[c2siOlIk]

I had a conscious OBE this morning in which, for the first time, I actually left my backyard. The entire thing was very patchy, for lack of a better word. I felt half blind the entire time. It was almost as though I kept transferring my awareness back to my body, then back to my obe, and back and forth. It was very difficult for me to get out of my house, as it always is, but once I did I felt like I was supposed to be on some kind of mission but I had no idea what. I live on a hill in a city. In my obe, my house was still on the hill, but instead of a city there was green/yellow countryside. There were random houses and very small (about 10 houses) towns spread out everywhere. I went into the closest house to find a couple guys and a kid that were a bit surprised to see someone in their house, but they were not angry or upset. I left and started bounding north along the only dirt road. I passed a church where about thirty people were exiting. They either didn't notice/see me bounding several feel into the air or didn't care. I occasionally found colts and fillies with groups of people along the road. I love and grew up with horses, so I was excited to see them, but none were too happy to see me. This may be due to the ADD-ish behavior I was displaying. This entire time I was still experiencing what felt like blacking out and I was constantly urged to do something, although I didn't understand what. Finally, I came to a small group of people with a palomino filly. The woman said that she (the horse) was for me and that they had waited for me to "get out a few times" before giving her to me. It seemed like that was in reference to OBEs at the time. I started blacking out more and became very disoriented, which seemed to bother the filly. When she came next to me, I wrapped my arms around her and put my face next to hers. It literally felt like she was a piece of my soul or something that had been missing. The love and joy I felt was overwhelming. I asked the woman if the filly was ok to ride, and she said she should be. I asked where I should put her and the woman said to put her in my house. I started blacking out a lot more, so I jumped on and held on while we rode back as fast as she could go. I ignored the blacking out because I was so happy just to have the horse with me. I felt like she was "back" with me, as though we had been separate for a long time and we knew each other from somewhere. When we got back to where I expected my house to be, I was so disoriented that I couldn't get a good look at the house. The grass was almost gone and it was brown and barren everywhere I looked. We got into the house, but I was almost entirely blind at that point and wasn't entirely sure I was in the right house. I got off her, reassured her and let her know how happy I was to have her and how much I loved her, and attempted to jump into my body, although I had no idea where it was. I jumped and stopped a few inches off a wood floor. I completely blacked out and woke up.

Im not really sure what any of it meant, but is there anyway to find out if I got into the right house or to find the filly again? Is there any way to get back to that experience again? Or am I completely misunderstanding what is/isn't possible or what the point of OBEs are? I'm so confused!

Thanks for any help, I keep getting more and more confused every time I have an OBE.

[Allorneadesee]

Here is what I see from your experience: When you got out of your house you transitioned to the Astral (you started out in your house in the Etheric/RTZ) and then your astral body took over. You were disoriented but your subconscious knew what you were supposed to do, even if your conscious mind doesn't. The filly is either a guide or totemic animal that you were given- brings to mind shamanic experiences. She might even be a symbol of your astral body- since this may have been your first conscious Astral Projection, it was 'new' to your conscious mind, but not to your subconscious mind, so you processed it in such a way that is familiar- The filly is a part of you that guides you, has the instinctual knowledge on where to go and what to do, which is why you're supposed to ride her- she is you guide.
I can't tell you if you'll go there again, but I'm pretty sure that you will see her again, because she has now become part of your conscious life, even if you felt muddled and confused. She may or may not look like a filly again, but if you need her to be, she will, I'm almost sure.

[ImapFidaarram]

nice experience.

[c2siOlIk]

CFtraveler, Thank you so much, that is exactly what I need. I am trying to read up on everything so I can understand but I'm not going fast enough to get much of anything yet.

One other thing I realized this morning, is it possible that split perception between my body and the astral experience could explain the "blackouts"? Everything I saw was crystal clear and the projection itself was almost forced by me on another level (maybe subconscious mind?). I did my relaxation and routine with the intent to try to remain in the vibrations (if I reached them at all) only and not purposely "leave" my body at all. I did that for a while, but as I started to drift off (or loose focus, really), I just felt like I half went with astral body and half stayed in my bed. Once I was taking part in the astral part and wanted to be there, I couldn't manage to bring all my awareness into the obe.

I usually cant remember anything so maybe by staying with the vibrations for so long I forced myself into paying attention even if it was barely at all. Wasn't what I was aiming for, but I'll pretty much take anything I can remember at this point!

Thanks so much for your help. That would have taken me months to figure out by myself!

[Allorneadesee]

is it possible that split perception between my body and the astral experience could explain the "blackouts"? Yes, especially if you had simultaneous awareness of both bodies. Isn't that a pain? I don't like when it happens, but it points at what I need to work on next.

[c2siOlIk]

Yeah, it is a huge pain! Makes me empathize with people with multiple personality disorder. What exactly do you mean it points you at what you have to work on next?


...and thanks neil templar