[allachakb]

hi

my name is jane, i live in west yorkshire, england and i have just joined this group. i'm well aware of 2012, the deception that is going on in the world and am actually beginning to feel some home that thigs may be going to improve bbefore too long, which is saying something for me! the american presidential candidate ron paul is making me feel more positive about things for one! i have also been watching and listening to david wilcock's tapes on you tube (not heard it all yet but nearly) ovet the past couple of days. i had already heard of him some time ago but never heard him speak before. he seems a genuine and good person.

i have a horrible, horrible problem that no one seems to be able to "hear" when i tell them about it. this is something i've got used to over the p[ast few years to the extent where i could very easily believe that this is all a dream and other "people" don't really exist - not a healthy attitude to take but i have felt very trapped and isolated, watching terrible things going on and whatever i've tried to do having no effect whatsoever!

this problem is that i feel like i have some kind of blockage in my head / neck / whole being really. i don't even know if blockage is the correct description. it is almost like someone cracked open my skull or something and poured loads of thick glue into me. if i am anyway near anything sharp edged it kind of cults into me and it is like the "glue" is like a think yolk and i want to pull it outwardss from me and break it open! but it always just snaps back again, feeling tighter and more stuck then ever! i am sure this must actually be somehow connected with the pineal gland in my head and gradually started coming on whjen i started doing a form of yoga years ago and felt something move at the base of my spine. however, i am sure it cannot be meant to feel like this and just go on like this year after year after year! i also have odd secretions when i go to the loo (sorry about this but i am giving as much info as i can in the hope that someone can help!) which are definately connected with this.

i do have curvature of the spine but i am 52 and was born with this condition and never used to feel this blockage (or whatever it is) until the yoga thing. it makes it impossible to meditate or even just sit and really relax - sometimes it feels much worse than others. i want to speculate that it make be some implant put there in alantis which i had forgotten about and then came to light again - i'm not sure if this is a load of cobblers but it is worth considering!

please, please, if anyone can help send me a priovate message or just respond to this thread. i may be coming over as rather self obsessed but this is a really pain and i need to do what i can to get rid of it now. i can see that most people around me seem to be living in a false reality (going along with bush, brown, the phony war on terror and oter things. it worries me when basically good people get carried along with all this. i feel i should be doing something to help. i also have some "evidence" that i know whom i was in a past live and it was someone who knew they would be back here now and about how important this time is. but if so all this has been to very little avail up to now!!

hlep please!

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jane p

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[corsar-caribean]

hi jane -

first off, it's usually a good idea to assume a non-metaphysical source of ailments unless you have some really compelling evidence. it just makes it easier to get the doctor to take you seriously, and who knows? it often turns out to be something completely mundane anyway. start off talking about the pineal gland and atlantean implants and your md is likely to start thinking you have a psychological disorder instead of a physiological one. which, incidentally, might interfere with his or her ability to "hear" you or take you seriously :-)

you say it started after yoga? have you visited a chiropractor yet? if it was caused by some sort of dislocation in your spine, then it is probably something that they would know about, even if your general practitioner has come up empty.

it almost sounds like some sort of problem with the nervous system, since you describe it as a glue or a blockage sensation. i'm not a doctor, though.

as for the current state of world affairs, just remember to relax. it's all too easy to get caught up in that "i must go and tell the others" mindset; but you'll only end up stressing yourself out and possibly alienating some friends if you take it all too seriously.

[allachakb]

thanks for reading this and making this suggestion. i will consider any ideas!

[MarlboroCig]

hi jane, i live in the south west.

the problem with not being able to get others to understand what it is exactly we are trying to communicate about this kind of thing.....is something all of people like us experience.

i wrote about this in a similar forum, and the response was amazing.
so many people are going through this. it makes us feel, at times, that we are lost in a strange world. but we are not alone. there are others.....so many...out there. and as the words go in a song i'm listening to a lot lately "somewhere there's a place that we belong".

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vi8gb09sacc

there are many things that your physical sufferings could be caused by. hopefully you will be able to find the cause and get some relief from it soon. if the doctors can't find the answer, try and be still and ask for guidance from your inner self. i sometimes pray to the "universal mother and father".

much love, light and peace.

[CealialactBek]

hi jane,
i'm sorry to hear that you are going through such as things. i wish to be help but i can say what i would do only if i'm in ur situation.
first of all, i'd go to see a doctor to find out if my brain is developing cancer or anything similar to it and then check the blood pressure, and then check the blood vessles through your neck and around your head to see how healtthy they are. also i'd double check my diet.
if they are all normal, then i would suspect a possibility that some 4th density beings try to place some implant to prevent your merkava to be activated or brand your wisdom eyes so that you can't open up to higher wisdom or maybe you might be just waking up. it's only an assumption but well a lot of people seem to say these things. and i'm not sure if all those implants are done by negative beings only if there's certain implants have been really placed. a guy friend who is a channel/healer practitioner told me that his arcuturain folks tried to implant something on his head. if it's the case of implants, i'd surf all those materials on line to take care of this problem.
well, regarding brains, there could be multiple reasons for when it has problems like yours.
but know that, you have a right to choose, your free will where to put your consciousness(thoughts) and you well know that, our thoughts provide the ground for the reality that we belong.
i mean, to make things simple, things get really simple. it might not as serious as you assume, so less worries i hope.
i wish you well,

s

[WhiliaStelt]

beloved jane--welcome!

as with everything i share--if there is something that resonates with you, take it, shape it to fit you and run with it--otherwise, just set it aside, okay?

i'm not going to diagnose you--you're truly the only one who can take responsibility and know your experiences, thoughts and feelings in every moment.

with that said, just over ten years ago i had a childhood trauma come to the surface that i had suppressed and convinced myself it was just a dream. that "knowingness sense" within me told me i needed to "bring that which is hidden within out into the light"--basically share with my husband and other people what had happened in order to take the power out of it being a secret. i had intended to take it to my grave.

this was the second step of the process. after the first step of letting myself remember it, i was at a place in my spiritual journey where i truly believed that that childhood experience was intended to happen, that there was a purpose in it (that i had made an agreement with a fellow being), and that god wouldn't have allowed it, if that wasn't so.

when i finally got the courage to share my little story with my husband, i found it was so much easier than i expected, and that my husband was understanding and accepting of me. the world was great!

the very next day, my neck went out of whack! over the course of two days, i learned what muscle spasms really were. i couldn't roll over or even lay down on the bed. my husband had to dress me and comb my hair. we got in to see a chiropractor who sent me to a medical doctor for pain killers and muscle relaxants first--i was so tense and shaking he was concerned he'd end up tearing things if he tried to adjust me without getting me relaxed more. i was shaking too much to get x-rays--scoliosis had pretty much twisted my entire torso from my neck and shoulders to my hips.

while there, the chiropractor's associate asked me if i'd suffered a recent emotional trauma that started the whole thing. i answered, "no." and i was sincere--i thought i had dealt with the trauma three days earlier, that it was fully resolved. but it was only the tip of the iceberg.

i was just beginning the process of healing myself and gradually becoming aware of all aspects of myself and how to integrate them in order to live life to its fullest. i would learn to connect emotional and spiritual beliefs and issues to physical symptoms using the chakras. most importantly, i would learn how to breathe using my diaphragm and learn to center myself in the present moment. this was a journey of years, and not a few days.

i learned to listen to my intuition: go to a doctor with the physical stuff or take an aspirin or a tylenol if that's what struck me to do in one moment. the next moment i might "get a thought" to take a walk, a nap, enjoy any kind of food whether i perceived it as healthy or just fun and comforting. i did yoga, i followed the pain and experienced it fully, listening to what it was telling me. often once i listened to the pain, i would remember painful moments that i'd stuffed away and buried in anger, and by remembering those moments and allowing the tears and the pain, the symptoms disappeared.

i had body aches--arthritic feeling type pains. i slowed myself down and listened to what they had to tell me about me. i held myself.

i had allergic reactions and rashes--old energy consciousness seemed to use any pore to find a way out of me. i listened, i took sea salt water baths, and sometimes i scratched the surface deeper for relief. eventually they disappeared, too.

thru' out it all, i had a belief that i was just moving old energy out of my being--i was in the midst of a transformation that went as deep as my dna. i'm no longer afraid of getting some disease that i can't move thru'. i perceive it as just "moving energy."

i did a cleansing fast, not knowing of a thing called "toxic rush." poisons going in aren't going to feel very good coming out. i would recommend to anyone doing that, just make sure someone close to you is aware of what you're doing. it can feel pretty traumatic. thankfully my husband was there.

i also began to let go of conspiracy theories--the idea that i had no power over someone inflicting something on me. that seemed to just hand the responsibility and joy of my own life over to someone "other" than me--it was disempowering. and i grew up on conspiracy theories--sometimes it was hard to challenge that deep sense of needing to be "right" about those old ideas. it was as if to do so meant that a good portion of my life was just a waste--but i found none of it was a waste.

i also did yoga and was doing stretching exercises when i first suffered the bulged vertebrae in my neck--for me, i believe i had a blockage there most of my life and when i started putting "light" on the whole subject, it created a great deal of pressure on that blockage (needed at the time in order to start getting energy moving thru' it). gradually it would grow easier and less painful and eventually disappear after one last run thru' in order to break up the scar tissue.

long story short, i appreciate and have tremendous joy in every part of that journey. i discovered gems about myself and humanity that i just adore and love playing with. every moment was, and is, a gift--and those gifts just keep expanding in my reality.

don't know if you'll find this helpful--whatever you do, do it your own way. if nothing else, please know my thoughts are with you--and thanks for sharing your story with us.

welcome to our group. my dad used to love having coffee, visiting with all kinds of people--and this forum reminds me a great deal of those moments.

much love and light and hugs,
penny

[allachakb]

hi

first of all, thank you for all taking the time out (especially over christmas!) to read and respond to my post. i would not have normally have just barged in like that - but as i'm sure you can all appreciate, this thing has been driving me mad (on and off, it varies) for years and years! i'm not sure if i explained it as well as i might have done, but it is so difficult to explain! i have certainly never been to the doctor about it and wouldn't mention anything about an implant to them! it is not "physical" as such - but the sensation it gives me is physical. at the moment it feels like my head is one of those rubber head things that used to be desk toys (?) some years ago - you could push one side into the middle - so it feels like someone has pushed the right-hand side of my head into the middle! so i feel clogged up and like i want to put my hand in and pull it out again and shake it free - but i can't do this!

the good thing (and i'm not sure if this is my imagination yet) is it does seem to have felt like it is being stretched a bit since i wrote on here! last time i described it as like a yolk - but imagine more egg white - you know how thick it is but like you could stretch it out - a bit like that - but i want to pull it right out and away from me!

the frustration i've felt has been in taking in about what horrendous, insane weapons we have currently on this planet and the terrible things they can do to people with thme, also the fact they tend to stick around for billions of years (ie depleted uranium) having terrible effects upon human beings. i've seen it like being stuck in a virus and despite having vigured out what's going on, still being stuck in it and not being able to do anything to change things!

anyway, my aim is to start this new year in a more positive frame of mind! whilst the "people" in charge of things at the moment are so terrible to me they are also becoming less and less "real" - so absurd that they are laughable! i think a lot of the damage must stem from giving all your power over to a "leader" whom you assume "knows best" what to do!

anyway, i am going to have a good look around the forum now and see what other discussions are going on. if anyone has any more ideas what this thing might be with me - please let me know!

happy new year to you all!

[pharmablogger]

welcome jane. as you've probably discovered this is a wonderful place to gain insights and assistance with just about everything and anything

i think i have a better idea of what you are going through now that you have described it a bit further. am i correct in saying that physically you are fine, but mentally you are feeling this blockage and sensing that it is located in your head/neck area?

peace to you.
jd