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May Allah make it easy for you. Sister, it's not permissible for a female to give any such personal dawah to a non-mahram male. It would be haram for you to contact him for any such reasons. Just try first to heal youself spiritually and devolop ur self islamically and just say audhubillah and hahawla wala quwwa whenever shaytan should bring his thoughts or dreams to your mind. seek Allah's help out of this. Dont keep anything from him withyou. make sincere tawbah and duas . Read with translation lots of Quran, do istighfar, duroods Zikr and sadaqah. pray salaah regularly. try to join a group of pious muslimas.