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Assalamu 'alaykum wa rahmatullah wa barakatuh,

I am new here, and I am happy to have found this forum, but I am also unhappy bcuz of my depression:

I've been obssessed with waswasah for almost three montsh wich made my life a trash, hamdulilah now I've learned to ignore them but I haven't learnt yet how to deal with my depression: I can't stop feeling guilty and I am afraid I will burn in hell forever, I just can't stop thinking about it, I try to remember to myself that I must be strong and faithfull in Allah's mercy but my depression is stronger then me, I feel like I can't live anymore but I neither wanna die bcuz I am afraid of hell.. I am taking drugs and I wonder if it is halal in Islam?

however I must change my medication as they don't make me feel better!
I even wanted to take a cognitive therapy by a psycologist but here where I live I can't find a Muslim one!

What do you advise me to do?
I know there are many like me, and that you may be tired to respond always to the same question, but I feel so lonely as I don't have nobody who I can talk to..

Please, please, make du'a for me because I feel like my heart is overwhelmed by guilty and pain and I don't know what to do in order to feel better!

Please ask Allah to love me, I feel like I am a bad person and like I don't deserve his love, this hurts me so much.. I don't know how to change my feeling and how to control them, I've tried many times in many ways but at the ent I am always the same!

may Allah reward you for your patience and dua's. Jazak Allahu khair!