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hello everyone
im writing this in hopes i may get some useful feedback
in the last few years, roughly 2000 on, i have had strange experiences concerning linear time. as a visual artist i spend much time contemplating how i might turn epiphanies into works of art for public consumption. oddly, it seems as soon as i work out how to present something, as soon as an idea truly crystallizes within me, i lose the desire to actually create the piece and i move on to another idea which almost always immediately pops up. now this in it self may not seem strange [although its very hard for me to make a living with only crystallized ideas.] what is strange, is that almost every time, some one else seems to do it for me. what i mean is that i can walk into a bookstore and find a book that had just been published which eloquently describes exactly what i had deciphered for my self. not only books but paintings, sculpture, music you name it. it seems as though a hard copy of what i was passionately asking for is given to me to corroborate what i have just learned. for example: for a few weeks i had been chewing on a notion that our lives would seem more proper lived front to back. you know, starting out as a wrinkled old person with a life of experiences,pain and sorrow, etc. and moving "back" in time unadulterizing your self and ending up as a innocent and free infant back in the blissful [hopefully] womb. anyway, as i explained it to her it all came together for me as she laughed and told me i might want to find a hobby. well, the very next day she forwarded me an article sent to her exactly stating what i presented to her the day before only much more concisely than i could have ever done [writing only comes out of me kicking and screaming]. needless to say we shared a big "holy ****" over that one.
now im sure all of you are used to syncronicity by now and im certainly no stranger to it as im trying to live my life within it but these experiences continue to give me an unsettled feeling of living both backward and forward at once. one more thing that may be the weirdest of these events is that i read a book a few years back describing a mans journey through syncronicity and the answer to many of our esoteric enigmas and was left with the overwhelming feeling, which exists to this day, that... i wrote it! this is one of the strangest sensations ive ever had, or have i guess.

well, that's it. anyone else out there experiencing time distortions. or just plain weird feelings?

in lak'esh
michael

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hello,

i can relate to the consistent changes of "creating." i've come to follow the use of what is mentioned by some others, namely "dominate tones."

this is were one has a strong desire to "do" something (ie. create) and the next moment; the desire abates! it sometimes leaves an empty or void feeling within oneself. basically; i've come to continue to "let it be" and wait for the next "dominate tone" to follow.

sometimes; one will return to the original intent or sometimes one will not. i've found that the universe/god/ life/ whatever one wishes to call it, is all perfect as all is perfect and to just "ride" through the moment and let it go!

linear time and all time is what each of us within the collective chooses it to be. i've come to know within myself that time is truly an illusion that we create and its' use is how we determine it to be. i can relate with your words on reversal for i am finding myself doing the same to a certain degree.

what i mean is that i am returning to the core of my being that i have come onto this world with and letting go of the illusions and rituals of daily life. to clarify: i am remembering who i am and why/ what my purpose is here in order to continue on my journey.

trust yourself! your perfect!

namaste,
tim