[Jerwittdergut]

Sorry for the cheesy title. It seems this is happening to me with increasing frequency. It is not a pleasant experience, very creepy. First a female stopped by to tell me she was a suicide, the energy in the room was very negative, unbearable. I told her I was sorry if she could please leave b/c she was scaring me. The next day, only hours later, I got a text that one of the girls in my dance troupe had committed suicide. I felt very guilty then. I told her to leave because I didn't know who it was.

A few weeks later, my boyfriend from highschool who died in a car wreck came by. It was a very tense exchange because we did not end on good terms and I have always felt partly responsible for his death. He told me he is the one who moves my fan. I had noticed my fan moving by itself when it was not on, but chalked it up to "just one of those things." You'd think I'd know better by now, really. He told me that he keeps up with my activities, and also told me of something he thinks will be happening for me shortly in the future. I've never had a ghost tell me my future before.

I am not getting this information "John Edward" style. No. It is as if these people are plugging directly into my head. It's like my brain is a speaker, and they have plugged their cd into the side of my head and are playing it directly to my brain. I feel hijacked. All while this is going on I notice a side-effect I always get. I see a pair of eyes inside my head whenever I am talking to a dead person. A pair of large black eyes floating in a dark background. It's there whenever I close my eyes. Open, and they're gone. Close, there they are again. I'm not sure what's going on with that, if they are my own astral eyes or the eyes of the person.

I have got information in a reading about the dead before but was never able to tell if I was really communicating with them or if it was just a psychic reading. But with this new direct style I do not question at all. However, it is a very startling, un-nerving, experience.

I expect it will continue, however.

[Dyerryjex]

Looks like you're developing into a necroscope. I think that's what they're called.

[Jerwittdergut]

Necroscope? How goth. I have been surrounded by lot of death, particularly this year. Speaking of which, the guy who murdered my father was just convicted. He was found guilty on all three charges. Maybe that was the trigger?

[Dyerryjex]

I guess the question should be, how do you feel about the conviction? Does it resolve things for you, or does it leave things unfinished? (Sorry about the 'armchair psychologist' bit- I find that a lot can be gleaned from how unfinished business triggers things)

[Jerwittdergut]

No, not the conviction, but all the deaths. Yes, I suppose I do have some unfinished business with people on the other side which may be a trigger. A few days after posting this I heard Sandra Brown say she lost nine people out of her life all in a row.

As for the conviction, this guy had already killed a man before and got life. He served 12 years, then got out and killed my father. This will probably earn him his second life sentence. Another 12-15 years after which he will get out and kill for a third time. I have no doubt. He will be in his early fifties by then, still with some kick left in him, not even yet a senior citizen. But even if he were eighty I am sure he would kill again. There is something wrong with this mans head. These were complete strangers he killed. As the situation stands I don't belive he can help himself. His brain chemistry is off. He is, a serial killer.