[MackBranon]

why can't i be like david. or like any one of these other people with amazing powers, abilities or visions or obe's. why can't i be contacted by some alien civilization for some great purpose, to unravel some great mystery to the world or.. yea the list goes on and on.

often times i do find myself with these twinges of jealousy and envy of others and their gifts. thats not to mean that i'm here to whine about that, in fact quite the opposite i wish to give a little comfort to those whom may feel the same at times, just a little envious and jealous.

it is too entirely easy to wander through the net, look at all these people with amazing stories to tell, amazing experiences and situations. what is not readily evident is that you may yet still have your own story to tell when the time is right. people like dw and others have already been around the block a few times so to speak and that is why they are down here giving us a hand. at some point we will have that time and experience too, and granted that we have the desire to help as they did, we will be back on some 3rd density world struggling just as they are and having the same great stories to tell.

some times i feel like a very old and wise soul, other times i feel like a fool looking in the mirror for advice. while i may not have great stories to tell, it may also be that it's not my fate at this time. the quiet unappealing path may have it's own set of goals and experiences and though they seem so small compared to the paths of others, in truth they are just as important. we all strive to be bigger and better, to improve ourselves and make headway on our spiritual path. if our pathway is service to others, we strive to do that in service, to help others along the way even as others are helping you. we know that we do not do these things in vain, and that our being helpful is not lost on the universe, they are not 'dirty rags' as some might say.

so while we may not get the message in the night, or the great revealing dream, or even the distant whisper of a voice telling us some great revelation, we know that everything counts. everything counts so make it count the best you can. in accepting your path, be it big or small in appearance, you can trust that everything is working out just fine.

i hope this helps some one.
in love, be creative.

[loikrso]

very well said!

i agree... we all contribute to the whole of the sonship.

everyone is playing their part in the reunification of the sonship and the healing of the mind that thinks it is separate from that which it perceives as 'outside' of itself.

we are all one!

all gifts are shared and all of us have played both the victim and the victimizer, the giver and the taker, the lover and the hater, and the gifted and the sleeper.

everything is and has been unfolding according to plan. there are no accidents. we can only delay our perception of truth. we can never change it.

when we think "why can't i be special too?" or "why can't i have xyz" or "how come i don't have xyz" what we are really saying is that we're not happy with what we have or who we are.

but in truth, we have exactly what we have asked for and we are exactly who we're supposed to be.

remember the song "don't worry... be happy"?

i believe that one of the reasons that song became so popular was that it spoke a universal truth. it resonated with many people who saw the truth reflected in that song.

it does not matter what we think or believe... all of us are headed towards the inevitable, unchangeable reunion of self and the healing of the separated mind.

all is one...

we need only awakening to this.

best to all!

larry

[hoarrimilsora]

to take a concept and crystallize it this well is a gift. i expect that you may be directly answering another blogger's astral cry for help. so well done.

[MackBranon]

it can be so easy to get discouraged, to doubt yourself because you're not on the same levels as some of the others. i see that a lot in myself at times, but i also have a tendency to fight against anything that brings me down too far.

i also seem to have a need to encourage people when i can. i don't always have the answers but i try to trust that even the effort is worth while.

there are a great many inspiring things on this website and others. it's easy to get lost in it all and feel a sense of awe and then a sense of loss at not having been a part of it. as i tell my friends, it's easier to move in happiness than in depression. in one state, you see obstacles as opportunities.. in the other, you see them as impassible.

[usacomm]

i too, and probably us all, have doubted ourselves and felt some low self-esteem. i'd say only the unfortunate go throught life never questioning. even mother theresa questioned god and herself. through questioning comes knowledge and understanding.

when i began to hate myself i began to question and search for solutions. i found that at our source point of light we are all the same and we have chosen our lives.

another point: i bet your life is more interesting then you think it is. you account for only a very small part of the world's population that have this "mystical" knowledge of the way the universe works, which makes you a very special person.

another point: since you are thinking this your life is probably about to change to suit your new ambitions.

i am right there with you man. i know how you feel and am just sharing my thought processes on my own struggle. take care.

[TeLMgNva]

hey man, i feel the same way sometimes! but whats important is to get out of that situation and try to feel good.. because perfection can come out of chaos, if i may put it that way so, in order to feel good you have to examine what makes you feel bad.. you have to jump into the lake of unknown in order to get out of it and hopefully with more wisdom


so, stay sharp and focused, the fact that you had "the balls" to ask the questions you asked is simplly amazing, you dont se alot of people doing that, and thats something i admire!

myself, im in same situations often to, but i try to understand that there is a higher purpose, and that everyone can benefit to a great and positive future..

you myfriend are a good person the fact that you are here on this forum and opening up pritty much proves that

so, as i said, stay sharp and focused, and perfection can allways come out of chaos..

cheers mate

[7kitthuptarill]

dear ewhaz: i have discovered that unless one is quite evolved and exceptionally disciplined spiritually, the obvious manifestations of supernatural abilities can be very distracting. earlier in this discussion forum, a similar discussion arose where i recall mentioning that often one may begin to manifest certain abilities or experiences such as obes and remember them, then later you no longer experience consciousness awareness of such? these early manifestations often serve to validate that one is on an important multidimensional journey, but they often disappear for a while so as not to distract the seeker in the process of acquiring a deeper understanding of spirituality. for example, i have wondered at times if david blaine or chris angel have spiritually active lives beyond their mastery of supernatural abilities?

larry made some very important points worth remembering. you are exactly where you are to be and no less "special" than anyone else. as you focus on emerging more consciously into "oneness," whatever you need to manifest as skills, abilities, awareness will take place. just being you, as the highest, best version of who you desire to be, is a blessed and wonderful contribution that you are able to make to the all. i rejoice with you in this journey of ongoing discovery in which we are all engaged and can only wish you absolute joy and love on your way.

in the light!
jo anne

[Peretool]

a fortune cookie i had said, "if you can't succeed with talent, triumph with effort."

[MackBranon]

just the other night i was sitting at work thinking about this a little bit. one thing that i think about is sometimes how disappointed i am in my progress. i wonder about the opportunities i've missed, the discipline i've failed to manifest and the progress i've failed to show. i thought about it for a long while and came to the conclusion that i judge myself when i do that. i see what i've failed to do and focus on that rather than the good i have managed.

i realized that i need to be patient with myself because these things will take time. in the infinite scope of things we can be given as long as we need. i knew i needed to forgive myself for my perceived failures and move on. all is as it should be and i'm perfect just the way i am. i have my own issues to deal with in my own time and when the harvest is ripe i will grow into my own great stories, and those stories will part of the one at some point. i have not lost anything, but gained understanding of myself and my path and for that i am happy.

to be love, one must learn to love himself so he can love others.
blessed be.

[orgagsUpsepsy]

ewhaz,

way to go man! as each of us awaken, our thought-streams tend to go a bit wild, as we are constantly learning, connecting, remembering.

i would offer this though...

your stories are already a part of the one.

...

we all have alot of work to do in the times ahead, but the fact that you are here indicates to me that you are awakened, and all things will come in time. again, if i may, speaking from expeirence, your ego is still playing tricks and power trips on you - this is still something i struggle with, but have come to accept and "channel" into positive energy.

i was very glad to see you write:

all is as it should be and i'm perfect just the way i am and

i have not lost anything, but gained understanding of myself and my path and for that i am happy.

to be love, one must learn to love himself so he can love others. thanks for your expression, your sharing these timeless truths.

art

[MackBranon]

goodness, this became an 'encourage ewhaz' thread, well its all very much appreciated. hopefully people will read these words and feel them resonate with themselves and offer them encouragement to prod on in the face of uncertainty.

i won't say that i haven't had any 'mystical' experiences, but most of them seem so esoteric and tongue in cheek that they seem hardly worth mentioning. one was, well back in the day when i experimented with mind altering plants and fungi, i felt this overwhelming sense of absolute love. not just squishy i love you sort, but agape, or godly love. it gave me a sense of peace and surety that no matter what everything was fine, just as it was and would continue to be fine. it was a very joy filled experience that i still remember vividly.

the other was a bit more recently. i was mediating on a very heavy subject, one that was life altering to say the least. the issue had to deal with deciding between two equally pressing paths. there were heavy moral and social implications with each path and it weighed on me very heavily for a while. one day i meditated, and out of no where i get this sense of love and forgiveness that it brought tears to my eyes.

it was as if i had already been forgiven, accepted and loved though i hadn't had a chance to make any decision yet or even asked for forgiveness. at the time this went against everything i knew and understood about forgiveness, which had to be asked for to receive. now i understand that better, that there is no real right or wrong, only actions and consequences. so.. while i may not have fantastic (seemingly) stories to tell like people like david and other channelers, healers, teachers etc, i do have my own story.

[BipiewExifese]

perhaps i'm missing something, here, or maybe i don't recall if on the old board msgs would appear immediately or not... but my posts are not up.

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[Drysnyaty]

it was as if i had already been forgiven, accepted and loved though i hadn't had a chance to make any decision yet or even asked for forgiveness. at the time this went against everything i knew and understood about forgiveness, which had to be asked for to receive. now i understand that better, that there is no real right or wrong, only actions and consequences. so.. while i may not have fantastic (seemingly) stories to tell like people like david and other channelers, healers, teachers etc, i do have my own story.

ewhaz, it has been very moving, warm and down to earth to share your stories of becoming. thank you for sharing with us so openly and candidly your inner life and amazing adventures! it took me a while in my life to accept and understand the power of forgiveness.

i can really relate to your journey, having at one time wrestled with feelings of spiritual inadequacy and fear of not having found the straight and narrow road, afraid that past or current choices precluded me from real spiritual insight. the lack of any perceivable psychic abilities seemed to reinforce and give evidence to this when i was younger.

this rocky road to awakening has been full of trials and tribulations, pain and joy, disillusionment and illumination, and mostly learning of acceptance, love and forgiveness, and the privilege of mutually sharing and caring with others like you on this forum is something very special and uplifting. bless you all in this very special community of love.

-mark

p.s. i have deeply appreciated this thread, and the beautiful insight it has shared.