[BopeDolaNeone]

okay....

so for almost a year now ive been experiencing some weird things. i believe that i am being contacted by my star family, and last night i was sort of told to do this... so here i am.

they contact me through my perceptions. i mean, i will be listening to the radio, and they assist my thought processes. its really just synchronistic events. but theres a feeling behind them, a feeling letting me know thats its more than just my own thoughts. there is more to my mind... more to my life. and theres almost a calling. every once in awhile, they attempt to take me with them... i suppose on a trip to home.. or to meet them. ive been too afraid, and i always back out at the last minute... they always give me a chance to, and they always respect my decisions. but im tired of backing out. id really like to hear anyones advice if you have it to offer.

many blessings,

floyd

hi floyd.
i think you answered your own question in the last part where you said that they always respected your free will by letting you back out if you wish. if they had malicious intentions, they would take you like a rat and do what they like with you at their own cost.
you may want to ask yourself what it is your afraid of.
does that fear come from your gut? or from your head?
what's the worst thing that could happen?i would suggest that you continually remind yourself of your divine nature and that you control how you feel about where you are... even when you don't control "where" you are. fear is something you choose to experience, not something that is forced upon you. as a good friend once told me, you can only be pressured, not stressed by anyone or anything outside of yourself. you convert that pressure to stress within yourself.
if you do indulge them, please give them my regards.

i wish you much peace.
will

[mussmicky]

hi floyd,
my star family has, on occasion, given me a direct verbal message (telepathically, of course), but i get most of their messages by "clues." a clue can be a snippit of a song i hear in my head, a brief picture of something will flash in my inner eye, a tickle on my nose (i call these "tweeks"), or in my dreams. my eyes got opened to their presence when i started getting tarot readings from a person who was claire voyant and claire audient. she could hear and see light bodies. we would literally sit around and she would be relaying, word for word, their messages to me. there are many stories i could tell, some very funny, about my relationship to my star family. i am very comforted to know they are there for me and love me unconditionally. my advice is to be open, and well, you know the saying, when the student is ready, the teacher will come.
healing love,
bev

[blogforlovxr]

when i was a child, i think i was like 6-8 years old, i slept on a bunk bed right next to the window and so i would often look up at the stars before drifting off to sleep

one night a particular star got brighter and like blinked at me and i remember feeling like i wanted to go home...i then started to hear this really high buzzing sound in my head and i got these leg cramps which i often got at night because i was a pretty active child always running around the neighborhood playing games with all the kids that lived on my block

when i got leg cramps i usually went to my parents room and my father would rub them and so i was about to do that but when i opened the door there were 2 light beings i would say about 7 feet tall that were standing in front of me and greeted me on the other side of the door...i distinctly remember one of them being female and glowing purple and the other one being male and glowing blue

they then proceeded to take me into my room and i don't recall them speaking to me (perhaps telepathically they did) but i just knew they were family and very positive beings and i remember balling my eyes out when they left

i haven't seen them since, sometimes i try to connect with them in my dreams but i don't ever recall doing so but i do know they are watching over me and the synchronicities i get daily must be how they contact me now for there is also a little bit of fear in me about meeting them again...i don't really know why because they were such radiant beings

peace,
mikey

[sasaderesada]

hey, steven, and group-

good point. as david has, in his usual david way, pointed out in his latest blog, our "english" language has a few "glitches." "wanderer" is merely a label, and if i catch your drift on this, strokes different folks, well, differently. perhaps the "david" will chime in here, as i don't have the time to do the research, as far as whether the concept"?" of wanderer is or has ever appeared/been included/addressed/ as such in any other language medium, anywhere/anyplace else through-out our often re-written/up-dated/censored/ and manipulated version of what we have left available to us, which we all refer to simply as our "history."

at this rather critical stage of what some are embracing as "end game times," it would be vary difficult for us all now to suddenly begin trying to communicate among ourselves in "atlantean," or "sanskrit;" therefore i fear we're stuck with english, thanks to some intentially forgotten plan, a few centurys ago, concocted for the purpose of limiting us common folks in our ability to comunicate/express/grow well, and such. isn't it fascinating, as spock would say, that english is being force-fed upon the entire planet now, as "the" way to communicate? i propose, and indeed subscribe to the mandate that we must always "question everything," and if that labels me as a conspiracy theorist, so well then...

is a wonderer then also an et? i don't bloody know, or even care to waste any brain time on this to try and figure out for myself, but i'm sure there are inquiring minds that need to know, so i say, "let 'em have at it."

bob

[Jadldqys]

hey all -

i've been a member for about a week now. i've come across alot of websites with chances to post, etc., but really never did; read the main info - move on. but, for some reason, i felt drawn to join this forum to finally "voice". we all come from different backgrounds, however, here we feel safe enough to come together and share own experiences, feelings, knowledge.

i just got finished reading from start to finish. what a fascinating "eruption" of emotion. kudos to all who posted - you write well! i had to resist the temptation to reply to each and every one of you - your stories affected me deeply and helped to reinforce, again, that my path to "purity" is for real.

which, comes my contribution to this "series of posts" -


for those out there who are "on the path".

i can honestly say that the most important "concept" one can develop is "pure intention". using "pure intent" in your endeavors will take you there...

no more doubting. you become more open-minded. "information" begins to "resonate" and learning becomes rapid. you start connecting the dots and revelations are made! you successfully experience. (this is where i believe i'm at )

you begin to serve, in the true sense of the word. eventually you will "let go of fear". (this is where i'm trying to get -gonna be interesting on "the other side" )

[i don't know what comes next!]


"pure intent" allows you to focus. nuff said.


good luck - take care :d

[LSDDSL]

i would like to follow up in this section with a question for those who are willing to answer:

if you feel you are a wanderer, do you have any concept of what you feel is a more natural state for you?

personally, i've come to some realization that my more natural state is that of a "light being" -- sans solid physical body. . . .seeing images of myself in photographs has always seemed so weird; not because i don't like the way i look but simply because "looking" at all in this context seems alien to me. it also is in harmony with the way i visualize things -- concepts and ideas to me are transparent as if i'm only seeing the energy or archetype and motion of their form. perhaps this also is in agreement with my dislike of "rituals" even so much as the ritual of upkeep on the physical body; having to do more than think and feel things is very alien to me.

thanks, eyes4096 -- i dig it! your words help me feel into the weirdness of being here at a slightly different angle, namely: how being in the world feels at the level of subjective perception and cognition, and their subtle, inherent strangeness.

i relate to what you're saying here in my own way. i often get absorbed in the timeless, and find that attending to the little things feels like more trouble than it's really worth. but here is also exactly where the rubber meets the road: for i find the friction of coming up against the limits of daily life to be deeply valuable when i confront my resistance to wanting to deal with them. it's sort of like, "ahh....now i get to taste this aspect of life in the material plane......delicious!!!" (note: "this aspect" usually relates to some otherwise pretty godforsaken experience i would never choose to have if i could consciously avoid it, like, say, recovering from lousy elements of my childhood...or working a day job...or feeling almost totally isolated in my felt sense of unity among most of my closest friends and family (fortunately, not all!)...you-name-it.)

still, getting by while experiencing one's identity itself to not quite fit this 3-d vehicle we are housed in really gets at some of the more nagging qualities of disorientation i experience regularly. thank you for pointing that out more clearly. please elaborate further on this theme if you are moved to.

chris

[MegaJIT]

i would like to follow up in this section with a question for those who are willing to answer:

if you feel you are a wanderer, do you have any concept of what you feel is a more natural state for you?
.

i dont share that particular experience. what i do share is a feeling that im much more than my physical body, that this body is heavy and limiting. it doesnt help that ive always been kinda sickly.

i would say that the strongest "symptom" of being a wanderer that i can talk about is just simply my disinterest in the world as people understand it. particularly when traveling that will come out most strongly. all my friends will get so excited about going to this or that place and gah-gahing at whatever building and im just not impressed.

a beautiful natural sight can still bring out the wonder in me but for the most part the works of man just dont affect me much. its like im bored with the world, like ive seen much greater sights and i know that they are so close and yet unreachable at this time.

i know how that can sound arrogant but im sharing how i feel inside and im quite shameless about it. i look at people around me and i cant help percieving them as children that are still fascinated by colorful toys. these are things that i work on everyday. it was my choice to come here and i need to take advantage of my stay, not separate myself from by brothers and sisters. that is part of the reason i love this forum and this site. getting a dose of you all helps me deal with the rest of my day.

javier

[LSDDSL]

this is a slightly different tangent, but still enough on-topic to add, i hope.

lately i've been reading scott mandelker's books about being "from elsewhere," and how this sort of identity can affect one's experience of being in the world. as i sink into scott's writing (which is very clear and intelligent), i find myself relaxing into this possibility being true of me. i find myself remembering an early experience as a pre-teen in which i was contacted in a dream by a glowing ball of light. it gracefully flew in front of me and silently "asked" if i wanted to become one with it. after a split-second, i said, "yes," and merged into the light, to dissolve in a feeling of simple well-being and love.

so simple was this experience, and so early on in my life, that only now, 30 years later, nearing the eve of earth's ascension, do i recall that dream visit with clarity and appreciation. in particular, i appreciate the detail in which i am asked first if i want to merge with the glowing presence.

mandelker discusses in universal vision how wanderers may be uniquely called to such direct "close encounters" due to the fact that for a wanderer, such a visit does not entail a violation of free will as it otherwise would to a specifically earth-incarnated human being.

regarding the anxiety about being contacted directly that you have so bravely expressed, floyd, it occurs to me how my own lifelong quest to remember my starborn identity has been hampered along the way by a huge need to feel like i belong here, despite my obvious "weirdness" as a wanderer. i have spent my life trying to not stand out in this regard, sensing at some level that it's important i blend in with my surroundings imperceptibly, and to crank down mightily against admitting this possibility even to myself!

i wonder if part of your anxiety might have to do with some similar part of you in kind maybe not wanting to blow its cover before its time?

the side-tangent i want to bring to this discussion is how i have noticed since reading mandelker's books that a part of me has been trying my whole life to belong to the world in a way that has intrinsically failed. now i think i may have discovered why! it's because i belong elsewhere, and i know it. this recognition frees me substantially from enacting this longing in relation to the people i know here -- people who by and large are either not able to welcome me as i am (a wanderer), or not ready to. further, i am freed to stand in the world as i am while knowing i do not belong here in the way i think i'm supposed to. this consideration seems to open up huge possibilities for self-acceptance that i now see i had given up on long ago.

the existential challenge of being a wanderer in this world and in this particular time and place is very real. i had to drop out of graduate school over a year ago and literally spend the last 18 months wandering in the world, not knowing my place here, before i was ever ready to consider the real significance of being a wanderer myself as we approach the possibility of planetary lift-off.

anything we can do to encourage ourselves and each other to open up to our full cosmic identity in ways that ground us that much more in our experience of being in the world is of immense value. for my own understanding is that our identity is itself the opening to the light and love of being that we came here to help anchor and conduct into the planet. the more we can rest in the truth of who we feel ourselves to be, wanderers or otherwise, the more available we may feel to rest openly in the increasing influx of light and love without inner-conflict.

thanks for writing from a place of real vulnerability, floyd.

chris

[Rellshare]

wow...i had quite a synchronicity last night...i was doing some spring cleaning and came across a transcript from llresearch that i had printed out which is one of my favorites

http://www.llresearch.org/transcript.../1990_0513.htm

in this transcript it briefly mentioned how we are never alone and it occurred to me that i have never written a poem on this concept of never being alone so i started to write one which is not finished yet but then i went over to cdbaby.com and checked out the latest releases in the new age healing section and came across this cd

[note from moderator: this cd is for sale, so you may email mikey privately if you are interested.]

i listened to track #2 called "it's all about love" which only lets you listen to 2 minutes of the song and guess what the last words were "you will never be alone"...i recommend listening to it, it speaks the same message that the confederation speaks only in song

after listening to all the samples i headed over to frank fileccia's website and clicked on frank's book link which led me to this

[again from moderator: if you are interested in mr. fileccia's music, you may email mikey privately.]

and what do you know...a picture of blue and purple light beings...i cried again

peace,
mikey

[PNCarl]

something to possibly remember as a wanderer is that we are here because we have mastered to some degree this 3d reality and chose to return. at least this is the way it has been presented to me. one of the regrets is that we forget who we are and where we come from and must fight our way through this earth bound emotional rollercoaster. i believe the reason we volunteered for this is to be a guide and influence to those who have not. so as much as we want to return to where we are from [or maybe more precisely, when we are from] the idea seems to be to live in the now and project love, kindness and servitude to all. as hard as this may be it is precisely the objective and will facilitate a swift return to each of our points in creation.

i love all of you for the courage you are showing and thank you for the inspiration, michael

[daasayse]

i had a very powerful and weird experience with ra on may 8 2004. a month before i was at near-death.com reading about the edgar cacey work when i came across an article about david wilcock, i was very excited, i went to his ascension2000.com website and started reading about ra, i felt a strong sense of knowing that i "belonged". later that month i visited l/lresearch.com and read many of the channeling work and got even more excited by the minute. at the end of april 2004 i ordered david wilcock's the reincarnation of edgar cacey? and had a bit of trouble with paypal but david was kind enough to have someone call me and ask for my payment information.

on may 8, 2004 i was meditating (this was like my 3rd try at meditation, because i was afraid of it since they did not teach this in the religion that i grew up with) and i was in a wake/sleep state (with some enya music on), i was kind of conscious, i said out of nothing "i wanna feelthe power of ra" and this incredible power came into me and i started to elevate in spirals (it felt like millions of volts of power going thru my body), then i came down and i said "god i wanna feel it again", and it happened again, then i came down and i felt as if i wanted to get out of my body again, but i couldn't, then i wanted to move but i couldn't move anything, i was looking around in my room and then a friend of mine knocked on my door, and i made this huge movement and then i could stand up and move, i was in shock for a couple of minutes, it felt so real, all i know is that i was conscious but like in another kind of way, i kept on looking at the clock while the experience happened and when i was able to move the time was the same.

my friend told me that she felt something in my room, and felt as if she had interrupted something. while i was still in shock i went down stairs, i was looking like a zombie , i went straight to the mail and guess what?? david's book was there!(talk about synchronicity!) i immediately emailed david to thank him and i told him about the experience, (i don't know if you remember it david since it was a while ago )he then emailed me back congratulating me for making contact with ra.

after searching for information i understood that i had had an out-of body experience! a couple of days later i started practicing automatic writing, my
guides would write with the right hand and ra would write with the left hand, it was an amazing experience, i was with my friend frances and she saw how all my veins popped out while my hand moved and drew symbols, specially the infinite symbol. i try to go back to that meditative state to see if i can contact them, other than automatic writing, but i get so nervous.. . i have to deal with the fear just like floyd! will, thanks for the advise, i felt it too...

since that experience and many things that have happened throughout my life (24 yrs! )i can say that i am a wanderer...

[Aozozbag]

i had automatic writing happen one time early in the process... but other than that did not use it. the cayce readings warned that it is highly susceptible to negative influence.

if you do bring through your own channeled data, in whatever form, it is important to remember that you have to be your own skeptic. if the source starts telling you all these specific things you should do, it's very likely the product of conscious-mind overlay and / or negative influence.

on the other hand, if it starts philosophizing about finding peace, balancing yourself and moving into love, then you know it's positive.

the most important 'protocol' for intuitive data gathering is to never do it unless you are in a state of 'uplifting gratitude' at the time. if you understand the data as it's coming in, and track it with your mind, that also is going to get bad results.

i must compliment all of you on the thoughtful and high-quality nature of your posts. these are not easy things to talk about, but by moderating this forum you can open up without having one or two very busy skeptics who try to humiliate, degrade and basically mentally rape you. it takes work to keep them out of here, but we do it. and the results are worth it!

- david

[daasayse]

david,

i completely agree with you about been very careful with the automatic writing. my experience so far has been mostly positive, most of the time they wrote the word love or really beautiful sentences about serving others, but the best are the symbols, many of them of sacred geometry. i did, though, had contact with a negative entity who "faked" been one of my guides, it did not feel right in my hand and the message was different from the usual, so i stopped. in conclusion...if it doesn't feel right or if it doesn't resonate with you...stop it. you'll be better off without it.

after reading the blogs on synchronicity that david wrote, i have had so many happen, i think more than ever before, so now i'm remembering what i was thinking prior to it and it has been very positive! i find myself smiling and laughing more!:d
thank you david!

[8Zgkdeee]

i certainly know that feeling of fear and uncertainty when trying to meditate and/or call out to my "homies". i've felt for years that the earth is not my original home and when looking at the stars i feel incredibly homesick. however, when i've tried to meditate, i've failed repeatedly. i can't relax properly. i get scared of what might happen. i don't know how to overcome this. i know there are times when i enter an "altered state" when i'm doing mundane chores like washing dishes, or vacuuming when i sort of space out and lose time, though. about the only thing i can do is read about otherselves having these experiences. i've watched the movie "close encounters of the thrid kind" so many times and wish i could have an experience like they did.

one thought i had when i was reading the latest news david posted about ufos being seen so much more these days....it just goes to show how close we are getting to 4th density, because ra said that 4th density chose to be invisible to 3rd density. if we can see them, that must mean people are becoming 4th density beings and can see them more often. jax

[LSDDSL]

these are not easy things to talk about, but by moderating this forum you can open up without having one or two very busy skeptics who try to humiliate, degrade and basically mentally rape you. it takes work to keep them out of here, but we do it. and the results are worth it!

i know i've been posting here with caution, wondering if and when the skeptics will start chiming in. knowing that there is an overall intention to keep this space safe for vulnerable sharing of apparently indefensible truths allows me to approach this space openly and directly.

as i've been following this and other threads, i've been wondering to myself, "what happens when you create a space for wanderers to welcome each other as they (and we) are?" i've never found such a space before. some ideas that come to mind are that when you create safe space for wanderer's to meet up in, you create a possibility for a co-creative field to emerge that itself may become a transformational vortex in the world at the level of conscious energy.

that's quite a possibility, actually. and i suspect that it's one that would be targeted quite strongly by skeptics and others who have no interest in permitting such a gateway to intelligent infinity from being openly established online.

wanderer's are all-too-used to going it alone and protecting ourselves from derision at just being here. what happens when we have a chance to drop our defensive modes of self-protection, and acitvely welcome each other as we are right out in the open?

i guess we may be finding that out right now. i personally think it's a big deal.

chris

[GogaMegaPis]

thank you all floyd, mikey, audrey, bev, michael, jax, angelgaia, and chris, david for posting on this topic.

even though i am a "regular" earthling (at least as far as i know it) i would like to thank you for opening my eyes to this entire subject. now that you have prepped me, perhaps i will be able to recognize a wanderer and their predicament/situation when i see it and be able to assist them.

as i child, i was fascinated by talk of ufos. i even went so far as to order the dr. allen j. hynek reports on ufos and read them (i still have them). i was also fascinated with the moon and mars and had maps of them on my walls for "decoration". i still haven't lost my interest in these things.

i also wanted to bring something to your attention too. even us earthlings feel alone in this crazy world. feeling separate, feeling lonely, and coming to terms with it seems to be something we all need to deal with in a 3d existence no matter who we are. it's why so many elderly die from a broken heart with no one to help them or talk to them. it's why aids babies need so much attention in hospitals because people are afraid to hold them, yet they need this nurturing to survive and to socialize properly.

i can tell you from experience that once you have faced your darkest hour with just yourself (and sometimes that darkest hour seems like an eternity), you no longer have the same fear you once did. if you act as the observer for a moment, and then allow yourself to feel the intense emotion (versus avoiding it), and acknowledge it as part of you, then any pain you associate with it will be released that much sooner.

i think that even ra might have said somewhere that we need to come to terms with all of ourselves (meaning our many entities within self - the happy self, the angry self, the kind self, the destructo self versus just the self we display to the world). imagine too that ra as a collective has had to do this on an even grander level by coming to terms with the many 'separate' selves/entities besides the mini-selves of each of the entities it is comprised of.

think austin powers and mini me :d

perhaps we will appreciate each other more when we are in 4d together

love,

charran

[LSDDSL]

hey charran, right on....

i want to amend my previous post on this thread by giving a big shout out to all beings grooving here on divine cosmos. :d

far as i can tell, the mutual welcoming zone that we have a chance to co-create excludes nobody, and includes all.

and yeah, this world is not exactly user-friendly, no matter who you are. maybe the gift we have to offer each other, regardless of our cosmic i.d., is solid confirmation of just how hard it can be to be here.....while affirming at the same time the richness of 3-d catalyst for honing our ongoing development.

what a gift we have in being able to wander in here together online and say hello, just in the nick of time here at the butt-end of the kali yuga.....

to you and anyone else taking a peek here, man, welcome! due to the quality of open space david and the gang are providing us with, seems to me like we have a chance to really lay down some heartfelt warmth and not scrimp on sharing our deepest inspirations for who we are and where this is all headed.....while continuing to sip the broth of this very moment in all its home-cooked wonder and down-home richness.

[MegaJIT]

hey all

i went to catholic schools when i was growing up and i had to do quite a bit of "going it alone." i came to believe in reincarnation the very moment i heard of the concept. it made so much more sense than the "one and done" theory. after that it has been nothing but a long tough road.

i was so young and yet i craved knowledge and understanding. more importantly i wanted to know the truth whatever that might be. i was not interested in cultural traditions or what people want or are "willing to believe." truth is not constrained by our habits or where we were born or any other such thing. truth is what it is. events are not strange or wacky or normal. events are. one has to be very conscious of the lens we see the world thru and such adjectives just make those lenses cause more distortion. in such a process then it is very important to be fully conscious of one's prejudices. we must know ourselves or we get nowhere.

as you can imagine such a philosopy made me a stranger even to my own family. particularly in the last 10 years(im 30) after i moved away from my best friend it has been tremendously hard to find someone, anyone that i can truly talk to openly of my ideas and beliefs. finding this website was truly like finding a home away from home. its such a relief to see others discuss these matters without any prodding from me.

as carla defines it we are all wanderers. whether we came from another planet or are native to this one we have all awakened from the slumber and are no longer fully at home in this vibration. we cannot be. this world is for those that do not yet have enough desire and determination to break thru the illusion. we live here on earth and yet we might as well be living in an entirely different planet. our perspective is so different. i salute you all!

javier

[LSDDSL]

whether we came from another planet or are native to this one we have all awakened from the slumber and are no longer fully at home in this vibration. we cannot be. this world is for those that do not yet have enough desire and determination to break thru the illusion. we live here on earth and yet we might as well be living in an entirely different planet. our perspective is so different.

you know, i find that this quality of recognition at the categorical nature of really being an ontological misfit really helps my mental health.... i really appreciate now why scott mandelker went through the trouble to get a doctorate in psychology: and how as a result, he can validate in contemporary psychological language exactly this quality of felt displacement about being in the world.

this to me is an example of right use of the mind: in holding before me this concept of being "from elsewhere", i allow it to resonate against my felt sense of truth. having done so for nearly 20 years now, nothing else i've compared my own existential feelings of displacement with even come close to resonating as strongly as what you're saying here, javier. nada. it's just too damn obvious now how true this is for me, especially given my own dream-encounters with e.t.'s.

but, i've got to say: if i hadn't come across, first, the ra material, and second, david's, and then scott's, translation of ra's message in regards to the real life-consequences of showing up here as a wanderer, i'd probably still be wandering asleep before the root cause of my own cosmic isolation.

i can't appreciate enough in this case how a mental concept really can unlock one's deeper, precognitive being in a way that meditation by itself does not quite touch. no amount of infinite bliss has given me this quality of self-understanding and existential freedom. i consider this an essential matter of self-discernment that goes a long way to my being able to drop decades' worth of unnecessary anxiety associated with wondering who i really am.

i know i don't belong here, and i'm not crazy.

you just don't find that message in the self-help section of barnes & noble these days.


peace.

chris

[Abedgebeefs]

i would like to follow up in this section with a question for those who are willing to answer:

if you feel you are a wanderer, do you have any concept of what you feel is a more natural state for you?

personally, i've come to some realization that my more natural state is that of a "light being" -- sans solid physical body. which may explain why my mother and i have both had encounters with what we can only describe as "shadow beings" which seem drawn to us.

seeing images of myself in photographs has always seemed so weird; not because i don't like the way i look but simply because "looking" at all in this context seems alien to me. it also is in harmony with the way i visualize things -- concepts and ideas to me are transparent as if i'm only seeing the energy or archetype and motion of their form. perhaps this also is in agreement with my dislike of "rituals" even so much as the ritual of upkeep on the physical body; having to do more than think and feel things is very alien to me.