[ionitiesk]

I found my in the past towards a course i'd gotten separated from a long time before, this past year. In my own twenties, i was playing guitar in steel rings, getting high and ostensibly seeking any type of 'improved' consciousness i might. in this quest, nevertheless, i happened upon an awareness of a new truth that i discovered went further than the means with which i used to see it. lucid thinking and traveling in my own dreams became notably common for me in addition to having instances of intuition and perceiving lively organizations. life, however, got large and therefore did my heart, for whatever reasons, and consumed with the home, i lost sight of the road of 'awareness' that i was fortunate enough to come across in the very first position, and for many, many years, i lived life in kind of a dismal sleep. Twelve months before, while in the middle of feelings of self-pity, rage, and some significant individual problems, some thing clicked, and i started achieving my everyday life having a purposeful intention. i began trying to create peace with my world, to develop some inner-quiet and patience. i battled with 'residing in as soon as ' as an alternative simply current with an apparently constant fear and a sense of being overrun. i started getting time to just breathe, and let things be. i was rapidly becoming aware that something much more amazing and higher was breathing some type of life in to me, and for many months i experienced a feeling of sober quality i'd never before experienced. at serious occasions, i was speechless and in awe of the 'god inside me' that i've buried using the 'home' all my life. Sometimes, it was actually wild and i turned more and more concentrated on my 'mission.' i started articulate thinking again, and really flew once more. and then, a disease got the wind from me. Lacking work (only started a brand new work), mounting expenses and a feeling of frustration gave way to my dropping the final year, and all emphasis has been hit and miss as i tried (pretty much) to restore what i'd dropped. Therefore, some thing has visited once again. A week ago, in the early hours of the day, i'd gotten out of bed to show heat on. i relaxed down, and centered on meditating and silencing my ideas and i instantly found myself in a lucid dream which was so beautiful... I used to be flying above a mountain stream with my spouse in the absolute most breath-taking environments. i sailed here and there, perhaps not the typical "flying" i've experienced before, but a far more mild, calm flying. my spouse is blessed with the capability to lucid dream from time to time and we've been referring to 'dreaming together' and have been attempting to achieve this going back many weeks, tho she's no memory of dreaming with me as of yet. once again, it's fall, and I'm experiencing something start to press again, I'm wishing to keep my capability to concentrate on the character once more and become re-acquainted with this 'god within' (or anything you need to make reference to it as ); this combined consciousness which i think we all have in common, the point that I'm all but totally unaware of on a regular basis, since I am not only seeking lucidity in my thinking, but lucidity in my waking world. I'm humbled by the truth that i only wanted to take the time to talk about, and find myself a nearer again. thanks for listening.