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I think you gave the answer to your own question in what you was writing here

You say you have mixed all kinds of Buddhism over the years you been a Buddhist. that is in it self a answer i feel to make sense of Buddhism you have to follow one path, and one Buddha. As i understand the teaching if you mix teachings or take away teachings it can be really difficult to get the answers you looking for

With kindness from The thinker