[MediconStop]

My brother, please spare yourself and the rest of us a lot of wasted time by kindly reading and/or listening to the resources suggested in this thread. I am relisting all of them here and giving you links, wherever available, for how to purchase these books from a UK retailer (since you appear to be based there). I am putting them in the order that I think they should be read and/or listened to. My brother, once doing so, please come back with any questions you might have. Once again, please go through them in this order (I think that the last two books are optional for your purposes):

1) Bustan al Arifin ("Garden of the Gnostics") of Imam Nawawi [http://kitaabun.com/shopping3/produc...oducts_id=279]

2) "Fundamentals of Tassawuf" Lectures done in September 2009 [http://sacredlearning.org/general-talks/category]

3) Shari'ah and Tariqah by Shaykh Muhammad Zakariyyah [ http://www.scribd.com/doc/25518400/Shariat-Tariqat ]

4) Realities of Sufism by Shaykh Abd Al-Qadir Isa [ http://kitaabun.com/shopping3/produc...oducts_id=2898 ]

5) Merits of Remembrance of Allah: Ibn Qayyim, al-Wabil al-Sayyib [http://kitaabun.com/shopping3/produc...ducts_id=3126]

6) Sharh Futuh al-Ghaib [http://kitaabun.com/shopping3/produc...ducts_id=3647]

alright inshallah will do, buying books mighht be a bit difficult though so may be a while