[Xodvbooj]

Okay, so, I noticed that I had been feeling a LOT better lately, things didn't bother me as much. Sure bad things still happened, but it was like I could bounce back easier. I just seemed to have a more positive outlook. It was a marked enough change that I actually sat down and wrote out a list, trying to figure out what had changed so much in my life that I was feeling different: Was it this? Was it that? I decided it was to do with my confrontation with the fire I posed on here.

Then, LAST NIGHT, I caught them red handed. I felt them in my head stimulating my brain chemistry. It was clear they were focusing on the pleasure center, like the serotonin or something. I resisted at first and kept getting phrases that I knew were being planted in my head: "I should just go with it," "I should not be afraid." but I knew these sentences weren't coming from me.

Finally I let go and got such a shock wave through this center of the brain I was rattled quite out of my body and was laying next to myself. At first I thought there was another person in the bed with me. It was so totally overwhelming that I thought "Torture by orgasm," not that anything sexual was going on, mind you, I was not being stimulated sexually, but the enjoyment centers in my brain were going crazy. I didn't know what else to call it.

The second that phrase crossed my mind they stopped immediately. They were really freaked out I had likened it to some kind of sexual abuse. They backed off. It was then that I became conscious and realized what they were doing:

They, over there, have figured out we have this epidemic of mental health issues and depression for which we are taking drugs. Way too many drugs. They have started working on us.

Everything seems clearer and brighter. I am not totally fixed, far from it, but have given them permission to keep on working on me. I thanked them. And also I hope that maybe sometime I will be able to help others in this area by letting the surgeons work though me, as I have posted on that here before, they have told me that they can work through me to fix others.

[ThekvandoVideo]

i have depression also,.. and obes make me happy cause i get to visit a better world. but as soon as I return to my body I am depresed again.

[Xodvbooj]

They are still at work, this time they cut open my side and inserted the first of four crystals/stones. Sounds odd but I've read where this is common in shamanism: The cutting open and inserting of stones. The other three stones I will get one at a time during major tuning points in my life.

[mGUuZRyA]

i have depression also,.. and obes make me happy cause i get to visit a better world. but as soon as I return to my body I am depresed again.

Do you do anything for your depression? I'm on medications that I'll probably be on the rest of my life, I was just told. Also, I just watched a PBS documentary on the disorder and realized that I have it mild compared to some people who suffer from it. I just didn't realize depression could get any worse than what I had, but after watching that, now I know that it can.

You can see it online, but be warned ... it sent me back into a little depression after watching it!

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/takeonestep/depression/

[Starichok]

I'm glad that someone is working to help that sort of thing. Are you still making improvments? Do you mind discussing who these people are? Its a curious subject.

[Xodvbooj]

I've posted about them before. Here's a link.

viewtopic.php?f=4&t=10657

[Starichok]

Wow thats cool. I have two astral contacts, a wolf who protects me a bit and also woman who has been so very helpful. This sort of thing really is fun. Good luck and I hope good experiences like this continue for you.