[CatLuvkaLover]

First off, I am a scatter brained person so I will try my best to keep this in line. I thought astral projection was kinda cooky. I am a 32 year old that watches sports, plays poker, has a kid, watches ESPN. Average meat head. At the same time, I have always been somewhat intelligent (138IQ) and a bit of a vivid dreamer. Smart enough to realize that I do not know everything. So that is me...Average Joe

The word Dejavue is a not accurate because everything is scrambled, but I have always seen pieces of my future or those close to me in dreams. Just small pieces. I can remember dreams going back to 4 years old as a matter of fact. Emotional "real" dreams sometimes.

I had a really bad day yesterday. I have had a really bad 5 years! My brother died 3 months after I had a baby, in a boating accident. The night they found his body I had a dream of being under water and coming up to a sky, at that moment my dad called me and told me that they found him. This is the first time I have ever mentioned this to anyone about that dream. Then my new wife and I started having problems as I started to have more issues coping with his loss. I was dreaming about him very vividly and really didn't want to get up alot of those days. My dad wasn't great and my brother was always more of a dad, brother, and best friend. I got divorced and then lost my 7 year job to the economy. Back to the day I had.....

I am an exceptional poker player with a 65% win ratio on all 4 sites I play combined. I know the math of the game forward and backward but sometimes I just know that I am suppossed to be in a hand and I almost always win these hands. Anyways, all day yesterday that "ability" elluded or even "tricked" me. I felt alot of negative energy around me and my house and I felt ill today. I quit playing and started to ponder something I have thought for a long time. Not long after my brother's death I lost some faith and just started living to exist. I am to embarrassed to say it but I feel like during that since time something very bad has been around or in me. I dunno.

Anyways, tonight I decided to get rid of it. I started researching how and I came across astral projection during this search. After performing the ritual and prayer for this "thing", I researched curses (just in case the old mother-in-law had something for me I didn't know about as I think she is Wiccan and not a nice one, seriously) and I did what I was suppossed to for that. I decided to try to astral project. I was kind of scared because today was the very first that I have ever read about it and I read that there are bad entitys. My idea was that it was just me and my own body and mind at first , but I didn't realize until I read further that other things exist etc... So I was scared and hoping to just try it with little hope that it actually would work. Well it didn't at first. I couldn't concentrate, light, noises in the house. I went to my room and I prayed for protection, and then I tried again. I am really skeptical about telling my personal life but I need help with it.
Time was 1:53am. (I keep weird hours as I am a poker player now) I looked at the clock and thought, man I hope nothing weird goes down its almost 3:00am. I believe in good and evil and I have reason to. The thought about 3 was a passing one and almost a joke to myself at the time. The help that I need is interpreting my experience as I will describe below.

I layed down and as I prepared by focusing I could hear stirring in my room a little so I plugged my ears. I did not lift out of my body knowingly, I did not have any control. I was simply at my neighbors house and petting his baby kitten all the sudden. Then I saw him and laughed about something with him that I can't remember as he opened his back door I saw his big cat who brushed my leg as he went outside, then a small brown cat with an almost human looking face strolled right behind him and grinned at me with a not so comforting look and disappeared into the back yard. I had a bad feeling about that cat and I walked towards the front door of his house and then I was not at that house anymore. I was in a bed next to a blonde girl I could see myself with and we were talking as if we were in a relationship. We started moving around the house we were in that I didn't recognise. She seemed to be telling me about somewhere she went but it didn't seem right. I could tell there was something between us that was wrong but she was acting as if nothing was wrong. I went into the closet in that room to put clothes on and the door behind me shrank. Then I found a bag with 3 new shirts for my brother's youngest kid in there. I had a moment where I thought this is a silly dream, why do I have Cameron's shirts in my closet that isn't mine and I kinda thought oh, I am dreaming. I got scared that the door would close and I moved towards it but then I was not at the house anymore at all. I was in a solid wooden very beautiful room where I could hear a basketball bouncing. It was a huge room with a brand new white van (this was weird as I have never owned a van, drove one, or anything) in the center. At the other end of the room there was a hallway that was so long you couldn't see the end of it. But I didnt go to the hallway, I went to see what was making all the noise with that basketball. It was my brother! He was naked and I laughed about it and so did he. He threw the ball to me back and forth, this is something we did as kids for hours everyday. Basketball, football, anything with a ball! Anyways, at this point, I kinda knew something wasn't right because I have dreamed about him for years since he has died, I have done things in my dreams with him like fishing, talking, and once even dreamed he was alive and that he fooled us all and I was very mad at him for that when I woke up and realized he was still dead. I asked him while we were thowing this basketball if this was real and he said yes. I said so you live here and I can visit you and he said no, but he was here now. He threw the ball to me and I dropped it under a piece of plastic on the ground. We both went for the ball and he got it first and moved 30 feet from me in no time, but as he was moving away, I was still reaching for the ball and I made a new ball come out of nowhere and threw it in front of him. He stopped and looked at me with a serious look. I of course was shocked that I manifested a ball out of thin air so this was awkward. For some reason I asked him about the blonde girl out of the blue, I said is she telling me the truth and he wouldn't answer me. He quit talking to me and it made me angry a little. I opened the hood of that van for some reason and reached around in there but I didn't get anything out. I turned and I looked down the hallway that was at the other end of the room and I started walking towards it thinking about that room where the girl and I were at before. I could see people in the hallway that were working and walking and one group of two that were talking and walking towards me. Out of nowhere I lifted just a few inches off the ground and took off like a rocket down the hallway with that room and the girl and finishing the conversation in mind. It was so fast that everything was a beige blur and I went right through the two people walking and they didn't notice me but as I went through them they acted as if real people would with something flying at them! At that point I became conscience on my bed and I was spitting out of my mouth. SPitting from the air passing through my face and mouth and very short of breath! Spitting for real! I looked at my clock and it was 3:00am.

What I experienced was very real, and very scary because I am not sure that I don't have evil around or in me still or ever did at all but I feel like that something will do anything to make my life miserable and I am scared to put myself in a state that it can do so, especially something like this that I know nothing about! I am, however, very excited on expanding my capabilities of improving my life and wellbeing using this method. I need some guidance on what happened to me, what it could mean, how I can control myself during the experiences and what to do about evil presences in my life that could affect me. The final thing to tell you is that when I came to my computer my intent was to find someone who seemed credible to ask for help, as I sat down and the screen came on, I had a message from 2:24am from my neighbor! The message was meaningless but that time couldn't be more than a few minutes off of when I was at his house during my experience or whatever. I need some answers! Any help will be more than appreciated because I feel like a freak now.

[Dyerryjex]

I'm not sure why you feel like a freak?
I would say that you started projecting and the projection turned into a dream.
I'm still not sure exactly what you're scared of.
Have you read Robert's Treatise on Astral Projection?

[Immarsecice]

First, one of the best things you can do is avoid empowering whatever it is you think is causing your misfortune. The more convinced you are that something is out to get you or acting upon you and causing you to have a hard time, the more power it has over you. Reject its existence and ignore it.

As a poker player and sports fan, you probably know that confidence is one of the main components (besides skill) of winning at pretty much anything that involves an opponent. Just like in those disciplines, if you show a lack of confidence and control to that "bad entity" -- whether it actually is a bad entity or a self-created phenomenon that you haven't identified as such yet -- you may very well lose to it.

I've had plenty of experiences with "bad entities," but they all turned out to be constructs born from my fears and insecurities. Solving the challenges they presented to me allowed me to rid myself of a lot of emotional trauma, depression, some irrational fears... Basically all these little things in your mind that pile up over a lifetime and prevent you from living your life to the fullest. Maybe you'll be lucky like I was and use the situation to your advantage -- this thing is showing itself to you, giving you an opportunity to defeat it.

What does the experience mean? There are millions of interpretations that could be done... What I find very interesting is that you pretty much found yourself trapped in a giant wooden box with your brother, which seems very relevant in light of everything you've said. Isn't it interesting that you basically lost interest and started tinkering with the van? Or that you flew out of there to go see that woman? How do you feel about that?

One of the lesser known properties of dreams is that they are a powerful psychological tool that helps heal your mind of preoccupations that are holding you back. This could be the first in a streak of experiences that will help you get rid of the things that are weighing on you so that you may steer out of a low point in your life.