[evennyNiz]

Well I just got back from RB's Nocal workshop... and the first night after the workshop had my first episode of sleep paralysis!

I did an hour and a half of energy work then lay down on my side hoping to induce a WILD.

The next thing I was aware of was of being pulled out of a dream into a half-awake state, and I thought that I was under attack by a negative entity of some kind. I had been working on a blockage under my left ear before bedtime, and now it felt like I had a huge cloud of cotton stuffed against that ear, causing me to be deaf. I felt drowning / suffocated in a way, and very energetically "dense" as I tend to feel during a projection reflex. I wasn't afraid of being paralyzed, but the thought of being prone and open to "Attack" was horrifying to me. And as it's easy to jump to this conclusion during these experiences, I also felt that I was dying. That something was causing me to be deaf and out of breath was inexorably presing down on me, killing me.

There was a sort of wavering between the two states... There was my physical self, feeling this awfulness and "impending sense of doom" and there was the sprinkling of dream memories... skateboarding through a store and boxes were flying off the shelves at me... walking up a set of stairs and having this "bad area" of the wall start to deafen my poor left ear... lying stomach down on the bed, gripping the sheets, and feeling the sheets literally pull me down underneath the bed as if a monster under the bed were pulling me under. Meanwhile I do remember that my awake self felt two or three distinctive energy surges accompanied by a rising of "heat" at the heart center. And I remember grimacing, and struggling to come awake, and being aware that I was grimacing but had zero sensation of my facial muscles doing this (as if they were dead).

The paralysis did not bother me... it was the fear of being helpless under attack that was so disturbing. I was frantically trying to remember what to do... trying to rouse myself so that I could into the shower or something. Every time I tried to relax and fall back asleep, the horrible dense/ deaf/ suffocating feeling would surge up again and I felt like I just couldn't give in to it or I would die.

It took me probably 10 minutes to really come awake and come "to" and put together what had happened.

My honest feeling and instinct, putting together everything I know already about OBE's and sleep paralysis and the like, is that I was NOT under attack of any kind. I was even aware of this possibility while under paralysis, a really courageous seeming thing at the time, that I understood that the dread I was feeling was probably just my astral self and physical self having the ole feedback loop of fear / tug of war. The "dense" feelings and surges / heat spikes says to me that I had a real honest-to-goodness OBE and that was my entry / exit... and the dream memories seem to be small pieces of the OBE, the few shadow memories I could access of the experience. I don't know how to relate the "deaf" feeling to anything other than that the blockage may have been causing some problems with the entry / exit and bothered both my physical and astral body. The fear in the dreams, the "pulling sheets" sensation seems to have been my physical self reeling me back in.

I had to get myself up, turn on some lights, surf the net a bit and eat something to reorient myself back into the world and to really flush out the idea that this was a negative experience. I really want to take it in stride, because I do whole heartedly believe that a sleep paralysis experience is the flip side of the OBE coin and thus countable as an important experience. That and having never experienced it before, I now know what it's like and can recognize it and demystify it for myself.

As this had only happened an hour after I went to bed, I settled back in and did more energy work and went back to sleep.

And it pretty much happened again!

Only this time I was ready for it, and I was much more of an observer of the whole thing.

This time was strange though.. I was lying there listening to myself breathing and I was wheezing and making horrible noises as if I had a bad case of pneumonia. I remember thinking quite clearly "I know that isn't my physical self, because I'm in perfect health... so why does it feel so hard to breathe? Do I have an astral set of lungs?" Then I became aware of a hard metal ring or wire feeling between my teeth, so I reached up between my teeth and removed it.. and it felt like a hard ring. This was incredibly confusing to me as I thought that I was awake... "How can I be feeling this? You can't bring back stuff from the astral!" and I placed (what felt like a small round ring, like a piece of jewelry) onto the nightstand. Of course, there was no ring and no wheezy lungs and I had not moved my physical arm at all. I have no idea what the ring thing was about... and I'd appreciate any feedback on the wheezy lungs phenomenon ??

The rest of the night was spent having all kinds of weird dreams about the workshop and constantly waking up in a cold sweat.

I do feel confident that the next time I have a sleep paralysis episode I'll be better able to recognize it for what it is. And like I said, I'm taking it in stride and have dismissed it as a thing to be afraid of, because the way I look at it... being that it's the flip side of a successful OBE, I feel like I'm in a good way. It just rattled me a bit.

[Alkanyadela]

The wheezy sound may just be your version of the astral noise one sometimes hears on the onset of a projection- sometimes it's a hurricane-sounding whoosh, but I suppose it could be a wheeze. Sometimes I hear my heart chakra rat-a-tatting- maybe the wheeze could be a throat chakra noise.

[evennyNiz]

PATTTTY!!!! Thank you so much for having us. You are a wonderful hostess on half the engines... I fear you at full power. Yes I've read the info at that link before.. I guess it's just the difference between reading about something and actually experiencing it for the first time, when you're not in full command of your senses. (Alas, half the time I'm not awake enough to realize a projection reflex for what it is, and allow it to happen. All good things in time) I think I would have just rather had that first one be at home in my own bed, lol. Haha that disclaimer isn't just a formality! bwahaha. J/k.. thanks for the encouragement...

CF hello, hello, *waves back* the sound was accompanied by feeling as if I were breathing, i.e. a large breath in was accompanied by a feeling as well as the sound of a wheezy rattle. It's not only that I could hear it, I could also feel it. I was wondering if there was any correspondence in the energy body as I don't see much mention of lungs and what they associate with? At any rate I will be doing some energy work with breathing to strengthen that area. I like to think the body lets you know what it needs to work on... hee so i'll keep up the work I spose.