[Jadykeery]

throughout my own experiences, i've been constantly reminded from within myself that "to forgive" means that i haven't fully arrived yet. only when appreciation and gratitude, combined with celebration for all parts and roles played in a moment, has the fullness of the gift arrived for me.

i was born in '64, and grew up on a farm with a large family. my family watched for ufos all the time--one watches the skies quite a bit when you have crops dependent upon the weather. my dad was gone a great deal trying to better the farmer's plight by by-passing the red tape of a shadow gov't. at nineteen, he'd taken off on a road trip around the usa and was struck by all the hunger in our own country, and it became his mission to try to fix that. so i had a regular diet of illuminati/world bank stories throughout my life. dad constantly reminded us to question everything in the news and in the media--expand out of the box.

as a young adult i chose to delve into it deeper to gain a clearer understanding of it and to do my part. i checked into meetings called freeman education seminars where a plethora of patriotic and alternative material was shared. but i realized that sometimes those who were "fighting the system" were just as frightening (out of their fear) as those they were fighting against. because of that, i chose to not be a part of an organization and to seek my own answers from within.

at the time i was terrified of the shadow activities and my own consciousness and experiences reflected that. i kept being reminded of jesus's statement to "love your enemies," and i knew that didn't mean pasting a plastic smile on my face and telling them i loved them. i sensed i had to have a clarity that dispersed all my fears surrounding them in order to actually do that.

i began to look for the gift to me in all my moments--especially the darkest ones--and, danged, if there wasn't always one or two there for me! initially, i may not have seen it in that particular moment, but i knew that it would eventually arrive--and it always did.

my point--without the dark, we would not experience our light and all the dimensions of love. this is the gifted experience of polarity and relativity evolving to unity. we're all playing roles for one another, as i see it--i've played some dark ones myself--and the best way to diffuse the most evil aspects is to see how they've personally helped me remember who i truly am and what i'm about. darkness is so that light might shine and be noticed.

i've discovered there truly are no enemies to fight...

much love to our beloved united states of america (a tremendous accomplishment) and our world and galactic neighbors...

happy 4th!

with love and appreciation,
penny l

[Drysnyaty]

nice post, penny! kudos to your father for seeing outside the box and backing that up with action!

i've had occasion in my life recently to help a loved one with the issue of self forgiveness, and it has occurred to me that there is more to forgiveness than a mere acceptance of an issue. catalyst can be a hard pill to swallow, but every experience, however unpleasant, is stage-managed, if you will, from backstage, for the purpose of growth and evolution.

i cringe inwardly at the remembrance of my own stupid faux pas', but i know that they have served to accelerate my growth and are indespensible as such. i have hurt, used and abused and been inconsiderate of others in my life, and this has caused me and them much anguish, but in the examining of what it is within me that allows for this, i have encountered aspects of myself that have needed attention. but for these experiences i would be a lesser evolved person today.

this is where you learn to not only accept these issues, but to appreciate them and be thankful for them and know that they are the building blocks of who you are.

as others trespass against us, you can be thankful that you are chosen to offer a special service to others, as this offers other selves the chance to learn needed life lessons that they may well be unable to learn otherwise. that's how it's supposed to be here in this most difficult density of learning the ways of love.

so my advice to all is to forgive yourself of everything, and i mean everything! you not only have the right to do so but an obligation to yourself.
yes, you can! yes you should. this unconditional love of the self is a necessary prerequisite to unconditional love of others, and of all as one. there is no sin, and no judgement other than what you impose upon yourself. so judge yourself to be free of your own transgressions, and you shall be.

-mark

[Zhgrlpil]

thank you both...this was a beautiful read. i was born in 53 making me old enough to be your mother penny...which i mention only because i feel a sense of parental joy to hear you speak of your dad teaching you to think for yourself.

i've found that the spirit of forgiveness is a way to step into a time warp. once i've well and truly forgiven someone, like when i thought my dad was a gutless wonder, i discovered that there had never been anything to forgive. i was filled with an exquisite understanding of where he was coming from and how much he loved me. it was as if the former state of unforgiveness had never been, like the past had been erased.

i could feel his heart and soul leap for joy without knowing why....despite the fact that he lives on the other side of the country...maybe because of. i experienced several release and rejoining spirit dances with my dad before he changed form. after he changed form, particularly right after, i found myself overjoyed with the new freedom dad had to communicate with ( his beliefs had stood in the way) and devasted that he was physically gone before we could communicate in such a way. the paradox of spirit being on a 3d ride...

the only person who knows how to love you well and truly is you...so give er!

[Jadykeery]

it's been a joy to read both of your replies and posts! you've been reflecting back to me my own highest thoughts and celebrations of being here now. it may appear pretty choatic "out there"--which i experience within myself sometimes, too, but i have such a sense of finally getting into consciously being aware (awake) that i'm both excited and honored to be here for this amazing transformation/metamorphosis on/with our beloved earth.

the key seems to be to keep it simple...love all of oneself first and the rest will follow.

with much appreciation,
penny