[gamecasta]

Thanks again for your iput. I took the advice here and posted about Lady on Facebook and someone contacted my housing manager who called me in and pointed out that it is illegal for me to own a pit bull which I never knew as almost EVERYONE has one in my development. So there is now a very real possibility that I can and will taken to housing court and threatened with eviction if I try to keep her. Getting a lawyer would probably not help at all as I've had her for only a month and I've been told the rules prohibiting pitbulls went into effect over a year ago.
As for not fostering that can't happen, this is a child who is a part of my family and I can't see her go into the system. I've seen what happens to the children in NYC foster care and I won't let her go through that.
I'm not strong enough to hold her as she's put to sleep but I also can't spend the rest of my life wondering if she's being treated right and ok. I'm in tears and can't stop crying but don't know what to do. I know I have to choose my family, I have two children of my own and I won't risk losing my home for anything or anybody. Again this is a really difficult situation and I'm so torn right now.