[6M8PJigS]

Saturday 26th April, 2008

Woke naturally at 1.25am. Felt this was a bit early but decided to proceed anyway.

Changed beds. Began reading material I’d put on my desktop earlier without a lot of previewing. My eyes were dry and wanted to sleep. The material was some selections from a book available at Amazon. I didn’t consider it all that excellent or unique but the idea was to immerse my thought in OBEs. I skipped over the sections on negative entities, the last thing I wanted to do was to programme my mind to expect such things. Unfortunately, such a mindset was very much engrained in the other parts of the text I read.

This was annoying. I’d been calm and centred all day but now I was mildly apprehensive about the idea of a neg attaching and following me back through the “portal� I use. Even though the book advised on solutions, I’d have rather not considered these issues, especially as this is the room where I’ve encountered the “piggy backer� and the “tickling entity� in the past (not that either was particularly threatening or caused any further issues.)

I become aware that I’m close. I begin to float upward but I’m too impatient. I feel myself rushing things and using words to command myself up. My physical body tenses slightly in the effort to propel myself. Despite this, I do detach. I’m caught at the head though. I know instinctively that it won’t take much to release myself so I concentrate on rolling my head side to side and I do release.

Now I begin to think of negative entities. The creature that plagued me as a 5 year-old comes to mind. I struggle with my thoughts, commanding myself to stop before I manifest a thought form. This returns me to my body.

I’m optimistic that I have plenty of time to get out again but the opportunity fails to present. Subsequent dream recall is compromised. The experience reinforces the need for emotional control.

[Dyerryjex]

This reminds me of the projection I had when I went to PR. I detached except for my head, and decided to ask for help, and when I got help, I freaked out at it (it was female hands and it touched my heart chakra area) which made me decide to do something else. What is it with those head/neg associations? Maybe floating attached to the head makes you feel more vulnerable.

[6M8PJigS]

I remember reading that one, CF. The vulnerability thing is probably true. It's not exactly the same as an astral arm floating up there, after all. I think it's also about mindset at the time you attempt the OBE.

In my case, I think what I'd read prior to the experience was the problem as I haven't felt particularly fearful for a time. This isn't to discount the possibility that at a subconscious level I have created some kind of negative association with experimenting in that particular room.

No neg eventuated but neither did the desired adventure. I wonder then if being stuck at the head was more than simply a manifestation of having tried to exit too quickly. Perhaps it was a metaphor in some sense for being limited because of my thought processes. In any case, being caught at the head was very brief and it was once I was completely out that I started worrying that I'd manifest a neg. Maybe I should have let that happen and dealt with it.

It was a good experience in the sense that it allowed further self knowledge. It's clear to me that it's not enough to know you can create your own experiences (both astrally and physically) but you also have to have the self-discipline to be very clear about what you wish to create and free of the influence of other's perceptions of what "reality" should be.

This discussion with you leads to further insight as I ask myself why it is I never ask for help in my AP experiences. All these minor experiences are adding up, leading towards deeper insights.