[HugoSimon]

Yes, you're right. I think I'll have to just stop thinking about this whole idea of God and trying to blend the concepts. Thich Nhat Hanh has the right idea of taking the best from both traditions, but it still isn't really sitting well for me. Its just because of where I live that I'm trying to make Christianity fit in with Buddhism so I can go along to church and take part. The truth is it doesn't feel right for me anymore. I can't discuss with anyone at church or the bible study group how I feel or what I truly think because they wouldn't understand and I wouldn't be accepted there.

Maybe I just need to stop going for a while and see how I feel, and in that time concentrate on my meditation and reading some more about the Buddha's teachings. Its about being strong and looking within for support and guidance, rather than looking outward to these groups.

Is the 'Handbook of Mankind' a good place to start with regard to the Buddha's teaching?

Aasha