[MpNelQTU]

hello everyone, i haven't posted much recently but i just wanted to share some of my recent experiences and hopefully receive some words of advice. i am 20 years old so i am young but not a child, but with the knowledge i have gained from this website i'm actually finding it very difficult to know where i want to go with my life. i'm a university student but i find my thoughts and actions being affected by 2012 every day. a part of me is excited about the prospect of ascension. another part of me is thinking that in this lifetime i am not going to have the opportunity of a full 3d experience, going out into the world of work and having a family and supporting that family. i am really having a great time at the moment. i've been meeting new people from all over the world and i've made some great friends. i believe that wrestling with the ego is very hard when you're young and i think that as people become older it is easier and easier to keep the ego in check. my problem is that i am enjoying being an individual at the moment, i regularly feel flattered when people praise me and i still find myself doing things to impress others.

it was only a few weeks ago, before i came back to university that i felt rather disillusioned with my life. since then, things have completely turned around through meeting great new friends and having great experiences. i have also met a girl that i really like in the past 2 weeks, and although she also has feelings for me, the fact is that she has a boyfriend at home. now that i know it can't work out with her even though i have very deep feelings for her, i find myself questioning why it always seems to happen to me with relationships. why am i attracted to so few girls in the romantic sense and then when i am there is some obstacle preventing me from being with that person. this is one of the ideas i find myself very attached to, the idea of romantic love. i have found myself almost panicking at the fact that i may only have 5 years to experience this in this physical body. another problem i have is a very strong attachment to close friends and family. i find it difficult to move on from relationships or the loss of loved ones. the thought of being physically separated from people close to me depresses me.

the way i've felt recently is that i'm going through a difficult stage of life at a time when all these great changes are occurring. i am feeling the effects physically as i am constantly tired and find it hard to get up in the morning and some days i feel like i would rather not think about classes or any obligations and instead do what i want to do. all though i have tried to cut it out, such is the nature of social occasions in england that i have been drinking considerable amounts of alcohol from time to time which is not helping. on the one hand i feel like i should be strong and not drink alcohol at all, but on the other i feel that i want to be 'normal' to a certain extent and enjoy the student life. my mother always tells me to 'enjoy it all while you're young, you will never do it again', which is right in a way but i am constantly thinking about 2012 and the fact that my life is unlikely to be the way i imagined it would be several years ago before i had any idea about ascension. i would really appreciate any advice on how to deal with the issues i've mentioned, thank you very much.

[illignocearia]

i have to post this reaction, because i am sure young seekers everywhere are feeling as you do....i was like this maybe 6 years ago too. but....and i say but, even if you believe that there will be changes in 2012, you should never stop living your life! most of our fear with the 2012 scenario revolves around not getting done what we want to get done ....oh geez! i failed and i am doomed! no, no, no, that is not what this is all about. our lives are about living them, learning to love others and bounce off of others so we can see how we are so much alike-so we can touch and feel love . don't ever stop living your life because of some event or thing that may or may not happen in the future, for not living your life is truly the worst you can do for yourself and others in your life......and for everyone else in the collective consciousness.

get a plan, start loving yourself by realizing that you have qualities you can give to others. give yourself hugs daily and genuinely like yourself . then say "hey self, what is it i would most like to do with my life?" i am sure you will get a perfect answer. take care, chris

[nvideoe]

hello liam,

i perfectly understand where you are coming from. don't let anticipation of 2012 become a source of fear for you. even when the ascension process takes place it is not going to be some instant life altering event. it will be a gradual process and for many people there may not seem to be any immediate change at first. life will go on and your body will continue just as it is although it may become healthier and live much longer. continue with your dreams and your plans as though nothing is going to happen. just rest assured that your life will be happier, healthier, and filled with wonder as new abilities and new knowledge become available. it is certainly not something to dread, it is "something wonderful is about to happen!" there will be peace... love... prosperity for all... understanding beyond all that has gone before. nothing will be lost, except fear, anxiety, hatred, and the like.

[MpNelQTU]

thank you chris and jpstephens, your thoughts are really helpful and reassuring. i think that i need to understand that the only changes that are going to occur in 2012 are wonderful ones and that our lives will be filled with joy after this time. i am still a little bit confused about how much is actually going to change after 2012 though, but i suppose no one can really give a definite answer. i ask myself, will the world exist in the same geographical sense as it does now, with the same land masses, climates etc. i love to travel and that is another thing i have been thinking about- i've been thinking about seeing as much of the world as possible as it is now before the changes as i'm uncertain about whether the places i want to visit will remain after 2012. my fears about this are probably irrational but all the advice is much appreciated.

[orgagsUpsepsy]

liam -

you may be young in this life, but you are a very wise "old" soul my friend.

as others have said, don't worry about 2012. i know that may sound counter-intuitive, but what will happen to you, to us, is already in motion. and, its happening now! don't wait for changes to happen in 2012 - realize the power of oneness right here, right now, and i assure you, miracles beyond your wildest imagination will happen. rest assured, you have already made the choice - there is no test, nothing to fear or be anxious about. you have awakened. 'nuff said.

i posted a thread in the 2012 section titled "the true miracles are now", which some people enjoyed enough to reply to. maybe you'd like it, maybe not.

as for only "5 years"... i'd say its quality, not quantity. time, as you know, is illusory. one person can achieve alot in a very short time, while another may not be able to, given all the time in the world. its all up to an individual's drive and perspective. i too am enjoying my current individualization, however, i also am looking forward to the possibilities of the future. with that said, i try to experience the future now - i have become closer with family and friends - its not my life and theirs, it our lives together - 1.

belonging to this group here has really changed my life - there is power in numbers and i truly enjoy "communing" with like-minded people - sharing and learning as we approach the shift together.

this quote expanded my perspective on things:

the purpose of an entity in [third] density is to:

* experience all things desired,
* to then analyze,
* accept, and
* understand these experiences,
* distilling the love and wisdom found within them.

nothing is to be overcome. that which is not needed falls away. so, keep on having a great time and enjoy being you right here, right now. if we focus on the negative qualities of this world, then yes, it is understandable that people are looking so forward to change. however, there is awesome beauty all around us, if we can see through the fog.

art

[MpNelQTU]

great post art, i agree with everything you said there. maybe that's why i'm enjoying my life at the moment- mainly thanks to this website and the discussions i've been involved in i've realised that i can create the reality i want right here and now. if i was seeing the negativity in the world and dreading waking up each day i'm sure i would be simply waiting for 2012.

[bitymnmictada]

cheers liam! i am 30 years old and i can tell you with my extra 10 years that the chips really do fall right into place the way they should, even when they seem like they are not. form a nice plan for yourself like chris hamilton said and then forget about that and enjoy the moment. part of what 2012 is about is people learning that all there really is is this moment right now. worrying about the future or what you have or don't have is not going to do you any good. there is no past and no future just the moment, so take a deep breathe and look around you and see the perfection in where and why you are right where you are right now.

as for girls, you are very young my friend. i am 30 now and i am getting way more girls now than i ever got when i was 20 so don't worry about that at all.

take it easy, buddy. cheers!