[Enliseell]

A week and a half ago I had my first expanded conscious awareness experience.

A train of thought had led me to consider a fragmented memory long ago in my past...sometime when I couldn't have been more than two or three years old...at least I think. This memory is incongruous with my others, I cannot figure out who I was with or why I was there. It led me to consider that perhaps there was something emotionally traumatic that happened long ago that has been deeply repressed. I considered that this would be good fodder for hypnotherapy. I then considered that perhaps given what I have read and the current condition of my intent, I could possibly induce regression on my own.

This led me into a mindstate where I was willing to accept any and all revelations regardless of their content. My only concern was learning the truth. I focused on the intent of knowing the truth. I then remembered I had received a Reiki attunement, and decided to ask any listening Reiki guides for assistance. I did this by centering my awareness and broadcasting the intent. I set my intent into absolute acceptance and trust in the Reiki guides, asking (via intent) that I be given aid in experiencing the truth of extra-physical existence.

It was only moments before the focused intent began to have it's effect. From a center, there began a melting, a peeling away...like layers of webs slowly being pulled from awareness, and in the space left a sort of fresh sensation, as if one had walked from a thick smoke into cool clean air. I had the impression of a bubble expanding from a flat 2 dimensional surface, and within this bubble I was cradled. At this point I intended that the expansion be halted, to become used to this sensation. I remember a subtle sense of my upper etheric body slowly lifting from the physical shell...I felt one arm brush against my nightstand. After resting a moment in the bubble, I thanked the guides for the experience (they remained silent the entire time) and requested that I be moved back into my body. I felt the webbing sensations again, and as I pushed them away and came back to my body I found that I was pushing off my blanket which was completely covering me (I have no memory of pulling them up that far.)

I was exuberant, and broadcasted my sincere thanks and love to the guides for helping me experience this. For a long while after this though I could tell that my awareness was still not completely centered in physical reality. It wasn't really until I went to sleep and woke up the next morning that I felt fully grounded.

I have not thus far been able to repeat this experience, but I'm content to work at developing my consciousness further to the point where such exits are easier and can be accomplished on my own. It served as the validating experience I had desired, and while ego and fear have already begun playing their games with the memory of the experience, I know what I experienced is enough to fuel my determination to continue expanding my awareness and increasing the clarity and quality of my consciousness.

I had and have been meditating much more regularly than ever before. As difficult as it is, I usually use my bus trips to and from work as meditation time, in addition to whatever I can get from my schedule at home.

This experience, in combination with a restful and thought-provoking vacation, has left me a changed man. I look forward to continual growth and learning.

[VemyhemiHef]

Congratulations, Ouroboros.

[diegogo]

This led me into a mindstate where I was willing to accept any and all revelations regardless of their content. My only concern was learning the truth.

That's very brave.

From a center, there began a melting, a peeling away...like layers of webs slowly being pulled from awareness

Some would describe that as Maya's Veils.

I had the impression of a bubble expanding from a flat 2 dimensional surface, and within this bubble I was cradled.

I've seen and experienced that, too. In my understanding, it was my "reality bubble" (everyone has their own). Possibly different symbol in your experience, of course.

As difficult as it is, I usually use my bus trips to and from work as meditation time, in addition to whatever I can get from my schedule at home.

Good on you. Learn to meditate in difficult circumstances and you'll be able to meditate anywhere.

This experience, in combination with a restful and thought-provoking vacation, has left me a changed man. I look forward to continual growth and learning.

*mmmuwwahh* Hug and a kiss from your eccentric aunty-in-spirit. I'm very happy for you (and I knew it was just a matter of time ).

[ZenDers]

Hello, Ouroboros.

Most excellent progress.

It reminds me of some of the experiences I had with I call "Inner Dissolving" - but only the rare, strong ones! The feeling of renewed freedom is what this tradition calls "space." The space to feel better, more alive, more free.

You certainly awoke your inner senses here. That's probably why you shifted at least to the etheric body here. That's not being ungrounded, necessarily - it's just unusual for you to experience this state of enhancement. You just have to get used to having some additional senses available, and that's certainly an experience to integrate. You just are not used to it, that's all.

Be well,
Oliver

[Enliseell]

Congratulations, Ouroboros.

Thanks!

*mmmuwwahh* Hug and a kiss from your eccentric aunty-in-spirit. I'm very happy for you (and I knew it was just a matter of time ).

Aww, thanks!

You certainly awoke your inner senses here. That's probably why you shifted at least to the etheric body here. That's not being ungrounded, necessarily - it's just unusual for you to experience this state of enhancement. You just have to get used to having some additional senses available, and that's certainly an experience to integrate. You just are not used to it, that's all.

That makes sense. I'm looking forward to experiencing it again, although I have an intuition that it may be awhile. Which is fine, slow and steady makes solid progress.

[enactolaelant]

in the womb, but you saw it for what it is (vacuum), and in some you saw it as what it seems to be.

the 2D part is interesting though, because it reveals that at some point you've been shown the 'blueprint' as it is, that at first sight would seem as nonsense and foolishness, but on further re-view it would eventually reveal the ever present event where potential meets potentiality, or darkness meets light.

is why the truth is indicated to be as foolishness, because the human would have it spelled out in hard data/facts; while it may only be revealed within from a hearted mind abled to by sight feel to see it through from plan to finish, and then turn the key.

it is the ancient story of the goddess mother/angel of the presense...reaching out with the 'torahoz' in her gifting hand. it to be taken into the world of dreams (duality) for bi-interpretation.

interpretively this is the handoff of our being, the dually gifted dna with which we are generationally human.

the 'word' from within to the without, proof and reproof, confirmation through formation of every affirmation of insight from within first.

in human terms, this would be you, or any you, whose dna touchs myriad lives, an unimaginable number going back in a chain of links.

in spiritual terms, this would be all that is us present in that one breath caught up in Adam's nostrils upon receiving the original conscious breath of life, the whole of past-present-future in what is human et all. alpha and omega, or aleph and tua, or 'atu' as Thoth coined it seeing it so to be.

well, to say, that when you breathed in your first breath, all before you that have led to you are/were re-vived and re-prized in that receiving of the conscious breath of life.

but, i lost the topic and have meandered into much foolishness...

tim

[Enliseell]

And what fun foolishness it is to foolishly meander off topic.

The best views are usually off the beaten path anyways. And even if not...it's still good exercise.

[LfYaRf1S]

Very cool experience; congrats man. And many moooore...

[jessyhalm]

Hey, nice experience.

[f6HLLFcw]

Although it's already been said- Very cool! Thanks for sharing. I've been meditating more and sending the intent to OBE before bed each night. I can almost feel a falling sensation for a second or two. I can't wait to hear your progress should you share it with us.

[yovbQVpD]

Which is fine, slow and steady makes solid progress.

Very wise. I saw a guy earlier today who could have used that advice a few years ago. He was in the bathroom, right above the sink staring at me.

[ZenDers]

Sometimes you crack me up.

Oliver

[BrainTop]

congrats Ouroboros!
validation at last, brilliant.

[Enliseell]

Thanks everyone! You can be sure I'll be sharing further experiences as they come.

The ante has been upped, though. Certain revelations concerning that experience (I'll share those later, when the time is right) have created psychological barriers that now must be overcome.

I choose not to be discouraged, but rather view it as a learning opportunity. The more difficulties I overcome now, the easier the path will be later on. I would have it no other way.

(as an aside, it's amazing when you realize all your life you've been bitching about something that's exactly the way you would have wanted it...heh)

[diegogo]

Certain revelations concerning that experience (I'll share those later, when the time is right) have created psychological barriers that now must be overcome.

Don't count on it having "created" them. It probably just gave a current form and awareness to stuff that was already there in your subconscious.

For what it's worth, this is a very common pattern. Breakthrough, realisation (often with awe, amazement, and bliss accompanying), then the dawning of awareness of related baggage to sort through.

I know the pattern very well. Don't worry. It's workable, and it's do-able, though it can be super frustrating at times and sometimes discouraging. Don't give in to the illusion that you're "never going to get there" or similar thoughts. There is no "there" to get to, and the rabbit hole is, indeed, bottomless.

I choose not to be discouraged, but rather view it as a learning opportunity.

Good, because that's what it is. I knew you were a clever boy.

The more difficulties I overcome now, the easier the path will be later on.

Uhm. Actually...

Stuff gets easier, but it's progressive. Like, when you're in grade one, doing basic addition and subtraction is hard. You have to think a lot, and count on your fingers or draw little sticks and cross them out or whatever. Then you go on to learn multiplication and division, which is hard at the time. By the time you're in high school, the basic math is so easy you can do it in your head on automatic or with just a couple scratches on the back of an envelope, but now you're doing trigonometry or algebra, which is way more difficult than the addition and subtraction, and you still have to work hard to learn it and carry it out. Then you might go on to university, take some even more advanced mathematics courses, the work gets even harder, and the stuff you did in high school seems pretty easy, let alone the stuff you did in grade five or grade one...

I don't know if you ever get to "graduate", to be honest.

But the good news is that you end up with a lot of interesting abilities and skills you wouldn't have had if you hadn't started learning in the first place. And it is worth it.

[enactolaelant]

Thanks everyone! You can be sure I'll be sharing further experiences as they come.

The ante has been upped, though. Certain revelations concerning that experience (I'll share those later, when the time is right) have created psychological barriers that now must be overcome.

I choose not to be discouraged, but rather view it as a learning opportunity. The more difficulties I overcome now, the easier the path will be later on. I would have it no other way.

(as an aside, it's amazing when you realize all your life you've been bitching about something that's exactly the way you would have wanted it...heh)

timeliness, right on time, when you're ready it arrives...etc. just be careful, full o fcare, not to over think/evaluate, letting it be, as it is. it is only you.

shifting to center, as life would follow an arrival within. these things take time, but faithfully all balances. it isnt as if you've got to bring it is to balance with exertions, for the exertions have delivered you in an arrival.

new realizations seem to arrive, yet you see they were there all along, that you did not care to see it so. it is all normal, because you not being centered could not see it from this arrival, having not arrived yet.

being care full is being in it, actualized, while letting it be, as it is. some things may go, some things may reveal themselves like never before, some things will be new. but new does not mean brand spankin new, it just means new perceptively.

be as the childlike pov where everything is newness, even things that go open to newness. innocense is key, moving as would a child non-exertively, yet always moving none the less as if the day will never end.

being aware, do not fault yourself for not having been aware. this would defeat for a time, the purpose of being aware. so, dont go figuring, just reap the quality from the quantity without fear of letting go. what is your's is clearly your's, what isnt your's will clearly go away from what is aware to it. you dont have to provoke anything to happen. centering is axial and what is axial attracts and deflects as it will. just be in that modality...free to be as you are; for better and for worse, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer...till death do us part. parting is such sweet sorrow, yet to be shed of 'not your's' may seem bitter revival on the outs but it is sweet reprizal within, of the true you.

be understanding of what you could not have known. for what one could not have known had been fore-given, and what one understands is forgiven. human nature aligning itself.

ok....be well

tim

[Enliseell]

Don't count on it having "created" them. It probably just gave a current form and awareness to stuff that was already there in your subconscious.

Good point. I think you're probably right.

Stuff gets easier, but it's progressive. Like, when you're in grade one, doing basic addition and subtraction is hard. You have to think a lot, and count on your fingers or draw little sticks and cross them out or whatever. Then you go on to learn multiplication and division, which is hard at the time. By the time you're in high school, the basic math is so easy you can do it in your head on automatic or with just a couple scratches on the back of an envelope, but now you're doing trigonometry or algebra, which is way more difficult than the addition and subtraction, and you still have to work hard to learn it and carry it out. Then you might go on to university, take some even more advanced mathematics courses, the work gets even harder, and the stuff you did in high school seems pretty easy, let alone the stuff you did in grade five or grade one...

Yeah, you do have a point there. I think it gets easier to work hard the more hard work you have under your belt, though.