[attanilifardy]

That's right! My first out of body experience!! I sort of kind of screwed up my re-entry deviating from my OBE plan(though sort of not my fault as I didn't see my body, though I'm still sure it would have worked), so the experience didn't include re-entry, but I am still counting it.

Morning started off as any other, did the vibrations meditation at 10-11, then the float tank meditation from 11-11:45(these are 2 brainwave type cd's I've been using latley in addition to the BWG MAP presets), cutting it short because I wanted to get at least a little more sleep if I could due to not really being sure how much I had gotten the night before(and the fact that I was trying to get sleep and not sleep and/or vibrations/OBE that caused this isn't lost on me).

I rolled over to my right side, and my assumptions of my chances weren't doing to well, able to hear the dog barking outisde and my mom talking on the phone(i eventually yelled out at her to be quiet, as I could basically hear every single word she said), but I kept it up and stayed there on my side until as usual out of nowhere the vibrations came, as strong as ever.

I remembered the third eye trigger and moved my eyes up the best I could, the vibes getting even more intense, to a point past any intensity that I ever had before, including some very strange pattern like open eye looking closed eye visions of rings of metal or something(i think) around a zooming tunnel(i think). With this came(my best guess) a sort of flashing in and out of conciousness that almost made me lose my calm mindset and pull out of it it was so intense(and more importantly new and unexpected) but I quickly schwelched any fear and let the intensity continue, until the point where the vibes returned to thier normal level and just sort of evened out and nothing was happening.

Now was the time where I decided to stop laying there and take action, unlike previous attempts where I assumed I could just will myself or imagine it or hope for it(i do remember during the vibes(either before during or after the very intense part) trying to imagine myself floating up at the ceiling like monroe's first OBE, and I do think it worked at least partially, but I couldn't completely transfer my awareness there permanently. I also remember trying to get tugged out by my legs rising again like my last near OBE, and again sort of being able to feel it but not working completely. There were probably alot of other things that happened during those few moments in time that are now lost to me, but I am more glad I was able to remember the proceeding events, even if they aren't crystal clear), and going with the past few near obe's where I was able to move my seemingly physical body to find out it was truely my astral body I decided to go ahead and try it out, the worste thing happening being another fading of the vibes which I may still be able to get back.

I started with my left arm(I still felt myself on my right side at this point, something totally new during the vibrations/obe feelings, though then again there was no loss of conciousness that could have been when I turned over), fairly positive the covers were completely over me/my arm and was able to lift it with no problem at all. I then brought it back down feeling for the covers and feeling them clearly in the spot my arm had come up through, moving from side to side making sure it did in fact cover my entire body(possibly feeling myself on my back now, but unsure)where my arm had come from.

Now I decided to go all for it and turned back over onto my back, worrying that I was in fact moving my physical body as I could somewhat sense the covers over me being moved and the vibrations starting to diminish(though there was that sort of extra "Something else" feeling that made me continue as my feelings/atmosphere was different from waking reality and possible even dreaming/lucid dreaming reality(not totally sure on this one as I can't remember the feelings for sure and haven't been able to remember the exact feelings from my few lucid dreams for sure either).

I began to try and sit up, and thinking back I do think it was at least partially mental at the time, but seemingly at least using my physical. I remember for sure little glimpses of my room breaking through(but in the same "Sensing" not seeing blue "Daredevil vision" like haze) as I assumed I may be opening my eyes(but soon remembering I still had my sleep mask on so even if the eyes i were opening were physical I wouldn't have been able to see), but again still continueing.

After I sat up about half way I was then jolted out, able to fully control myself without having to use the physical but only the mental(i think this is what i account for the sudden shot up, at least halfway to my roof once cleared of my body). Once out there floating I knew I had done it and through past experience could moderatly know how to control what I was doing, but also knew to stay completely calm and emotionless, starting up my obe plan(from the MAP book), aiming myself down and to my right towards the chair I have used, and sort of going back to that half mental half physical control set.

I was able to look down at the chair and feel its arms just as I did during my practices, it feeling exactly as I remember it(to the best I can remmeber now) unsurprisingly, the thing actually surprising me was my perception of my arms(and later that the chair was completely empty of my cd player and robe I keep there, this I didn't notice at that point)which looked exactly like my physical arms(I had always assumed I would see them as white transparent energy).

Not spending too much time on that I quickly turned(to better tell the story at least, I don't believe I felt any turn but simply changed my point of view. I don't remember having 360 view, but I did keep my awareness somewhat centered on what I was doing)to the desk, and glided over to it performing the 2nd part of the obe plan, this time remembering to say in my mind how I was focusing and feeling the desk, and this time noticing that the desk was pretty much completely bare(excluding my keyboard and monitor, and oddly enough my little plastic container I keep my medicine in that I haven't used in quite awhile, but the rest of the desk(including my tv/cable box) was oddly empty even to me in that state), but again I didn't get hung up on it finishing feeling it again to the best I can remember the exact same feeling it is in physical reality, again while seeing my identical looking astral arms as physical arms, then turned back focusing on the bed.

I looked at where I had come from, the covers moved(only in my mind I'm sure)and my body missing(this didn't surprise me as I have read about how the body can be missing when the subconcious mind cannot accept seeing it, at least (hopefully) only during beginning OBE's(and I liked that better then the other possibility of it just being another lucid dream), so because of this(and because of my arms being an exact representation of my physical) i decided to detract from my obe plan and add one quick little step of looking in the mirror.

I went to my mirror first in my room, but for whatever reason now it was too dark and I could barley make out my eyes that seemingly looked a bit dilated. I floated through my door and into the bathroom(oddly enough(or not) having no trouble at all doing this, actually having a bit of trouble remembering it as i took it so casually at this point, even though I still was sort of "fumbling with the controls" so to speak)looking in the big mirror and again seeing my physical body, represented as accuratly as I can remember(though again I do think my eyes were somewhat dialated)right back at me, though definitely didn't feel the same, looking back at myself I did have an eerie sort of odd feeling where I almost lost my awareness of which one was actually me, and felt myself almost slipping into a dream(this is extremly hard to confirm for me as the shadow memories are so similar to dream memories to begin with its hard to know when the feeling of being in a dream started).

I decided to get back in my body while I could, my first thought being to go through the wall i was facing and looking at into my room where I would then be on top of my body, momentarily forgetting the whole mirror into alternite dimention rule I had read in astral dynamics. This is where it gets a little hard to remember as I did start in my mind the thought and desire to do that, but right afterwards remembered the mirror thing, possibly causing me to aim for the mirror and not the wall if I even had a chance at bypassing the mirror in the first place. It was then I am fairly sure I totally lost conciousness and drifted off into a dream.

This dream was to the best I can remember a false awakening where I sat up in my bed(taking time to notice the unmessed sheets, something I forgot to do when actually awaking) and starting to write down keywords(the only one i remmeber is the one I did use for my actual journal as I waited for my comptuer to load up to write this which was OOBE #1!). I'm fairly sure it moved onto into other directions or into an entirely different dream as I stayed asleep for 20-30 minutes(rough guesstimite depending on how much time i spent exiting and out of body, though I doubt it could have been more then 10 minutes), but when wakening my priority was remembering the OBE and not the dream.

So I'd like to hear your thoughts on this...was it an OBE filled with reality fluctuations or was it just another lucid dream?