. now, that's certainly an interesting thought.

i'll have to remember to stay focussed on the light too.

[strmini]

wow,thank you all so much for the responses!

in the last 2 weeks,my life has completely changed,spiritually. when i was younger i was much more in tune with my inner self,and had many manifestations.


i can really look backwards and see myself being clouded,now. which makes me very thankful i have been able to "clear the fog" recently,better late then never they say. though,i believe it was a inner choice that i wasnt ready to really delve into until now.

thank you all so much for sharing your experiences with me,it means a lot.


-lance