[Maira]

Okay, so basically I'm very unhappy with my life at the moment. There are points in the day where I will just start to break down and cry, I am not really sure exactly what is bringing me down but the only things I can think of is I am at this stage in my life where I don't really know what I am doing, I am currently studying for exams so I have a lot of stress from studying. But I am not really living my life, I stay inside all day, practically everyday. It feels as if though I hate the outside world. But the issues continue on the inside as my mum and I do not get along at all. We can't even have a conversation without getting into a fight. I try to deal with it but she is so childish, for example, if I say I want to go live with Dad for a while she will cut me off completely like she won't talk to me or address me. Also, she is continuously out socialising and this hurts me as I am have become a lonely person and I have cut my friends and everyone around me off. I am never invited (not that I would want to go) but it would make me feel a lot better if she would at least ask. So for example, when I went to bed last night she wasn't at home (she came home around 1am) and then when I woke up this morning she wasn't at home and then a few hours later she came home for about half an hour and then she was gone until 8pm at night. So when she got home, she wouldn't even make me dinner or anything. I know what you are thinking, I am old enough to make dinner for myself but that is not the point (besides my brother and I have been making dinner for her for the last few nights). So anyway I just ended up having a packet of tim tams for dinner, that's not normal, usually the parent makes dinner but not in my family (if you would even call it that). Dad, my brother, extended family all say it is wrong what she does to me and how I am treated but I don't really have any choice until I finished school. I don't know what to do, should I address her about the situation? Can anyone else relate? If you have any advice please let me know, it would be greatly appreciated.