[Unjucky]

[Edit- skip to bottom post for new information]

I was nowhere near a meditative or astral state, I was wide awake. I was watching my new Roar boxed DVD set with Heath Ledger (it has all the episodes that never aired in the US) when what looked like a black dragon fly started circling me. I was startled. I brushed it off as a shadow or trick of my eyes.

Tonight I wake up in the astral, and there it is again. Only much more clear this time. It looks like a little black helicopter or dragonfly. This time it is in some kind of cloud. I freaked out b/c it was near my head; and woke myself up before I had a chance to examine it more closely.

My circles of protection are up like every night so nothing harmful can pass, and it didn't try to attack me. I suspected though that maybe it was there to spy?

But now I'm not going to just brush it off any longer when I think shadows or my eyes are playing tricks on me. Just because I'm wide awake doesn't mean what I'm seeing isn't real. This might be a side effect of training my astral eyes.

For a while I was seeing cells growing on my walls. Similar looking to the ones I swallowed. I would get rid of them, and then they would come right back and there would be more cells. Again, not harmful but baffling.

Maybe my cells hatched into a dragonfly?

(Very confused.)

[inofindy]

I don't know what to say about the dragonfly, other than to suggest that you experiment with shielding that will make you more or less invisible (bending perception, mirrored, that sort of thing) to anything that wants anything for you other than your highest good. (I have a medicine pouch that was made for me with that specific intent/charm.)

That being said, I frequently have astral awareness (clairsentience, mostly, but also clairaudience on a regular basis and clairvoyance on an infrequent one) when I'm totally awake and doing stuff. I can be anywhere, doing anything, when it happens. Visions and so forth are always stronger when I'm in some sort of altered state, but, yeah, I get the "transmissions" pretty much whenever and wherever. It can be a bit disconcerting... I think I can mostly turn it off, but lately I haven't wanted to and it's been... interesting.

Think of it like having multiple windows open on your computer. You may be focussed on one, but if another is open, you could get information from that one, too, especially if it's something with communication (I always think of it like an open messenging program that pops up when there's some sort of message and is otherwise just quietly running in the background. Yes, I am a geek. )

Oh, I just thought of this, relating back to the dragonfly/helicopter. I have a friend who had someone set up an astral drone of some sort (some kind of thought form) that basically watched her and took note of all the psychic exchanges she had with other people, and then the other people would get mysteriously attacked, psychically. When it happened to me, it was actually astrally and when I was asleep and not lucid. I only knew about it because of the way I felt the next day (basically, like I'd been hit by a truck), which made me try to find out what it was. Point being, yes, I believe there are things that can spy on you or monitor for certain things or otherwise keep an eye on you in ways you don't want.

[Unjucky]

suggest that you experiment with shielding that will make you more or less invisible (bending perception, mirrored, that sort of thing) to anything that wants anything for you other than your highest good. This is a very good idea. Matter of fact just yesterday I said outloud to the universe during ritual meditation in a grove to make me invisible to anything looking to do me harm. But being invisible to anything that doesn't want my good sounds even better.

[Unjucky]

I WAS JUST HELD HOSTAGE IN MY OWN APARTMENT FROM 10 PM TO 1:30 AM.

I think the thing I saw in the astral was symbolic of him. It makes sense. It's a play on his name.

My friends thirteen year old son had got into some trouble with the law, a drug charge, the kind of thing they slap you on the wrist for, but he was scared and thought he was going to jail for a long time so he ran away from home. I managed to get ahold of him on myspace and was trying to convice him to just go home and turn himself in.

Low and behold he turns up on my door step. He took my phone, told me "I'm holding you hostage," and said he wouldn't let me out of his sight in case I ran or called his mom.

It was very touch and go for several minutes I was really scared. He admitted he was coming down off drugs and implied that he might have a weapon on him, 9 mm in his back pocket.

It became very clear, very shortly, that he has a crush on me. Then he made comments that he was "very mature" for a thirteen year old, and began to speak very flatteringly about how cool he thought I was. I told him anything we did would make me a convicted felon, a child-molester, and he started insisting that no one would know besides us two, and he would never tell.

I kind of knew it was going to go that direction - I mean, anytime a male shows up on a woman's doorstep at night to hold her hostage...but I am kind of in shock because I have known him since he was a little boy. Since he was eight or nine years old.

He asked for food and drink so I gave that to him. He had been sleeping on the streets with no food the whole weekend. Then we talked for hours until I convinced him to call home.

His parents weren't answering the phone! But I saw my chance to get away and offered to go knock on their door and wake them up. I swore I wouldn't tell them where he was or that he had held me hostage. He relented.

I dashed like a mad person, barefoot, to their house banged on their door. I told them to answer the phone b/c their son had been trying to call. Moments later it rang. I tried to stall at their place while he argued with his mom b/c I didn't want to come back home while he was still at my apartment.

Then his father offers to drive me back. I said I would walk, but no, he insisted on driving me directly back to the front f-ing door.

"I don't want you out here walking by yourself at night"
"Yeah, somebody could take me hostage."

I thought of telling him the boy was at my house, but didn't want him to get in trouble. I think I had that stockholms syndrome or something when I had identified with my captor.

So I crept up behind him and he was still on the payphone outside, I slipped in my own front door and locked it behind me. Shortly after he got off the phone with his mom and tried the door. He realized it was locked and gave up. I knew if I let him back in he'd just hold me hostage again, perhaps for days.

I got a call from his mom about a half hour later that he had indeed come back home. I hope this boy gets help because he is really messed up.

[bettingonosports]

Wow!

[Unjucky]

Yeah, and I had two job interviews to go to this morning.

Also, he kept trying to get me to take drugs with him. Really pushing. He said he had pills, smoke, or whatever it was. He also wanted to know if I had alcohol in the house because he wanted us to get drunk. I kept telling him no.

I think he believed if he got me messed up enough something would "happen."

[citicroego]

Whoah! I'm just glad you made it out okay and that he is home now.

[inofindy]

If I were in your place, I'd be getting a restraining order. That's too scary.

[Unjucky]

I know what he did was crazy/wrong, and I have to draw boundaries and put my foot down, but I am rationalizing by telling myself no one got hurt. It's really hard, I still have this image of him as a little boy and I want to protect him. I am having to wrestle against the nurturing instinct.

Plus, I have a past life connection to this kid and I knew it the second I clapped eyes on him years ago. Something else is going on in the background here I can't quite figure out.

Here is how I finally got him to calm down and turn himself in: I gave him a reading and told him things would work out okay for him. (This kid trusts me; I read for his mother.) It's a little off topic, but I am reminded how powerful readings are in that they give people the calm and resolve to face their futures without fear.

I mean, I literally negotiated myself out of a hostage situation with a card reading.

[CedssypeEdids]

I think your reading is right. As a juvenile he still has the chance of getting a trial under juvenile law, and his record gets cleared later on - of course this requires him to stop being stupid like now and in the past. So he has the chance to still take the right turn, and I hope he does take this chance you have shown him through the cards.

Take good care,
Oliver

[Unjucky]

Yes I feel like my reading for the boy was correct. I'm going to have to find me a new safety assistant now that he's locked up. This kid helped me in my fire twirling shows.

I was mistaken about the dragonfly.

Tonight I met a woman who owns a club called "The Dragonfly" where my dance troupe will be performing this Saturday. She explained how the dragonfly is her "personal symbol", and how she's having made a pair of dragonfly wings. Then she handed me a club flier with a dragonfly on the front.

In short, she loves her some dragonflies.

She is they mystical type and had every kind of religious necklace around her neck. If anyone could send me one of these things its her. I do like the woman. She gave me a good vibe.

EDIT* I was right about the kid. All he got was 9 mos. probation.